our beLoved d0ggie named "shaggy"...
around 9 in the morning, my m0m told me that our pet d0g was dying.. at first i d0nt take it to0 seriously but when i decided to g0 down i saw her lying helplessly with s0 much bl0od around her b0dy.. i was really sh0cked.. i really d0nt kn0w what t0 do.. when i asked my niece where our grandma went, she said that she went to the market t0 buy s0mething.. s0 what i did is i c0me nearer t0 our d0g and h0ld her as if that w0uld be the last time.. when i h0ld her, she gradually cry.. that very minute, all i did is t0 hold her and be there t0 her side.. when my l0la arrived, i t0ld her that our d0g was totally in pain.. and maybe "shaggy" heard the v0ice of my l0la, s0 she st0od up t0 the fact that she's really having a hard time.. the bl0od was fl0wing in our fl0or.. and i really cant take it, as if i was g0ing t0 v0mit.. s0 i g0t upstairs instead. Then my l0la was calling me t0 help her c0ntrolling "shaggy" t0 stand up then i t0ld my m0m that i really cant s0 she went d0wn instead.. after a minute, i went d0wn again t0gether with my c0usin ycart.. "shaggy" was dead already, i can see panting and bravely fighting death.. and maybe it came t0 a p0int that she cant n0 l0nger h0ld it up, she passed away ar0unf 10:30 in the m0rning..
it's alm0st been m0re 9 years that she's been living with us.. that's why its really s0 hard that she have t0 bid g0odbye.. that very m0ment, i feel h0w hard t0 l0ss s0me0ne y0u l0ve and very special in our hearts.. haaayyy.. im s0 depressed rigth n0w especially my l0la.. she keep on calling shaggy's name.. haaayyy..
i just h0pe she's with g0d right n0w... and i really thank her because she sacrifice her life t0 save 0ne of my family member's life.. she's trully a man's bestfriend indeed..
Unforgettable...
Tuesday, December 27,1:37 PM
hmmm...
im slightly irritated ryt n0w.. kc biruin m0 naman, kahap0n pala ang alis nung m0kong na un all the way t0 pangasinan.. he called me up yesterday, but i was n0t able t0 talk t0 him.. ar0und 12 n0on daw, ycart t0ld me na he called up and said na if im the in the sh0p na ill make a return call t0 him.. then he called again ar0und 1 pm.. my m0m was the 0ne wh0 answered the ph0ne.. and she said t0 him that i was having my duty na and ill be arriving in the sh0p ar0und 3 or 4pm pa which is true.. what im trying t0 p0int out in here is that sana man lang pinasabi na lang ke ycart or sa mama k0 na aalis na siang l0ko sia.. bwiset tlga.. haaayyy.. im trying t0 calm d0wn and set my th0uhts int0 order kc ill be having my prelims na t0morrow.. s0 i d0nt want any disturbance.. shit! basta c0me what may pagbalik nia..
Unforgettable...
Tuesday, December 13,1:09 PM
m0ving on..
finally, kahit pan0 i haved 0n na since my f0n and my wallet had been snatched.. shit tlga! but still i d0nt have any blaming fact0r basta all im trying t0 remember always is everything happens is g0d's will.. i mean, its really meant t0 happen.. haaaayyy life.. anyway, di me makakasama sa outing ng h0ney k0 kc till decmber 19 is my class pa din kame.. i g0ing t0 have my prelim in trig0.. waaa.. di tlga fair si engineer.. sia lang ang pr0f k0 na naka sched ng 19.. waaa..sayang tlga.. 3 pa naman un.. haaayyy.. anyway, g0t t0 go na.. lar0 pa kme ng h0ney k0 ng RO.. ehehe... [adik!]
Unforgettable...
Saturday, December 10,7:08 PM
earlier this aftern0on..
i was r0b.. waaa.. my f0n and my wallet with 800 pes0s on it was l0st.. shit tlga.. sayang yung m0ney.. and my reg f0rm was there als0.. teynkk gad my ID was n0t in my wallet kundi naku mas malaking gast0s.. w0rth 300 pa nmn yun and prelims na next week s0 need k0 tlga na may ID.. waaaa.. im s0 los ryt n0w..
Unforgettable...
Wednesday, December 7,8:53 PM
email of my cuzzy ycart.
i was really g0t interested with the title of the email that my cuz had sent me.. it g0es s0mething like "BABALA SA MGA MAHILIG MAGSHOPPING SA SM MANILA SA HARAP NG MANILA CITY HALL..." see what i mean.. sma manila pa, e lahge kaming nndian nila angel [ wc is kc malapit lang sa skul.. ] anyway, at first i th0ught it was s0mething na parang may bad spirit or things like that but when i was reading it, i was sh0cked that there are people r0aming around in that mall.. anyway, here is the entire mail of my cuz..
HINDI KO PO KAYO TINATAKOT. HINDI RIN PO ITO ISANG KWENTO LANG. HINDI
PO ITO BIRO... ITO PO AY TOTOONG NANGYARI SA AKIN, SA ANAK KO, AT SA
ASAWA KO.
NOVEMBER 13, 2005 MORE OR LESS 3:00PM TO 4:00PM AT SM MANILA. NANDON PO
AKO, KASAMA ANG PAMILYA KO SA SM DEPARTMENT STORE. DUN PO SA MADAMING
LARUAN NA TINITINDA. TOYS LIKE BIKE FOR BABY, STUFFED TOYS, ETC. I
INSTRUCTED THE SALES CLERK TO GET THEIR STOCK FOR THE BIKE THAT I HAVE
CHOSEN FOR MY BABY(1 YEAR OLD BABY). AFTER THAT, TINESTING NAMIN ANG BIKE
AND THEN BINAYARAN KO SA COUNTER.
DITO PO NAGSIMULA ANG ISTORYA NG AKTONG NAGBABAYAD NA AKO SA COUNTER.
ISANG MEDYO MATANDANG BABAE ANG LUMAPIT SA AKIN, PINAGBINTANGAN NYA PO
AKO NA DINUKOT KO DAW ANG PERA NYA NA NAGKAKAHALAGA NG PHP 2,500.00(TWO
THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED PESOS). ANG SABI KO PO, "MRS, WAG HO KAYONG
MAGBINTANG, DI KO HO MAGAGAWA ANG SINASABI NYO, MAY TRABAHO PO AKO, MAY PERA
AKO, MALINIS ANG PAGKATAO KO, AT ISA AKONG INSTRUCTOR". AYAW HONG
MAKINIG NUNG BABAE SA PINAPALIWANAG KO... DAHILAN UPANG LAPITAN KAMI NG
SECURITY GUARD AT IBA PANG CLERKS NG SM MANILA. DAHIL PO SA AYAW MANIWALA
NG ALE SA AKIN, AT DAHIL PO PINAGBIBINTANGAN NYA NGA AKO, NILABAS KO PO
ANG PERA KO SA HARAPAN NYA. NUNG ARAW NA UN PO, MAY DALADALA AKONG
PERA, 11, 000.00 (ELEVEN THOUSAND PESOS) NA NAKALAGAY PO SA LOOB NG ZIPPER
NG SINTURON KO. NILABAS KO PO LAHAT AT SINABI KO SA KANILA NA MAY PERA
AKO, AT HINDI KO MAGAGAWA ANG IBINIBINTANG NYONG PANDURUKOT NG PERA NYO
NA NAGKAKAHALAGA NG 2, 500.00. LALO PONG DUMAMI ANG TAO. PINAPUNTA PO
KAMI SA OFFICE NG MANAGER NG SM NG SECURITY GUARD.
ININTERVIEW NILA UNG NAGREREKLAMO, KINUHA NILA ANG SIDE KO.
PINAPATUNAYAN PO NG 2 SALES CLERK NG SM NA NAG ENTERTAIN SA AMIN NA WALA KAMING
KASALANAN DAHIL SA SIMULAT SIMULA NG PAGPUNTA NAMIN SA LOOB NG DEPARTMENT
STORE AY SIYA NA ANG NAG ASIKASO SA AMIN.
SA PALIWANAG PO NG ALE NA NAGCOCOMPLAIN, UN DAW PONG PAGKAKATUPI NG
PERA NYA AT NG PERA KO AY IISA KAYA LUMAKAS DAW PO ANG KUTOB NYA NA PERA
NYA UNG HAWAK KONG PERA.
TINANONG PA NGA PO NIYA AKO SA HARAP NG MANAGER KUNG MAGKANO ANG
BINAYAD KO. ANG SABI KO PO, 2000 (TWO THOUSAND PESOS PO) KC PO ANG PRESYO NG
BISEKLETA NG PAMBABY E MORE OR LESS 1,700 (ONE THOUSAND SEVEN HUNDRED
PESOS) INCLUDING THE BATTERY. ANG SABI PO NG ALE, SIGE... ILABAS MO ANG
500.00(FIVE HUNDRED
PESOS) KC 2,500 (TWO THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED PESOS)LAHAT ANG PERA KO NA
TIGLILIMANGDAANG PISO. NILABAS KO PO ANG ISANG LIBO (2 TIG 500.00) SABAY
SABING SIGURO NAMAN PO E MANINIWALA NA KAYO NA HINDI AKO ANG TAONG
NANDUKOT SA INYO... TATLONG LIBO PO KASI ANG NASA BULSA KO, WALONG LIBO
NAMAN PO ANG NASA LOOB NG SINTURON KO... KUNG GUSTO NYO PO E BILANGIN NYO
PA. PUMUNTA LANG PO KAMI DITO SA SM PARA IBILI NG LARUAN ANG BABY
NAMIN. ITO PONG PERANG DALA DALA KO E PAMPABINYAG NG BABY KO...
AYAW PA RIN PONG MANIWALA NG ALE. PINALIWANAG NA DIN PO NG MANAGER NG
SM NA HINDI PORKE AKO ANG HULING NAKITA NUNG ALENG NAGREREKLAMO E AKO NA
ANG KUMUHA NG PERA, ANG DAMI DAMI KASING TAO SA MALL. NAGSALITA NA DIN
PO ANG SALES CLERK NA TALAGANG SA SIMULAT SIMULA NG PAGPUNTA NAMIN SA
SM E SIYA NA ANG KAHARAP NAMIN AT SIYA ANG NAG ASIKASO SA AMIN. SUBALIT
KAHIT ANO PONG PALIWANAG ANG GAWIN SPECIALLY NG MGA TUMITISTIGO NA WALA
AKONG KASALANAN E SARADO HO ANG TENGA AT AYAW MAKINIG NG ALE SA AMIN.
DAHILAN UPANG SABIHIN NG MANAGER NG SM NA KUNG HINDI MAAAYOS ANG
PROBLEMA DITO SA LOOB E DADALHIN NATIN SA PULIS.
SUMANGAYON PO AKO NA DALHIN NGA SA PULIS UPANG MATAPOS NA, TUTAL E
MAYRON NAMANG NAGPAPATUNAY NA WALA NGA AKONG KASALANAN. I REQUESTED THE
MANAGER OF SM MANILA TO LET THE 2 SALES CLERK AND SECURITY GUARD BE WITH
US AT THE POLICE STATION. HABANG UMAALIS PO KAMI NG MALL, E MAY
TINAWAGAN UNG ALE SA CELLPHONE NYA, AT SA TONO NG PANANALITA NYA E PULIS ANG
TINAWAGAN NYA NA MANGGAGALING PA SA CAMP CRAME. NAGTIWALA PO AKO SA MGA
PULIS SA CITY HALL NG MANILA KASI NGA PO MAY NAGPAPATUNAY NAMAN NA WALA
AKONG KASALANAN.
PAGPASOK PO NAMIN SA PRESINTO, TINANONG NG PULIS KUNG ANO ANG KASO.
PINALIWANAG PO NUNG ALE. TINANONG PO NUNG PULIS KUNG ANO ANG PANGALAN KO,
SINABI KO PO. ANO DAW TRABAHO KO, SABI KO PO E INSTRUCTOR NG MARINDUQUE
STATE COLLEGE.
LUMABAS PO UNG PULIS, SINAMA UNG 2 SALES CLERK AT SECURITY GUARD AT
DOON KINAUSAP.
PUMASOK PO ULIT UNG PULIS SA PRESINTO, PINUNTAHAN UNG ALE SA
INVESTIGATION SECTION AT SINABI PO NA "MRS, MAHINA PO ANG KASO, HINDI PO YAN
TATANGGAPIN NG KORTE, WALA PO KAYONG EBIDENSIYA NA DINUKUTAN KYO NG TAONG
NIREREKLAMO NYO."
E HINDI PO, SABI NG ALE... SIYA LANG PO UNG TAONG NAKITA KO SA LIKOD KO
NUNG MAWALA UNG PERA KO....
"KAYA NGA PO, NAKITA NYO PO BA NA DINUKOT NYA NG ACTUAL UNG PERA NYO?"
"HINDI PO..."
"SO, WALA PO KAYONG KATIBAYAN NA DINUKUTAN NGA KAYO. AT ISA PA, MAY
NAGPAPATUNAY PO NA WALANG KASALANAN UNG TAO..."
... "PERO, KUNG GUSTO NYONG MAGSAMPA NG REKLAMO, E SIGE, MAGPA
IMBISTIGA KAYO... "
"KUNIN MO ANG STATEMENT NG ALE..." SABI NYA DUN SA ISA PANG PULIS...
BIGLA HONG DUMATING UNG PULIS NA TINAWAGAN NUNG ALE.
TINAWAG PO NYA AKO, UNG SECURITY GUARD AT UNG 2 SALES CLERK UPANG
KAUSAPIN SA LABAS.
LUMABAS PO AKO, NG AKTONG LUMALABAS PO AKO E SINITA AKO NUNG ISANG
PULIS, "HOY! SAAN KA PUPUNTA?"
"TINAWAG HO AKO NUNG PULIS NA KASAMA NUNG ALE" SABI KO...
AH, OK... SABI NG PULIS...
NUNG NASA LABAS NA PO KAMI, HINDI PO AKO NAGSASALITA, HINAYAAN KO PO NA
UNG MGA TESTIGO ANG MAGSABI KUNG ANONG NANGYARI... PAGKATPOS PO NON,
KINAUSAP AKO NUNG PULIS NA KASAMA NUNG ALE... ANG SABI NYA "ALAM KONG
WALA KANG KASALANAN, NAIINTINDIHAN KITA, GANITO NA LANG, IPAPALIWANAG KO
SA IYO HA..." "NANGYARI NA DIN KASI SA AKIN NA NAAGAWAN AKO NG KWINTAS
NOONG ARAW, AT HINDI KO NA NAKITA UNG NANG AGAW." "ANG GUSTO KASING
MANGYARI NG TITA KO E BAYARAN MO UNG PERANG NAWAWALA, KAHIT KALAHATI LANG
NG 2,500 PESOS AT HINDI NA NYA ITUTULOY ANG KASO."
NAPAIYAK PO AKO, AT SINABI KO SA KANYA NA ... "WALA NAMAN PO AKONG
KASALANAN, AT MAY NAGPAPATUNAY NA NGA PO NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN, SIR
NAMAN, ANG HIRAP HONG KITAIN NG PERA NGAYON, ANG HIRAP PO NG BUHAY..."
"E, MAHIRAP KA PALANG KAUSAPIN E... SIGE, KAUSAPIN MO ANG TITA KO...
KUNG MAY PERA LANG AKO E, AKO NA MISMO ANG MAGBABAYAD SA KANYA, PAG KASI
SINABI NYA, E SINABI NYA TALAGA AT TALAGANG GAGAWIN NYA..."
PUMASOK PO AKO NG PRESINTO AT KINAUSAP KO NAMAN UNG PULIS SA
LOOB(BAUTISTA PO ANG NAME PLATE NYA). NAGULAT NGA PO AKO NG SABIHIN NYA NA "ANG
MAITUTULONG KO LANG SA IYO E GANITO, ILABAS MO ANG PERA MO SA BULSA AT
MAGTIRA KA LANG NG PAMASAHE NYO PAUWI PARA MATAPOS NA ITO"
HINDI KO NA PO NAPIGILAN ANG SARILI KO AT TULUYAN NA AKONG UMIYAK.
UMIYAK NA DIN PO ANG MRS KO, PATI NA DIN PO ANG ANAK NAMIN NA ISANG TAONG
GULANG PA LANG.
"SIR, ALAM PO NINYO NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN... MAY NAGPAPATUNAY NA NGA
PO DI BA?"
"HINDI KO SINASABI NA MAY KASALANAN KA, GANITO HA... ISIPIN MO NA LANG
PAG NATULOY ANG KASO, MAGBABAYAD KA SA ABOGADO, MAGBABAYAD KA SA
GANITO, GANYAN, ETC. AT MAKUKULONG KA PA"
"BAKIT PO AKO MAKUKULONG E MAY TESTIGO NGA AKO NA WALA AKONG
KASALANAN?"
"MAY REKLAMO KASI UNG ALE SA IYO... KUNG GUSTO MO E MAGMAKAAWA KA SA
ALE PARA HINDI NA NYA ISAMPA UNG KASO..." SABI NI BAUTISTA
"SIR, WALA PO AKONG KASALANAN, BAKIT AKO MAGMAMAKAAWA?"
"MAKUKULONG KA TALAGA..." SABI NI BAUTISTA
PAKIRAMDAM KO PO E PINAGKAKAISAHAN AKO NG MGA PULIS SA LOOB NG
PRESINTO...
BIGLA HONG MAY IPINASOK NA MGA KRIMINAL, NAHULI DAW NILA UN. ANG LALAKI
PO NG KATAWAN, APAT NA TAO AT ANG BABAHO PO NILA.
SABI PO NI BAUTISTA, "ISA, DALAWA, TATLO, APAT, HABANG MINUMUSTRA SA
DALIRI NYA SABAY TURO SA AKIN... IKAW ANG PANGLIMA... MAGSISIKSIKAN KAYO
SA LOOB, KAWAWA KA JAN..."
"SIR, WALA PO AKONG KASALANAN..."
PINANGHINAAN NA PO AKO NG LOOB... AT DAHIL DITO, KINAUSAP KO NA PO ANG
ALE...
HINIHINGAN NYA PO AKO NG 2500 PESOS, ANG SABI KO, "MRS, ALAM NAMAN PO
NINYO NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN. ETO PO ANG 1000PESOS"
"HINDI PWEDE, KAILANGAN E KAHIT 2000PESOS , ANG YABANG MO KANINA SA SM
DI BA? ANG DAMI DAMI MO NGANG PERA SA LOOB NG SINTURON E AKINA ANG
2LIBO"
"MRS, 1500 LANG PO ANG KAYA KO, PAMPABINYAG KO PO UNG PERA KO NA
NANDITO, AT UUWI PA PO AKO NG MARINDUQUE NGAYONG GABI..."
KINAUSAP NG ALE UNG PULIS NA KASAMA NYA, "ANO, BINIBIGYAN NYA AKO NG
1500PESOS, OK NA BA UN? " SABI NG ALE.
"OO, OK NA UN" SABI NG PULIS NA KASAMA NYA.
"ANO, OK NA HO BA MRS? " SABI NI BAUTISTA
"OPO SIR, OK NA PO..."
"O, SIGE IBLOTTER NA NATIN ANG KASO"
NAKASULAT PO DOON NA AKO AY NAGING SUSPECT AT ANG NAGREREKLAMO E HINDI
NA INTERESADO NA MAGSAMPA NG KASO..
PINAPIRMA PO NYA AKO PATI NA RIN ANG ALE NA NAGPAKILALANG "ZENAIDA
GONZALES" 57 YEARS OLD AT EMPLEYADO DAW NG DECS. NAGPAKILALA PA PO SIYANG
TAGA MARINDUQUE DIN, SA BARANGAY MAGAPUA MOGPOG, MARINDUQUE"
PAGKATPOS KO PONG PUMIRMA, LUMABAS KAMI NG PAMILYA KO MORE OR LESS
7:00PM. ANG SABI PO NUNG ALE, SASABAY KAMI SA INYO... KINABAHAN PO AKO,
BAKIT SIYA SASABAY SA AMIN SA PAG-UWI? ANO PA BA ANG GUSTO NYA?
HABANG KINAKAUSAP NG ALE UNG PULIS SA LOOB, E NAGLAKAD NA KAMI PALABAS
NG PRESINTO. SINABI KO SA SECURITY GUARD AT 2 CLERK NA PAKIHATID NYO
NAMAN KAMI SA PARADAHAN NG BUS PAPUNTANG CAVITE... AYAW KONG MAG TAXI,
AYAW KONG MAG FX, ANG SABI KASI NG ALE E SASABAY DAW SILA SA AMIN...
KINAKABAHAN AKO... SABI KO SA KANILA.... PLEASE NAMAN, IHATID NYO KAMI SA
TERMINAL NG BUS...
NILAKAD PO NAMIN FROM CITYHALL TO LAWTON TERMINAL NG BUS PERO WALANG
BIYAHENG CAVITE (PURO DASMARINAS, BATANGAS, ETC.) LAKAD ULIT KAMI TO
QUIAPO, MALAPIT PO SA BASKETBALL COURT, THEN HANGGANG MARATING NAMIN ANG
LAWTON SA MAY SSS BUILDING...
NG MAY DUMATING NA BUS, NAKAHINGA KAMI NG MALUWAG AT NAGPASALAMT KAMI
SA SECURITY GUARD AT CLERKS SABAY SABING "PAKISABI SA MANAGER NYO KUNG
ANO MAN ANG NANGYARI... UNG TOTOONG NANGYARI..." MARAMING SALAMAT SA
INYO... HABANG TINITINGNAN KO ANG BISIKLETA NG BABY KO...
KINAKABAHAN PA RIN PO KAMI HABANG NSA LOOB NG BUS, PERO ANG INISIP KO
NA LANG PO E KAHIT ANONG MANGYARI DITO SA LOOB NG BUS E MADAMING TAONG
MAKAKAKITA... MADAMING TETESTIGO...
KAYA, MGA KABABAYAN, KAIBIGAN, MAG-INGAT PO KAYO SA SM MANILA ... KUNG
MAIPARARATING NYO PO SA MANAGEMENT NG SM MANILA ANG EMAIL KO, MARAMING
SALAMAT PO. KUNG MAIPARARATING NYO PO KE TULFO, ITONG EMAIL KO,
MARAMING SALAMAT PO.
GANYAN PALA SA MANILA, MAY TUMITISTIGO NA NGA WALA KANG KASALANAN...
PERO... GANON PA RIN ANG GINAWA NG MGA PULIS NA TAGA CITY HALL NG
MANILA...
"BAUTISTA" YAN LANG ANG NAKAUNIFORM NA PULIS NOONG NOV. 13, 2005 SA
CITY HALL NG MANILA...
PAANO KUNG WALANG TUMESTIGO? SIGURO, LALO AKONG KAWAWA...
IPARATING NYO PO ITO SA MGA KAIBIGAN NYO UPANG MAKAPAG-INGAT...
MARAMING SALAMAT PO,
LORIMER L. IMPERIO
MARINDUQUE STATE COLLEGE
INSTRUCTOR I
see what i mean?!... hmmm... people like that have n0 heart and cant even thinks of s0mething m0re pleasant way t0 earn m0ney.. gad! they make l0ts of lies just t0 have m0ney.. and their victims are people wh0 really w0rked hard t0 earn m0ney.. tap0s sila pasarap sa buhay.. wlang ginawa kundi manl0ko ng ibang ta0.. damn! i wish th0se people will face the gravest karma ever.... im s0 irritated with people wh0 are liars and s0meone wh0 use other people f0r the g0ods of them.. haaayyy... why is there th0se kind of people still lives in this w0rld..
Unforgettable...
,1:21 PM
getting hold of my feelings..
its really quite hard in controlling ur emotions ryt?! esp when ur in the middle of the class.. alm0st all of my pr0f had called my attenti0n bc0z they thought i was daydreaming.. but i was really trying to get hold of myself and esp the way im feeling ryt n0w.. haaaayyyyy.. alam m0, der r tyms that 0ne day, im g0ing t0 faint.. ehehe.. bc0z im really really lacking a lot of sleep to the fact that my class starts at 7 in the m0rning with n0 vacant.. it s0 happens that angel usually br0ught up s0mething t0 eat f0r breakfast, but me and the girLs we're able t0 eat usually ar0und 11 am na din.. that's why im having a hard time t0 overc0me all of the pressures and burdens inside of me..
i arrived at sch0ol early, ar0und 7 am i think.. my class during TTh starts at 7:30 in the m0rning.. and angel, maan, yen and anna was there na.. angeL appr0ached me if i was able t0 research the new c0mmandment that my pr0f in the0 was trying t0 asked.. s0 i said i was.. then i seated near her then f0r s0me reas0n, bigla k0ng nasabi na "geL, im n0t happy anym0re.." i rally d0nt kn0w what kind of shity reas0n that p0ps in my mind why i have said such kind of thing.. den she asked "are y0u sure? y0u have t0 be sure.. den if ur sure na, its up t0 you na.. the answers are n0t in ours but in your own self.." fuck.. that's 0ne of the main pr0blem.. i think the pr0blem is ME.. ewan k0 basta..
there are times para talaga ak0ng adik.. i was gradually saying things na di naman related sa t0pic namin.. it is usually about me and him.. I really want t0 kn0w if its really just me or there's really s0mething wr0ng with us.. i cant decide whether t0 c0ntinue this or not.. or what sh0uld be my first m0ve in order t0 solve this pr0blem...
we we're n0t able t0 talk since last friday... kc medy0 bc din ak0.. it will be our prelims na kaya medy0 overl0ad ak0..
maybe the pr0blem is just ME.. haaayyyyy...
Unforgettable...
Tuesday, December 6,12:59 PM
DISAPPOINTMENTS
For some reason, i really hate fortune telling, t0 the point that im really n0t into believing th0se things. 
. And because of this, all of my plans have been disordered. Its been 19 years and its my first time to have fortune telled by my friend. At first, it was really meant for a joke or i was just playing games with him and i really didnt consider anything that will comes up with my so called "fortune" 
. I dont want to elaborate all the predictions about my future that comes up but all i can say is s0me are realy.. really.. disapp0inting.. 
.
Way back when i was still in fourth year high sch0ol.. Mrs. Orden [ my teacher in religi0n/the0logy ] had menti0ned that believing in f0rtune telling is a sin. I forgot its name but i cab still remember that it is considered as a mortal sin.. And yesterday, when we went to church, i really say s0rry t0 God f0r relying everything in f0rtune telling.. i mean, i g0t s0 affected when th0se predicti0ns came up without reliable basis.. 
.
I really dont want to believe in th0se predicti0ns, even my friend says that it is only our guide and its up to us whether we're g0ing to follow this or not. But i really cant help n0t thinking about it.
Im really into the fact that "everything happens for a reason" and "everything happens is meant by God" ... shit! i've been living with this perception for almost 2 years and still i cant lived with th0se facts and i cant even apply it with myself. 
Up to this very moment, im still wandering "when will i ever learn my less0ns?" 
So many hurtful things had happened and still, here i am, learning n0thing. And when will i learn that "one is en0ugh?!" haaaayyyy.. life is really hard t0 understand..
When he left me for s0me reas0n, i pr0mise t0 myself that what he did t0 me is en0ugh and n0 turning back.. But when he asked for a chance, i accept him open arms. 
Its really n0t about him or ab0ut our realti0nship.. its about me wh0 never learned during the past..
I miss myself.. or let me say "THE REAL ME" 
the unstable one.. one who have lots of pride.. who loves herself so much.. wh0's m0re attached t0 her friends.. who can let g0 in an instant [ the hell she cares ] and one who can m0ve on in just one minute..
He had changed me alot that i can no longer identify if its still me or not. He had changed me a lot that i cant even classify if its for the better or for the worst.
To the fact that im missing my old self.. i also miss the "OLD HIM" He really changed a lot out of him. As of n0w, i can fully understand that "NOTHING IS PERMANENT, EXCEPT CHANGES.."
I kn0w my thoughts are not in s0 much order right n0w, but believe me, everything i have said are related to 0ne an0ther. There are still s0me that i cant say and i want it t0 keep it private..
Unforgettable...
Monday, December 5,12:36 PM
my new lay out..
i have my new lay out na?! ehehehe.. its very nice and it is s0 cute.. bagay sakin.. telebabad.. ehehehe..
Unforgettable...
Saturday, December 3,4:24 PM
december 1 [ my bday ]
as usual its my bday.. and as always.. wlang bag0... ehehehe... ay 0ne thing is new.. uhmmm.. my age?! ahaha.. im 19 na [ gad! ] urghhh.. next year, im turning 20 na.. amf.. y0ung ad0lescent na me.. waaa.. still there's n0thing new in my life.. haayyy.. but im still thankful c0z the situati0n between my m0m and my dad is starting t0.. uhhhmmm.. bLo0m again?! [am i using the ryt w0rd?!..ahehehe..] but still, im n0t expecting that there's s0mething g0od will happen, per0 as of t0day and fr0m the past few days, it seems like parang there's still a chance f0r a sec0nd time ar0und.. ehehehe.. anyway, hirap din kc mag expect eh tap0s wala din pala..
and as always, im with kalb0 [guess wh0 is?!] and as usual sa SM na naman ang itinerary namin..
we watched "the ex0rcism of emily r0se" ... its a very nice m0vie.. kung interested sa gan0ng klase ng m0vie.. but s0me say na b0ring daw per0 ndi naman.. ewan k0 ba dun ke cess bat nia nasabi na b0ring.. palibhasa bubu.. ahahahaha.. its really a nice m0vie kn0wing na true to life un dba?! and the girl wh0 acted as emily r0se.. she's really g0od especially when she is in the manner of being p0ssessed.. i l0ve the m0vie..
after nun, we went straight sa sh0p.. [as usual..] den he startd palying naman.. den me naman nagpapakam0del ng K700i ni cuzin ycart.. ahahaha.. .. here are s0me pics na napagtripan nming dalawa ni b0nn.. hehehe..
hehehehe... nice n0h?! para kaming timang ni b0nn..
ay bef0re i f0rgot.. yen, geL, dris, abby, anna, maan, red, and mike.. gave me a c0llage.. di k0 sure kung c0llage yun.. per0 para lang daw may matawag sa gawa nila ehehe.. but i really appreciate the eff0rt.. teynks sa iny0..
s0 un lang.. ciao..
Unforgettable...
Friday, December 2,4:17 PM
