its the first time ive been hurt coz of him.. i dont know why and i dont even realized that i was serious about it until that thing happened... i consider it as a joke but i was not even expecting that it will come to a point na masasaktan ako dahil sa knya. To whom?! well, secret.. bka kc he's reading my entries and the truth will automatically blast out.. Anyway, its very unexpected.. i really dont know what to say. Im tired and wasted from our practice [Mr. and Ms. Aufap] and when i came up to the office, yun lang pla ang makikita ko! *ouch!* it hurts though i kept on denying and avoiding him.. I luv bonn more than i luv anybody else around me.. and what's good about it is that im sure that i really do luv him and contented for having him. Well, its really unavoidable to meet other persons na you've never expected to meet whose so much different from those we knew. So ang tendency is, you'll going to admire him being unique. Anyway, baka sinasadya nya lang un noh, and from the start palang naman is close na daw tlga cla. We cant change the past what's best thing to do is to accept and live life to the fullest! Ciao.

shit! i rili dont know what im g0ing to do.. ndi ko na alam san pa ko lulugar! is it rili wrong to be friendly with other pipol especailly sa opp0site sex?! duh?! pathetic isnt he?.. eh wat about him? he's been more a friend can be with other girls around him.. but wala siang narinig sakin even a single word na nakit nya ginawa un? i dont even have some regrets why i forgive him and kahit minsan ndi ako nanumbat?! and just bcoz of an earring, kung ano2 na ang mga cnabi nya sakin?! now whose being unfair.. den yesterday, i have his fon and i saw the messages of "abby".. take note, bago na nmn! ndi ko lam kung tanga lang ako or wat! And may sarilipang folder.. shit! kakapalan na ng muka un.. and den he'll tell me na ako ang may ginagwang kabalbalan, haha! Look whose talking.. pano guilty sya kya lahat ng mga ginagawa nya pinapasa nya sakin. Its rili unfair, kc its been 3 years na ive never look for sumbody whose greater than him.. I dont even complain about sa mga parents nya.. khit ano na ang mga cnasabi sakin, ok lang ksi sabi nya he olweis defend me.. in what way ba?! kc its either he kept quiet or he just take all the things his m0m telling him about me! Kung tutuusin, der are so many things that i could complain about him, about our realtionship nd about his family, but all i did is to kept quiet and shut thehell up, and leave all the doings to him!Kc sabi nya sya na daw ang bahala.. Pero may nangyari ba? Wers the outcome? Wla dba? Ive nver been so public about these, but its to0 much and i just cant keep it.. All i want is to freak out and shout at him.. Ewan ko ba?! Basta bahala na.. all i want ryt now is peace of mind and i dont even want to see him!

im fucking bored ryt now.. ive got nothing to do, and ive nothing to think of to blog.. i fell so useless ryt now.. hay, anyway, ive been so eager to attend my classes, but the problem is with my professors.. take note ha, everyday, only one professor will attend, haha! They are all lazy.. And later may class na ko, theo... bored na nga ko, mas lalong mabobored pa. Ive been waiting for bonn to arived but until now wala pa din.. hay.. so un lang! ka chat ko kc ang abnoi eh.. miss dat gurl so badly! ciao!

im so bored ryt now.. i didnt attend my class coz i want to do sumting but i dont know wat it is... maybe bonn was ryt , i just miss him! *duH?!* anyway, la kong magawa tlga as in. Not because of pao i wont have anything to do to occupy my precious time. We chat from morning till afternoon, but not just chatting instead voice chatting.. and she even taught me the benefit i can get from the new beta version of YM.. its the PC to PC call.. hehe! Pero im having a hard tym hearing her.. anyway, aftr dat, nainis na ang lukaret sa fon ko na tumwag.. hehe! Ang tatag nga nun eh, coz its almost 12:30 am sa knila and still she's awake and chatting with me about things we spend together... *how sweet* ... There's also one thing that i realized... uhmm.. its not my problem pag may natamaan, im just expressing my OWN perception, ok?! Im just convinced that if its not meant to be, it will never be.. But if its meant for you, watever it takes, it will do happen, coz god let you to have it. I remember one thing i said to a friend, that being happy with sumbody's companionship is different from luving him or her or rather luving each other. Coz there times we misunderst0od love from happiness.. Of course its kinda the same but still they're different from one thing to another. But maybe, god has other plans for them, or malay naten dba?! trials lang to, for them to realized how important that person is, like wat happened to me and bonn. I admit that not all realtionships are perfect, even if it last for so many years na din.. trials are always there, whose ready to cross our paths especially in our most unexpected times. And after that incident, we realized the importance of one another in our lives. Let me put it this way, uhmm.. one cannot lived without the other.. parang ganun ba?! And im just happy, that we're one of those who survived in that kind of problem.. Sabagay, there's no harm in letting love to enter in your heart once again. And there's also no harm in forgiving sumone who hurt you.. Dba nga sabi, in love daw there's no forgiving, just understanding. I was able to read that one from a book, pero i forgot the title na eh. So yun lang.. Love each other in evry posible ways.. hehe!

just got home from skul na nmn.. ive started my duty na sa OSA.. hehe! Its cool and not so fun kc la pa nmn akong ganong ginagawa sa clerical eh. Anyway, kaasar nga eh kc supposedly i have three subjects to attend to but only one of my professors has attended.. hay naku, ive been early to school but then my professors are lazier than me,hehe! Maybe kuya tus is ryt na we paid them, for them to be absent and let us to do all the things we want.. pero sabagay 1st week of school plang nmn eh. So ang instance is we almost spend our free hours in the office, as usual me and merce na nmn.. Nakakapag log kmi almost twice a day.. 2 times lang ck ang required but kami parang dun na nagklaklase..hehe! Pero astig nga eh, lumalamig na sa office.. hehe! Ay before i forget, may clasmmate akong pogi.. hehe! Fafi na fafi ang dating, haha! Actually tatlo cla.. si mike, byte [hope im ryt] and aeron [super snobbish to!] ... and ang sweety ko is si mike, astig noh?! swerte ko tlga.. hehe! But sana mailayo sana ako sa temptation kundi lagots ako ke bonn.. hehe! So un lang.. ive got sumting to do pa kc eh...

just got home from school.. hay, medyo kapagod e pano ba nmn wla kming ginawa ni mercy kundi lumakad... haha! Up to 1 pm lang class ko ngaeon eh but ngaeon lang me naka uwi kc tambay pa ko sa office and sa OSA.. astig nga eh, sa osa ko naka duty, and sa clerical pa.. puro computer pa ang kaharap ko, no wonder why tus put me there! hehe. Anyway, im glad that i have found a new set of friends [na nmn?!] o0, na nmn, lam nio namn ako masyadong friendly, hehe! And syempre part pa rin nun si merce, e blockmate ko sia eh and sa hirap at sa ginhawa magkasama kmi nun.. hehe! Ayun, masaya din sa block nmin but ndi nman maiiwasan na may mga kaimbyerna na tao.. hay, quiet na nga lang kme eh and ndi na ganong pinagpapapansin ung mga ganong klase ng tao! So as of now, yun muna.. and im waiting for my honey kc eh, until now wla pa din sia.. kya nga ko nag log out ng maaga kc kala ko nandito na sia, un pla wla pa din... waaaaaa! Ay, oo nga pla, im so happy yesterday, wanna know why?! Wag ka na! haha.. Basta, yoko ng ikwento pa kc i wanted to keep it on my own and syempre kay bonn na din.. but he really surprised me.. i rili dont expect na he prepares something for me.. and take note 2 yrs and 9 mnths na kme, 3 mnths to go, 3 yrs na.. haha!

last june 10, o5 .. my closest friend trisha celebrated her 18th bday.. and syempre were so excited knowing that all of us [BUKING GRLS] will be there.. Uhmm... we all agreed na kitakits nlng kme sa haus nila syen para sabay-sabay nlng kame dba?! So mga around 2 in the afternoon, alis na ko sa shop and went home na.. And i arrived at our house around 3pm and ive waited for bonn to arrived.. mga 4pm na sya dumating.. Mga 4:30pm i started to fix myself na.. i took a bath den konting ayos, hehe! And i fix the clothe im going to wear,kc dun na sa haus nila syen kme magbibihis.. Around 5:30pm punta na kme kela syen.. and i was so surprised wen i saw reahlyn there, kc all i knew was ndi sya makakapunta.. but im so glad that she was able to make it.. So as expected, harutan to the max na nmn! Eh kc nmn noh, its been a month ng huli kming mag get together... Anyway,ang elyn sosyal na, nka ipod na! haha!ASTIG!.. So the party will going to start at 7pm, pero take note 7:00pm na sa haus pa din kme nila syenna, and we still need to go to nica's haus, kc nndun ung van na maghahatid samin.. around 7:30 on the way palang kame... Toots, called us up na nga eh, asking where were we na.. kc nga nmn noh, kmi nlng ang hinhintay, ang si trisha kc nininerbyos na..haha! And si ruchel kc ang incharge sa opening prayer.. MGa 8pm, nasa hotel na kmi.. and i was so glad that all of my closest friends are there, especially si tem [my lyf] and even si migs [cool!].. hehe! And si annie wid oyan, kc kasama si bonn, kya sumama na din si oyan! So ang trisha, aba, pa virgin effect pa..hehe! Pero dpat pagbigyan, debutante eh.. And im so surprised wen idol arrived with bojedh.. hehe! Akalain mo un?! Nagmistulang reunion na nga eh.. Lalo na in our part, [BUKING GRLS] .. all of us are there, except for hazel, hay, wats new abt dat?! So un na.. The party ended around past 12 na din.. and punta kme decades sa timog ... wla nmn kcng problem sa wheels kc 4 of my friends bring their wheels... ASTIG! me, elyn, oyan and annie sa van, si bonn nd migs sa pick up.. and si reah, trisha and syen sa sports car.. hehe! Putsa devil drived tlga kung magmaneho.. waaa... kakawindang! anyway, mga around 2am we went home na, kc were so tired na din! Sa haus nmin na tulog si bonn, and as usual, memorable na nmn ang day na un kc may inopen sya sakin na eversince nageon lang nia sinabi sakin, and bcoz of that, im so glad narinig ko na din sa knya.. haha! Around 3am fudtrip kme, we went to the nearest 7'11 and buy some food to eat.. mga 4am sleepy na ko.. so tulog na kme.. and mga 7am ginsing ko na sya, its time to go home na.. aalis pa kc cla ng 10am eh. Naku, napuyat ako sa knya kakagising sa knya! so un lang.. all i can say, i rili enjoyed a lot.. especially with my closest friends around, haha! And of course ndi mawawala ang picture taking.. Uhmm.. next tym nlng ung pics kc ndi pa na uupload eh.. baliw kc eh.. basta next tym nlng ung pics.. maybe by tomorrow or the next day or the next next day.. haha!

hay, at last lalaban na ang mga adeek.. haha! Pero infairness mamaya lang cla magprapractice, e pano ba nmn puro gunbound ang inaatupag..hehe! Pang-gulo kc si nicko ng concentration eh. Anyway, they will be practicing till wee hours.. (buti nga!)... And take note, sleepover pa ang drama nila d2 sa sh0p.. pra sabay-sabay na cla sa papunta sa megatrade.. I rili hope na sana makapasok kme sa regionals... sabagay khit nmn cno sabi na may pag-asa kme kc 3 sa members nmin ang nakasama sa t0p 100 best players of ragnarok.. yahooo... syempre kasama bro ko dun..haha! Nagulat nga din ako nung pinakita samin ung site ng clasmate nia.. it includes 100 best players of ragnarok.. and as i said kasama nga cla... si "d0wn4u" which is kevin puge my kafatid, then si "s0phia" si ansley puge un (the richest and the most wafu battle BS) .... and last syempre ang team captain and isa sa mga revenges... si "griever_revenge" si JR puge... haha! Well, sana maging adavntage nila ang pagiging adeek nila... lam nio ba na mas mahaba ang tym na kinoconsume nila sa paglalaro ng RO compare sa pagtulog nd pagkain nila..haha! Yumayaman ang sh0p dahil sa knila... mwehehehe... Anyway, lets kip our fingers crossed, dba nga?! If its meant to be, mangyayari't mangyayari tlga un... Kya lang sana ndi kame madaya, lyk nung nangyari sa luzon... naku, bka magwala si ansley dun, e xobrang highblood pa nmn nun... Waaaaa.... kinakabahan ako para sa honey ko, kc ba nmn bat rouge pa binighay sa knya..hehe! Pero ndi daw sia papatulugin nila team leader, para makasanayan nia. But sabi nga nila na kya ni bonn un, madali lang nmn turuan un eh, and besides beta plang ang RO naglalaro na sia, kya isa din siang adeek... ahah! I rili wish them luck... waaa... ndi ko tlga lam kung ano ang ryt words na dpat sabihin para sa knila... but still, kita-kita nlng sa megatrade mga adeek... susun0d kame dun! And sa mga friends ko sa UNHOLY, gudlak din sa inyo, buti ndi pa tau ang ngakalaban, kundi mas mahahati ako... ahaha! Basta gudlak sa lahat... ciao!

yesterday, ney called me up at around 4 in the afternoon, asking if i could come with him at star city.. actually, going at star city is not my trip but for the sake of my love for him (hehe!)... edi go na rin. Then inaya ko din ung cuz ko, so un na. WE agreed na magkita nalng kame sa vito cruz..hainaku, sa dinamidami ng days na umaalis ako, why kahpon pa ang traffic.. so me and cuz arrived there around 9pm...waaa... and as expected ney has enough reasons to be mad... as in galit tlga! Pero ive been given a chance to explain my side, why i got stocked up and be late, that i never used to! (ehem-ehem!) Den sakay na kming ng orange na jeep..hehe.. infairness cute tlga ng color nun. We paid the entrance and off we go inside..haha! Daming pips tlga kya nawiwindang ako.. Anyway, i control myself na wag magreklamo..hehe! So, ang first nming sinkayan is "cyclone loop".. actually, yoko ngang sumakay kc nagka phobia na ko..kc wen i was still in grade 6, pilit akong sinakay nung friend ko sa space shuttle sa enchanted.. waaaa... ive never culd imgaine howi look at that very moment. Pero la din nmn akong nagawa, e kc nakakahiya sa mga cuz nia noh.. sabihin chicken pa ko! So go na din.. and besides sakto kame sa seats.. 12 kc kme so no turning back na tlga. Den turn na nmin... haha! ewan ko ba kung anong nangyari basta all i can remember is nung tumigil na ung cyclone..hehe! But its worth trying for. Nxt is the "viking".. haha! eh sa sobrang malas nmn, eh ang kukulet ng mga kasama ko, parang sinubukan nung operator ang tapang nila.. aba, tinagalan pa ang pag andar ng viking! kakalula pala un pag sobrang tagal un and nasa likod pa kme... waaaa... mas nalula nga ko dun kesa sa cyclone eh... Nxt is sa "sa gabi ng lagim".. the horror house... sus, kami lang ang nagtakutan eh! hehe... tulak dito, tulak dun.. haha! Parang baliw nga eh.. Sunod is sa "deep freeze" ba un? basta dun sa may malamig, na sobrang lamig tlga.. Den humiwalay kming dalawa ni bonn sa knila.. coz im so tired and he's tired also and hungry! So eat muna kme den rest for a while.. punta kame sa lion king..hehe... la lang trip lang... den bump car... last is the wild river... yahooo... libre ligo! tpos ang mahusay pa dun is umulan pa...hehe! Den, after nun, punta muna kme sa baywalk den we go home na around 1am... kc kasama nmin si benok... e bata pa tlga un and to the highest level tlga energy nung batang un... kc dpat gimik pa kme nila JR... sa cowboy grill sana kme or khit saan kc dba nasa malate na kme... e kaso nga may mga kasama kming mga kids, so better luck nxt time nlng... So un lang... Ay oo nga pla..dis coming saturday is RPC na.. waaa... sana manalo ang mga adeek! Bring home the 1 million adeeks! hehe.. gudlak sa inyo... ciao!