i was able to enroll yesterday kahit after 48 years na dumating yung clearance ko.. amf! 9 am nsa sch0ol na k0, nauna pa nga ako kela angeL tp0s hinintay nila ko para makasabay sa knila sa pag enroll.. kasi binag0 na ang p0licy ng enr0llment.. padalawa dalawa nalang ang pin0p0st na bl0ck secti0ns, pinupun0 muna yun bef0re mag 0pen ung an0ther bl0ck.. tap0s di na sa p0sting area nka p0st, per c0llege na.. s0 in sh0rt, pag massc0mm ka, massc0mm lang ke0ng lahat sa bl0ck ni0.. unlike dati na, during the enr0llment, naka p0st lahat sa p0sting area lahat ng available bl0cks per c0urse.. ikaw or ke0 ang mamimili kung san ni0 gust0ng bl0ck tap0s may p0ssibility pa na may kasama ke0ng ibang c0urse sa ibang subjects [ sila ung nga free sec or ireg students ] ... and w0rst, tinul0i pa din pala ung evaluati0n, sabi kc samin di na if0f0llow un eh, gulat nalang kame yesterday na ganun na pla ang system of enrollment..
mga ar0und 2pm, nakapag enroll na sila angel, sabi k0 kc sa knila na sa 202 na sila pumunta.. s0 pinun0 pa muna nila ung 201.. para kc makahab0l kami ni mercy.. s0 un na nga.. ay o0 nga pala, fr0m 9am t0 4pm, im wid b0nn sa sch0ol.. and take n0te, wla ak0ng narinig na reklam0.. ehehe.. s0 mga 4:10pm, pinauna k0 na si b0nn sa sh0p kasi nga hihintayin k0 pa si m0m leah.. mga 4;30pm yata, nkuha na namin yung clearance.. s0 t0do madali kame ni eduard papunta sa CS bldg.. =p kasi c0usre nia CPE, e s0brang dami ng engineering kaya mabilis mapun0 ang isang bl0ck, den after namin sa cashier, nag separate ways na kme.. ehehe.. sa OZ kasi sia, eh nasa ST ang c0llege k0.. s0 un na.. naku naka ilang pabalik balik ak0.. tap0s i asked m0m bernard0 kung pede pa sa 202.. and teynk gad! pede pa.. as in ang dami pang sl0ts.. ehehe.. after k0ng makapag enr0ll, mag eenr0ll palang si mercy.. bagal kc eh.. di pa kinumplet0 ung requirements nia.. =) per0 nakahab0l din sia sa 202..
ang saya.. ehehe.. kaya lang ung mga dati naming iniwasan na maging kaklase ulit nung 2nd sem, e kaklase na naman namin ulit ngae0n.. haaayy life! but what imp0rtant is, magkakasama pa din kame nila angel except si anna and dris.. di k0 sure, kc sa june 5 pa sila mag eenr0ll.. e baka bl0ck 203 or 204 na ang 0pen nun eh.. =(
ab0ut sa mga subjects k0.. amf! wlang math and science.. kaya lang pur0 LIT.. phiL. lit.. w0rld lit.. tap0s may rizal pa.. amf! bka magkahal0hal0 na ung mga subjects na un sa utak k0.. ehehe.. tap0s may exp0sit0ry writing na k0.. and art appreciati0n.. hala?! e di naman ak0 marun0ng mag appreciate ng art.. ahahaha.. =p ay isa pa pala, may ec0 na k0.. waaa.. buti nalang nandian si kevin.. =) tuturuan daw nia ako.. =)
about sa sched k0, later k0 na ip0p0st, pag nasa bahay na k0.. minamaster k0 kc ung diner dash 2 eh.. ehehe.. =) ciao!
Unforgettable...
Wednesday, May 31,2:11 PM
is it really hard to take it as a consideration na atleast let other people where uve been upto or if you're going somewhere.. kung di ko pa itetext si mark, di ko pa malalaman na kasama sia paglilipat nila mark sa bulacan.. shit! kakabadtrip.. im n0t being t0o bitter about this kaya lang parang offensive on my part especially nanggaling pa sa ibang ta0 na kasama nila ung ungas na yun.. kakaasar tlga..
i dont even know what would be the right words to say para ma express ko ang asar ko sa kanya.. its been what? two weeks na din.. i kn0w na may fault din ako, kasi ive been s0 busy lately kaya lang an0 ba naman ang mahirap sa pag iinform sakin na aalis pala sia and he's not even sure when to come home.. shit tlga!
Unforgettable...
Sunday, May 28,6:26 PM
just got home from school.. and as always, wasted ako super! ehehe.. medy0 sad nga kc last day na ng duty nmin being a 'fr0ntliner' kc tap0s na ang freshmen orientation =( waaa.. mamimiss ko cla kua jerry.. =( tap0s the week after next week LTS pa nila sa Tagaytay.. =( sad tlga?! per0 sabagay, dami na naman ako pasalub0ng lal0 na fr0m y dearest friend eduard.. wee.. =)
anyway, enrollment na tomorrow.. and the gud thing is the pr0cess of enrollment is back t0 normal na.. weee.. st0p na ung TCG na kaartehan, ahaha.. and an0ther thing is n0 need na gumawa ng letter of explanation pag may 4 or inc0mplete.. kc n0h! di ko naman kasalanan why ako nagkar0n ng INC sa philo ko.. hmmff! ahaha.. and then, nagkar0n na kme ulit ng designated offices na pag dudutihan this sem.. ak0 sa CPE.. hehe.. sa dept ng mga p0ging c0mputer eng. =) at least di gan0ng mabigat ang w0rk c0mpare sa OSA. kasama k0 dun si jh0y.. =) nku! sana di na magkanda letse2 ang duty this year.. =)
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Friday, May 26,4:30 PM
s0ws.. ang fanget ng bag0ng lay out ng frendster ngae0n.. kakab0bo!! ehehe.. =p buti nlng nakuha k0 na ung allowance ko sa duty ko kaya happy ako.. kasi may m0ney na naman ako.. =) then last day na ng duty sa Friday, kasi enrollment na sa 30 and 31..
ay naku isa pa pala yun.. binag0 pr0cess ng enrollment samin.. nid pa ng TCG [true c0py of grades] para makapag enroll or yung c0mpilation ng grades m0 since 1st year 1st sem upto the present.. asar tlga! daming kaartehan.. >:0 per0 buti nlng regular and bl0ck ako since fr0m the start kaya c0mpilation lang ang nid ko.. ang hirap kaya mag apply nung TCG na yun, m0re than 2 weeks bag0 mo makuha.. e next week na ang enrollment..
it's already been 1 week, but it w0nt trigger me t0 make the first m0ve.. =( and an0ther thing PAST IS PAST.. ^^
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Thursday, May 25,10:22 AM
my object of obsession.. MATT of PBB teen edition.. waaa.. super crush k0 sia.. as in tlga?! iba ksi yung dating nia.. he's not the typical boy next d0or type per0 may dating.. tska he's not mukang mayabang and suplado and very talented tska may interest sa MUSIC... naku! basta tlga.. *wink*
Unforgettable...
Tuesday, May 23,9:49 AM
i already have a new monitor.. ahahaha.. it only means that, di k0 na nid na pumunta sa JAAZ [our sh0p] para magc0mputer.. ahaha.. i miss my pc.. my c0nnecti0n.. my files... and everything.. ahahaha..
next week, MWF nalang ang duty k0w.. and isa pa pala, naaasar ak0 kc ban sa manila ang "da vinci c0de".. the pr0blem is, madami ang nagpapaban.. ay naku! kc naman, kung against cla sa m0vie, edi wag nila pan0orin.. bwiset! >:0
even the SM, di nila ipalalabas ang da vinci c0de buti pa ang r0b.. weeee.. im starting t0 l0ve r0bins0n's place.. ahahaha.. per0 ang Galle, tagal k0 ng luv yun..
maybe by m0nday, n0od na kame nila kuya jerry.. =)
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Saturday, May 20,7:25 AM
while i was cleaning my room last saturday.. nakita k0 ung isang n0teb0ok c0natining all of my past entries in our newspaper in our sch0ol and there are s0me na ginawa k0 lang per0 di k0 sinama sa mga entry k0 sa pillars.. anyway, 0ne entry that really caught my attenti0n, is the entry entitled "I AM AN EX" ..
Well, if my brain serves my right, ive written this one because my first love and my first bf as well br0ke up..i think that was 5 years ago but ive written this one last 3 yrs ago [just trying to reminisce the past...] =( and while reading it again, everything went back again.. =( eeerrr... i really hate this feeling..
I am an ex.
I know that it's stupid and silly to sound as if my whole life revolved around being somebody's "ex girlfriend". But i can't help it... That title packs a pretty strong punch. I am now an official member of the "loved and lost" club. And while it's a title i don't exactly want, I have to admit that it does say some things about me.
I am an ex.
I once loved someone who loved me back. But he didn't want to stay... so i had to let him go. I cried. A lot. I spent countless nights wondering what went wrong, muffling my sobs with my pillows so my parents wouldn't suspect that something was amiss. I'd reminisce about our happy times, then break down when i'd realize that he was no longe mine.
I analyzed every single detail of our break up. I wrote long e-mails to my closest friends. I talked endlessly about my situation. I spent my nights in tearful telephone conversations and my days in daydreams where we'd end up in each other's arms again. Sometimes he was still my angel, still my knight in shinning armor who i'd do anything for just to have back. But sometimes, i saw him as the devil incarnate who broke my heart in the worst possible way and who deserved to be horsewhipped at the very least.
I told myself that it was all for the better. That this was the best for the both of us. That this was God's plan. My friends offered similar advice, none of which I hadn't heard before: "It's a sign that you're not meant for each other," "When God closes door, he opens a window," "Someone better is coming for you," "There are so may fish in the sea," But it didn't work. Because deep down, I still believed that he was the one, the only one.
And i couldn't understand how this was all for the better... When everyday seemed more torturous than the last... Not being able to be with him the way I wanted to be, seeing him so unaffected, and dealing with my broken and smashed heart and my bruised ego.
I tried to immerse myself in other activities to forget about him. I went out a lot. I filled my schedule with movie marathons, shopping sprees, and dance maniax. It worked for a while... but then there were time -- times when my mind was cleared of the busy thoughts i tried to occupy it with -- that i would think of him. His memory would sneak up to me on tiptoes, catching me in my most vulnerable moments.
I tried to show the world that i was OK. That i was over him. That it was fine just being friends. I didn't go around with a big "X" on my forehead, nor did i go around with puffy eyes and a tissue box. I tried to live my life as i knew it before i met him. People thought that i was doing great. They heard me laugh and theys aw me smile; i seemed happ, they said; and i told myself that i was. But in the solace of my room, where i tried to organize my thoughtsand sort out y feelings, i had to admit to myself that I wasn't truly happy. Because i was still yearning for someone and my heart still ached for something that could not be.
It's been over 4 years since we broke up, suprisingly, things have been gotten better. A LOT BETTER... Ive changed. Somewhere along the way, i realized that he wasnt the only one out there for me. I also realized that there were valid, powerful reasons why we split up. And ive become stronger, older, wiser. He's cahnged as well.. when i look at him.. sometimes i think that he's the same person.. he still has the same goofy smileand demeanori fell for and i like to believe the rest of him is unchanged as well. But then i take a closer look and I realize that HE HAS CHANGED.. that i dont know him anymore, not really.. not enough to love and care for him as i once did.
I am an ex.
Ive loved and lost. Ive cried tears for the things that were and that could have been. Ive wrestled with intense feelings of love and hate, of jealousy, of frustration. Ive simultaneously taken down and brought up my pride. Ive tried to rebuild my world without the person whom it used to revolve around. Ive tried to save myself from the depths of depression and self-pity and when i couldnt do that, i turned to family and friends for help. I know exactly what i gained, and i know how much i lost. Maybe a friend, but it was worth it.. Maybe someday it will be all clear to me.. Then again, maybe not.
And now that you've read it already, i can say that that life's been great without him.. esp now that i have my h0ney f0r alm0st 4 yrs na din.. maybe everything happens is really w0rth it.
Unforgettable...
Tuesday, May 16,3:26 PM
teynk gad! finish na mag enroll si b0nn.. and the funny thing is magkasun0d ung student number nmin kaya lang 2005 ak0.. dapat 2004 ak0 kaya lang transferee ak0 dba?
200513280 ak0 tap0s si b0nn 200612280.. ahaha.. parang adik lang n0h?!
Unforgettable...
Monday, May 15,10:55 AM
this week has been a very tiring one for me and some of my AUFAP family.. why? because of the Freshmen Orientation.. I chose to be one of the volunteered facilitators, to make my free time very efficient and useful. Wala din naman ak0ng gingawa sa bahay, except tumanga, matulog or mag net, s0 para maiba naman..
The orientation started last tuesday.. and mind you, we really didnt expect na there will 3 thousand of people that will attend the said orientation.. [including the student, one of his/her parent and unidentified number of chaperones..] Actually, there will be 3 sessions a day.. 9-11, 12:30-2:30, 3-5:00... haaayy.. as in after nung first sessi0n, supp0sedly lunch break na.. but bc0z dumadating na yung mga attendees f0r the next sessi0n, deadma na ang pagkain.. We had our lunch at around 5:30pm na.. haaayy.. parusa!
During the same day [tuesday].. releasing na nung mga assessments and IDs.. eeerrr.. parang stampede.. as in kakatak0t tlga.. walang sistema and mga parents.. parang tatakbuhan cla ng assessments ng mga anak nila.. grabe tlga! Then after that incident, we had our meeting.. lahat ng "fr0nt liners" [well, this is the Adams0n's active student leaders.. ahaha.. nakasama pa k0..].. we make our plans para maiwasan ang gan0ng incident ulet..
Then Thursday, aun.. ok na.. very organized and systematic.. walang parents na nag hihysterical.. ahahahaha.. =p
And h0pefully, this c0ming Monday.. may meting ulet kame f0r our new plans.. kasi sa OZ AVR nlang ang orientation and di na sa ADU THEATER.. mas maliit and mas k0nti ang attendees.. ehehehehe.. then starting next week, orienation will be held everyday na.. unlike last week TTh lang dba?!
Unforgettable...
Friday, May 12,5:57 PM
though we have been experiencing hard times ryt now, i cant afford not to be happy for my nephew and my niece..
kasi its been 3 yrs na yata the last time they saw their dad.. kasi their parents gt separated.. well, yung m0m nila is my ate.. actually, my she's my eldest c0usin [in my m0ther side] and since the separati0n occured, wla na kming balita sa papa nila.. as in wala tlga na parang bubbles na naglah0..
then there's this one time,na me pa ang nakareceived ng call.. its a ph0ne call fr0m their dad.. last m0nth lang yta yun.. and i was sh0cked t0 hear his v0ice again.. and he said na papuntahin daw si batiu sa [my nephew] kant0 kasi may bibigay daw sia.. s0 yun na.. pumunta si batiu dun t0gether wid my l0la.. di nga lang naksama si geri [my niece] kasi natutulog pa ung bata at dat time..then nung pagbalik nila, may package pala para kayla batiu.. kc citizen yung mga kapatid nung dad nila sa japan kaya aun.. ehehe.. and since then, i was very glad na atleast nakita na nia ulit ung papa nia.
Then nung Friday.. nasa sh0p kme nun.. and si mama naman ang nakausap ni t0lits.. [papa ng mga pamangkin k0] and he wants t0 talk to batiu daw.. but cnabi na nia muna sa mama k0 y nia tinawagan si batiu.. bibili daw nia ng mga gamit sa sch0ol yung mga bata.. o dba? and wen mama called up batiu, masesense mo na excited yung bata.. haaaayyy... =) then yesterday, sinundo na cla.. then mga around 5:30pm, nag l0ng distance si batiu fr0m cavite.. dun daw cla matutulog, kc yung mga l0lo't lola nila is gust0 clang makita.. per0 kinausap din nmn ng nanay si t0lits.. =) saya n0h?
i'm n0t sure if the w0rd "irresp0nsible" is appr0priate t0 describe my ate with regards sa pagiging nanay nia with her 2 kids.. actually, 3 na yun.. the y0ungest is chl0e.. per0 di na si t0lits ang tatay nun.. and di na din d2 nakatira si ate, dun na sa asawa nia.. and take n0te dit0 naman nakatira yung 2 nia pang anak.. if only i can write everything in here t0 pr0ved that she's one of the irresp0nsible m0m ever!!! and we're all h0ping na sana yung ginagawa nia kayla batiu and geri ay di nia gawin kay chl0e..
anyway, it is all in God's hands.. =)
Unforgettable...
Monday, May 8,6:30 AM
an update
May 1
- 8th bday of sis sam..
- went to Gardenville Resort in Antipolo
- wid pa,ma,sam,kevs,geri,batiu and ney
- had a great time [as in!]
- went home around 6pm
- ney stayed at h0me till 11pm..
- one of the best days of my life
- btw, pictures during this outing may be viewed in this page PICS
May 3
- around 11am, l0la nd i went t0 farmers in market2.. [we b0ught sugp0 and crabs]
- around 2pm, ma and i went to Designer depot.. had our lunch first in Racks..
- then around 3pm, we went to Tiendesitas..
- went home around 5pm.. and napilitan si ma na mag taxi back and forth bc0z of my sunburn..
May 4
- m0vie marath0n.. watched Stepf0rds wives.. ehehe.. [l0ve dat m0vie..]
- 6pm.. ney called up.. nangangamusta lang daw.. and asking why di k0 pa inupl0ad un mga pics nung outing.. [ataters!]
- yung sunburn k0.. s0brang hapdi.. waaaa.. =(
- watched MMK.. i was very t0uched th0ugh di pa sia tap0s..
- around 10pm, my t0oth was starting to ache.. and the pain was n0t t0lerable.. s0 ma b0ught me s0me medicines.. then i slept..
May 5
- im here in Jaaz.. sira kc m0nitor ng pc k0.. per0 nagamit k0 pa yun.. and the night of thursday, magnenet sana ak0.. aun! di na bumukas.. waaaa.. =(
- nd as always, im playing cake mania.. ehehehe
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Friday, May 5,4:22 PM
