reminiscing

2007-01-02T08:20:00.000+08:00

@ starbucks shaw wid my dad and my sissy.. [january 1]

xmas day.. hehe..

the things i do for love

2006-12-30T20:41:00.000+08:00

How i was always there when he needs me..
How i wait for him to call when he is not around..
How i laugh at the silliest jokes and smile at the simplest comments..
How i try to make him laugh when he is sad..
How i take care of everything he needs..
How i let him kiss me without asking..
How i hug him back so tightly as if i can keep him..
How i stumble, how i fall..
The things i do for love, always not enough..

2006-12-27T19:59:00.000+08:00

w0w, this layout r0cks! i luv everything about this layout especially the c0lor.. weee..

2006-12-25T06:21:00.000+08:00

things between me and him are getting more smooth sailing now. We both didnt expect na maaayos pa toh, well, maybe because for the days we havent seen and talked it means its over between us. But last saturday, he called me up and he told me na he will be in our house tomorrow which is 24, primarily para masoli na nya yung phone ko and para daw makapag usap kame, so i said ok.
then yesterday, we we're able to settle things calmly.. hehe. I really thought na we're going to settle our break up "formally".. pero sa reconciliation napunta e. Confused ako kasi di ko alam kung ok ba tong ginawa namin or kung mas mabuti na we spearate ways nalang..
Sabi ko nga sa knya, let's enjoy the time nalang na when we're together or when we're with friends.. kesa kung ano pa isipin namin, hassle lang yun. Hirap lang cguro tlaga igive up ang relationship na almost 5 years na and have faced so many difficult problems.. ewan ko ba! Well, ill just try to be happy for the changes happened to him and so is he. Bahala na..

2006-12-22T17:20:00.000+08:00

im currently facing so many problems right now and the best medicine im taking is to be happy always, though its really hard on my part. But im also thinking, why am i not affected badly? unlike during the first time it happened? maybe, i have already foresee the chances of happening it all over again kaya i was able to prepare myself for this. Well, im not saying na im not experiencing pains and heartaches, of course i do it's just that di ganun ka tindi to the point na ma depress ako.. Im really avoiding (to the highest level) myself to be depress kasi its bad for my well being.. hehe.. kasi dba when a person is depress, obvious sa knya physically, emotionally and throughout all the aspects of a person. and another thing that really helps me alot to move on is my family.. well, now i realized how important being open to your family especially to your parents.. they help me alot to see better things that life can offer, and they always keeping me company para di nga ako ma sad.. and syempre how can forget my luving friends.. like pa0la (she resides right now in new jersey) but she still tends to call me up once in awhile to check me up if im still alive and surviving.. sec0nd is my bebe angel, na t0 the highest level ang supp0rt sakin.. hehe.. and syempre my sissy jeszy, infairness mas di nia pa nga na c0ntrol and temper nia kesa sakin, and to all my friends who really helped me alot in so many ways.. ay tska nga pla ang bebe ken ko.. hehe.. matured na ko kaya di na kuya ken.. hehe.. teynks alot kua ken for being der for me always..
im c0ntrolling my temper and my anger ryt now.. i dont have the time to get mad and be bitter with all the miseries happening to me.. all im doing ryt now is to focused all of my time for myself, to my family and to my friends which i have been slightly ignored for more than 4 years.. hal0s lahat nga ng nakausap k0 e tinatan0ng ako, if im mad sa knya.. and sa tot0o lang, nde.. kasi everything is b0und to happen.. we really cant say what will happen.. that's part of the twist and turns of our unpredictable lives... actually, im even thanking him for sharing his life to me, thr0ugh the g0od time and the bad times.. being with you is a hell of a 4 years-mem0rable days with you..
and n0w, im happy t0 inf0rm my friends {who are sick of being w0rried to me) that im surviving and trying to bury all the pains 6th feet under(though its not that simple).. =) ciao..

2006-12-21T11:47:00.000+08:00

i luv my lew lay out.. haha!

2006-11-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

sir d0ndon [one of my pr0f that i c0nsider terr0r..] will n0t be meeting us starting this friday upt0 friday next week, due t0 the PACSA.. weee, hehehe.. but, on december 4 preamble na kme.. waa, mem0rize na naman t0 the highest level.. =( oh well, it's part of the p0litics and g0vernance kaya kahit an0 pang pray k0 na di ak0 matawag is napak imp0sible.. hahahahaha..
t0p 100 students of ADU, narelease na.. fr0m 1st year to 4th year un, and di ak0 nasama.. ahahaha.. e ung pang t0p 100 is 1.41 ang gwa, e 1.55 lang ako.. hehehe.. try k0 nalang next sem tap0s pag di pa din nasama try ulit, pag di pa din ulit try k0 pa din, hanggang sa maka graduate na ko.. ahahahaha.. adik tlga ak0?!
i have my f0n upgraded na.. ahahahaha.. wala lang, share ko lang.. and di k0 pa napapalagyan ng selecQ kaya di masend sakin ni angel ung strawberry sh0rtcake na mp3.. =( hay, per0 by saturday, papalagyan k0 na tlga un.. hehehehe..
ciao..

2006-11-20T05:41:00.000+08:00

manny pacquiao won! hay, dami na naman niang perang gagastusin at pamimigay sa mga neighbors nia sa gen.san. hehehehe.. actually, i really want morales to win, why? i dont know.. basta lang, i have a felng na pag sia ang nanalo, matutuwa ako.. haha.. but kita mo naman ang nangyari, 3 rounds lang tapos na ang laban.. maybe morales doesnt really want to fight, ginawa lang nia yun for the compliance nung game na yun..

hay, tama na nga ang pacquaio-morales issue.. hehe.. =p
*serious mode*

is it bad to have better things in ur lyf? well, as far as i know, minsan kelangan ko din ng break or rewards para sa sarili ko and mind you, lahat ng grades ko eversince e matataas, cgur0 naman w0rth it ako para dun dba? but there are some people who cant seem to understand.. hay di ko maexplain tlga.. and it really hurt my feelings nung nag argue kame.. di ko ineexpect na gan0n ang masasabi nia sakin.. per0 sabagay, eversince tlaga, di na kme magkasund0 so dapat sanay na ko.. buti nalang b0nn called up at once.. th0ugh di ko sia tinext para tawagan ako, he just did.. and kinuwento ko nga sa knya, tp0s sabi nia sia daw ang bahala.. hehe..

anyway, im just thankful that i have b0nn.. my bestfriend and my b0yfriend.. =)

2006-11-06T20:03:00.000+08:00

this will be my sec0nd post for this day.
i thought i had a nice day bef0re i went h0me but after that everything went bad.. i g0t h0me around 6:30 and when i went upstairs i saw my 2 pamangkin and my sister watching dvd (high sch0ol musical) and after nun, nakita na may p0sporo sa may tabi ng tv nmin and i asked the kids san nila nakuha yun? then things have been cleared nung pinapagalitan na namin cla ng l0la ko.. and it is because of my very iresponsible c0usin na nagpa akyat ng "friend" dit0 sa kwarto and nanigarily0, den nung umalis na ang mga ungas iniwan nalang basta yung mga pinag sigarilyuhan nila and even the b0ttles of the c0ke they drink.. den sabi ng sister ko na yung pamangkin kong lalake is sm0ked the remaining cigarettes which my pathetic,iresponsible and inc0nsiderate c0usin have left.. i admit na pag kami ni b0nn ang nandit0 we sm0ke a lot but pag uuwi na si b0nn,tinatap0n ko laht ng residue and all the things we have used..
i think its only a matter of being c0nsiderate kn0wing that there are KIDS LIVING WITH HER IN THE SAME ROOF!!! gad! i really cant take this.. i dont have the slightest intention of talking to that shit, because mapupunta lang sa wala dahil for sure lalo lang kaming mag aaway.. she used to have everything, she had a g0od j0b and linksys and n0w, she has n0thing but her girlfriend {yah, she's a bi), her laziness and her lack of dependability.. gad! wala ak0ng idea kung pan0 ko masusurpass t0ng asar k0.. habang tumatagal naaasar talaga ako sa kanya,and i really cant say na insecure ako sa knya,why w0uld i? with a kind of girl like her? n0 way..

1st day high..

2006-11-06T09:05:00.000+08:00

ehehe.. first sem is over, and welcome 2nd sem.. new sem, new life and even some of my blockmates are also new pero yung iba nde na.. actually, 8 tlga class ko kaya lang we decided na wag muna pumasok sa chem lab namin, hehehe.. 1pm pa next subject ko so until now nasa haus pa din ako.. =)

I think, dats all for this day.. and isa pa pala, di nagmemeet yung sched nmin ni b0nn.. =( per0 ok lang un, sabay naman break time namin 11-1 ako, tapos 11-12 sia.. and sabay din uwian namin, 6pm.. ehehe.. hectic n0h? gan0n tlga..

ciao!

teynk gad!

2006-10-19T14:48:00.000+08:00

whew! teynk gad, back to normal na ulit ang services ng bl0g.. ehehe.. anyway, s0 many things had happened since the last time i was able to p0st my bl0g entry.. just let me recall the most recent events happened..

first, ive been so busy in watching angel's dvd "it started with a kiss" ehehe.. as in s0brang naadik na yata ako dun, i think finals week sakin pinahiram ni angel yun and due t0 that, di ako nakapagc0ncentrate sa pagrereview ko f0r the finals, ehehe.. and buti nalang, exempted ako alm0st all of my subjects, 2 of my subjects lang ang tinest ko.. ehehe.. anyway, s0 un na?! until n0w, pinauulit ulit k0 pa din ung it started with a kiss.. ehehe..
next is last m0nday, nag 0uting ung mga friends and bl0ckmayes ni b0nn, s0 in sh0rt kasama ak0.. ehehe.. in fairness, enj0y naman kahit at first nagkar0n ng k0nting pr0blem.. ehehe.. actually, overnyt un, sa pans0l.. s0syal private p0ol pa tap0s fr0m 1pm upt0 9am, aus dba? ung mga pics, di k0 na upl0ad kasi badtrip, cra line ng f0n namin sa bahay kaya di k0 masend sa email k0 or malagay sa frndstr.. ehehe.. t0 sum it all up, i really can say that it is 0ne of the best nights i have wid the man of my life... weeee.. ehehehe..

s0 an0 pa ba? ay, enr0llment na nga pala 23 eh.. kuha muna kame grades and baka by 25 na kme mag enr0l kasi di pa daw nakakapagpadala ung auntie ni angel ng m0ney.. haaayyy.. tagal pa naman ang resume ng classes e, sa 6 pa.. weeee.. and syempre sa 23 kasabay k0 din ung mga "big b0ys" ehehe.. mga tr0pa ni b0nn un, na lahat cla adik sa d0ta and lahat cla malalaking lalake.. wahahaha.. mga damulag, amf! maingay na naman sa sh0p panigurad0 un.. =p

miss k0 na ang mga bading.. waaaa.. =(

i think this will be en0gh f0r this day.. =)

update

2006-09-11T10:20:00.000+08:00

September 14, 2006

4th year anniversary of my honey and me..

Anna's birthday.

yesterday was my honey's bday and aside from that the season 68 cheering c0mpetition was held.. ehem.. we went there early kaya we we're able t0 find seats pa. We were in the middle of feu and ust and gad! their crowd is a hell.. ahahaha.. dami tlga nila.. hal0s matabunan na nila kame.. anyway, our sch0ol's pep was the last one to perf0rm, and we we're all amazed because we least expected that our pep will be perf0rming s0mething m0re appr0priate f0r the c0ntest.. ehehe.. ^^ but the painful thing is, we didnt make it, oh well.. that's life.. i mean s0metimes ur g0nna win and sumtyms y0ure n0t.. but i really admire all the pep representing each sch0ols because they perf0rmed very well esp the salinggawi dance tr0upe of UST and take n0te, they are still the reigning champ [5 times in a r0w] =)
c0ngrats t0 the mighty tigers.. ^^

uaap season '69

2006-07-10T15:42:00.000+08:00

2006-06-23T15:35:00.000+08:00

mga baby k0.. as in trufa ko.. ehehe... missing in action lang si mercy.. amf!

angel nd me at karate kid.. ehehe.. ganyan tlga ang c0lor ng BG nmin.. =p

2006-06-20T16:55:00.000+08:00

im happy and contented from where i am ryt n0w at this very m0ment..
happy ak0 sa assigned office k0 ngae0n.. kahit lagi ak0ng nil0loko ni sir lacatan.. ahaha.. =p ok lang naman sakin yun.. tap0s nagiging pr0fessi0nal pa k0 sa pagsag0t ng ph0ne.. ahaha.. ayw kasi pagtrabahuhin ni jh0y ni sir lacatan hanggat maaari kasi nga may SA naman eh.. s0 sitting pretty lang kme ni jh0y dun unless na wala sila felma ang kuya hernan.. ehehe.. =p tap0s parang na eenj0y k0 na naman ang pakikipag b0nding sa mga AUFAP kafatids k0.. ehehe.. dalas k0 na ngang tumambay sa office namin eh.. ehehe.. saya!
an0ther thing is, im happy sa mga pr0f k0 ngae0n kahit may sumablay na isa.. ung pr0f namin sa ec0.. actually, ok naman sia kaya lang malakas pa ang b0ses naming lahat kesa sa kanya.. kaya ang 0fficial expressi0n tuwing ec0 namin is "an0 daw un?!" ehehe.. kasi nga di namin maintindihan si m0m cruz.. =p tas saya pa ng PE 3 namin.. si sir cand0y pr0f namin.. [h0pefully].. bukas palang kasi start ng pe namin eh.. waaaa.. sana matamaan k0 ung shuttle c0ck.. ahahaha.. =p ay isa pa pala, ung Art Appreciati0n namin na dapat is 7:30-9:00, TTh is nalipat na.. kasi binigyan naman kami ng ch0ice ni m0m jenny.. if we want t0 retain ung sched nmin si sir tan na ang pr0f nmin.. e di pa kame ready kay sir tan eh.. kaya sabi nmin na MWF nalang 12-1:00.. kamusta un dba? tp0s every wednesday PE nmin ng 1-3:00... waaaa.. wlang vacant man lang.. per0 ok lang, anyway isang sem lang naman un.. kasi may c0nflict sa sched ni m0m jenny ung sa Art App namin.. kasabay kasi ng class nia ng film, e di namn nia pde i diss0lved un para sa Art App kasi nga maj0r un, kaya naintindihan din naman namin.. ehehe..
and last is, im happy f0r b0nn.. bc0z he have f0und his happiness fr0m his new f0und na s0brang kulit na friends.. s0 that's all f0r now.. may gagawin pa k0 sa pagbasa at pagsulat k0ng subject.. =)

2006-06-18T18:22:00.000+08:00

currently chatting wid one of my special friends, ken. weee.. wla lang.. chat lang kme t0 the highest level kaya lang medy0 delayed mag rply kasi nag d0dota.. =) anyway, lapit na bday ni mark.. sa 23 na yat if im n0t mistaken.. and friday yun.. sinasama nila ak0 sa bulacan kasi dun daw mag cecelebrate ng bday si mark, sabi k0 y0kow kasi dami pips nun f0r sure.. pips na di k0 naman kn0w.. ehehe.. tska syempre karamihan pur0 b0ys.. per0 sabi nmn na mga cuzins lang ni b0neng nndun and ung mga friends nila sa marvex.. ah basta, ewan k0 pa din.. nitatamad kasi ak0.. tska an0ng gagawin k0 dun?! =(

anyway, im thinking s0 many things right n0w.. yan ang hirap sakin, s0brang hilig mag iisip ng mga things may sense man or wala.. hhaaayy.. asar kasi eh! 0ne f0r thing f0r sure is, im scared.. scared bc0z i d0nt kn0w what t0 think.. gul0 n0h?! and i d0nt kn0w if im on the right track or n0t.. ewan naku!

2006-06-17T05:42:00.000+08:00

thursday [after class]
b0nn and his new f0und REAL friends waited f0r me, kasi hinihiram nila ung psych b0ok k0 dati.. papaph0t0c0py daw nila.. after nun, they went h0me na except f0r mark [mark nga ba un?!..hehe..] kasi bibili pa k0 ng buks kaya nagpa iwan pa kame., and hinintay din nia ung gf nia na nursing.. =) s0 we had our lunch first, i b0ught my pagbasa at pagsulat b0ok then went t0 SM na per0 di na kasama si mark huh?! kaming dalawa nalang ni b0nn nun.. nagpapicture muna ak0 kasi need k0 sa pagbasa eh after nun we l0unge ar0und.. pas0k kame sa m0ssim0 [as usual] and sa sp0rts.. haaaayyy.. ang tagal pa ng birthday nia, per0 regal0 kagad nia ang iniintindi nia..hehe.. then nun pabalik na kame sa trn0nix, nakasalub0ng naman ang mga "engineering b0ys", asar nga eh, di k0 na cla classmate sa pagbasa.. hhmmff.. tap0s nilapitan nla ak0, kwentuhan sandali tap0s bid gudbye na.. weee.. cute tlga ni jebs0n.. ahaha.. =) ar0und 4pm, nasa haus na k0 nun.. di na nag stay si b0nn sa bahay kasi inaant0k na k0 eh.. =)

friday [after class]
di kame sabay umuwi ni b0nn, bc0z may lakad sila nung mga friednds nia kaya nag aya ak0 sa mga bakla na alis kame.. ahahaha.. punta kame sa SM Mall of Asia.. eeeerrr.. kapag0d per0 saya! syempre pagdating namin dun, kain kagad kme.. e di pa kame kasi nag lulunch nun eh.. after nun, l0unge ar0und.. and ung last na pinuntahan namin is sa p0wer b0oks.. waaaa.. as in c0mplete lahat ng b0oks nila.. asar! wla ak0ng dalang budget.. nakita k0 pa ung b0oks ni b0b ong.. asar tlga! d0nt w0rry, baka by m0nday, makabili na k0 nun.. ahaha.. hingi ak0 pera kay b0nn.. hehe.. =p

2006-06-15T16:22:00.000+08:00

2006-06-13T14:47:00.000+08:00

jas g0t h0me fr0m sch0oL.. di gan0n ka tiring kasi akalain m0ng si sir ranari0 lang ang umatend samin [my pr0f in exp0sit0ry writing] last subject namin un eh s0 after nun uwi na kame.. s0 akyat ak0 sa rum ni b0nn t0 inf0rm him na sasama muna k0 sa trufa k0..ehehe.. kakain kasi kame sa karate kid! ahahaha.. s0 sabi nia magkita nalang kame sa sh0p.. kasi lahat ng pr0f ni b0nn umatend sa knila.. hmmfff! sipag tlga ng mga pr0f sa IT..

as expected, ang ingay na naman ng bl0ck namin bc0z nndun na naman ang mga "babybears".. bat nila tinawag grup0 nilang ganyan? ndi k0 din alam.. ahaha.. basta hayaan na lang naten.. =p as in wla na yatang katahimikan sa bl0ck namin.. =( kasama namin si regine sa bl0ck namin.. actually, parang sia nga ang pumalit kay anna baby eh.. waaa.. miss na namin anna baby! =( pang hap0n kasi sia.. ung baklang un kasi nag free sec pa.. amf!

back t0 the t0pic.. dapat punta kame mall of asia kaya lang umulan eh s0 bumagsak din kme sa sm manila.. tap0s we ate sa 'karate kid'.. ahahaha.. by request pa un, aba syempre nin0 pa ba? edi ak0.. hehe.. =p di pa kc ak0 nakakakain dun eh s0 pina experience lang nila ak0.. per0 gust0 tlga nilang lahat sa yell0w cab den npag agreehan namin na t0morr0w nlang sa yell0w cab..
aba! expensive din pala sa 'karate kid' na un.. s0brang inism0l k0 pa.. ahaha.. w0rth 90 ang meals nila and up tp0s wala pa drinks.. s0 +25 para magka drinks ka.. red tea lang ang drinks nila parang sa t0ky0-t0ky0 na s0brang bah0! ehehe.. per0 infairness, refillable ang rice nila then b0ttomless ung red tea.. yummy ung red tea nila as in.. per0 di k0 din naub0s, ni di nga ak0 nakapag parefill ng rice.. full kagad ak0.. except sa red tea.. parang gust0 k0 pa nga sana na magba0n eh.. kaya lang kakahiya.. ahahaha.. =p adik n0h?! tap0s ang baklang angel pinilit kaming magpapicture sa l0ob ng m0ms nd me.. nagpaparefill kasi me ng blush 0n eh s0 naicpan nia na mag picture daw kame dun kasi ganda daw ng ambiance.. hala kamusta naman un?! ehehe.. kasi pinapadala daw ng m0mmy nia s0me of our pictures.. tap0s may iba pa kming mga pic wid regine.. ehehe.. and syempre sa 'karate kid'.. ehehe.. tska k0 na ip0p0st huh kasi wla ung mem0ry reader k0.. =p

ay o0 nga pala.. currently im chatting wid my bessy paps.. tagal k0 ng di nakakausap t0h n0h..kasi bc sa OJT nia.. =p miss her s0 much na tlga?!
t0morr0w, sana naman kahit 2 lang sa mga pr0f k0 umatend na.. g0t t0 go na.. may pinaparesearch pa sakin si b0nn e.. cia0

2006-06-12T04:52:00.000+08:00

it's 4:52am and i am already awake for the reason that i d0nt really kn0w. There are times kasi na s0brang aga k0 gumising but i think ok na toh kasi t0morrow mag pas0k na atleast naprapractice na k0ng gumising ng maaga..

our d0g 'ge0rgie' is sick ryt n0w.. actually, yesterday pa nga eh. he's suffering fr0m fever.. we gave hm his medicines na naman eh, s0 i think he's g0ing t0 be a little well n0w c0mpare yesterday.. =)

weee.. t0morr0w is brand new day.. may pas0k na naman! saya! kaya lang classmate na naman namin ung mga super n0isy na barkada.. well, classmate na namin cla way back in 1st sem den lumipat kame sa ibang bl0ck nung 2nd sem t0 have a peaceful life then n0w ganun na naman.. haaayyy life! naku, hayaan na nga.. =) di na nga namin classmate cla anna and dris eh kasi nahuli cla mag enroll kaya baka pareh0 clang 203.. =( sad naman nun!

ay o0 nga pala, until n0w di pa ak0 nakakapag inquire sa plans namin ni b0nn na mag cruise.. waaa.. anyway sa september pa naman eh.. wla kasi ak0ng idea about sa mga ganun eh.. can anyb0dy help me or atleast give me an idea? =(

2006-06-10T06:43:00.000+08:00

as i said, yesterday i was with my h0ney.. ar0und 9:30am nnd2 na sia sa bahay.. we g0 straight t0 adams0n para mag file ng l0ss ng assessment nia, den sabi balikan nlng daw after lunch.. e mga 10:30 palang yata nun.. s0 what we did is punta muna kame sa sh0p, aga pa kasi kung maglulunch na kme per0 h0nestly we're b0th hungry na nun kasi di kame nakapag breakfast but i insist na hintayin nlng nmin ang lunch..ehehe..
den cgur0 mga 11:30, punta na kame SM Manila.. he asked me kung san daw gust0 ko to have lunch, sabi ko kahit san.. =) tap0s sabi ba naman "sa figar0 nlng te0, tutal breakfast plang naman t0h dba? s0 dapat c0ffee, tsaka sarap spag nila dun.." per0 sabi k0 na ay0ko dun mas like k0 sa starbucks tsaka sayang sa m0ney, di kapraktikalan un ryt? s0 napunta kame sa ch0wking.. ehehehe.. bakit? di k0 din alam.. cgur0 para maiba naman.. =) then he b0ught my m0m s0me fud sa ch0wking din, fave kc ni mama dun eh..
after nun, punta kme sa bench.. bumili kame pareh0 ng perfume.. ehehe.. tap0s sabi "an0 pa daw ba ang gus2 k0?" ... aba, daming m0ney! ehehe.. then i said, tama na t0h.. We went h0me ar0und 5pm na din.. =) a little bit of tiring per0 happy bc0z im wid my ney.. =)

ay isa pa.. waaaa.. lapit na pasukan.. ahahahaha.. 2 days t0 go!!! gust0 k0 na makita mga girlfriends k0.. =p

2006-06-08T17:24:00.000+08:00

ive decided to change my layout again.. i kn0w ive been to0 unc0ntented wid my layout ryt n0w, but im really, really l0oking f0r s0mething taht will fit my pers0nality and the way im feeling ryt now.. basta bahala na.. =)
tom0rrow, inaya ak0 ni b0nn umalis.. first, punta muna kme sa adams0n kasi he's assessment is n0where t0 be f0und kaya magpapa reprint sia ulit den next, ndi k0 na alam basta sabi nia aalis daw..
4 days left starting t0morrow, bef0re the classes will start.. waaa.. im s0 excited na!

2006-06-03T06:18:00.000+08:00

anyway, im missing my girlfriends na.. panay pa ang text nila na s0brang gus2 na nilang mag resume ang classes kaya mas lal0ng na eexcite ako.. well, medy0 kinakabahan kame, kc habang tumatagal e parang humihirap na ung mga subjects.. [sabagay ganun nmn tlga dba?] per0 kc parang mga out of this w0rld ang mga subjects nmin eh.. ehehe.. but we're still l0oking f0rward sa mga subjects na un.. =p naaus k0 na din ung sched k0 at guess what? wla kaming sabay na sched ni b0nn even ung vacant man lang.. kasi like last sem, wla na namn ak0ng vacant.. per0 pede kame magsabay umuwi evry m0nday and wednesday, s0 ok na un?! =)
an0 pa ba?! eeerrr.. wala na k0 maicp eh.. ay o0 nga pla, "ney, miss u na p0.." =) yan na huh?! =)

2006-05-31T14:11:00.000+08:00

i was able to enroll yesterday kahit after 48 years na dumating yung clearance ko.. amf! 9 am nsa sch0ol na k0, nauna pa nga ako kela angeL tp0s hinintay nila ko para makasabay sa knila sa pag enroll.. kasi binag0 na ang p0licy ng enr0llment.. padalawa dalawa nalang ang pin0p0st na bl0ck secti0ns, pinupun0 muna yun bef0re mag 0pen ung an0ther bl0ck.. tap0s di na sa p0sting area nka p0st, per c0llege na.. s0 in sh0rt, pag massc0mm ka, massc0mm lang ke0ng lahat sa bl0ck ni0.. unlike dati na, during the enr0llment, naka p0st lahat sa p0sting area lahat ng available bl0cks per c0urse.. ikaw or ke0 ang mamimili kung san ni0 gust0ng bl0ck tap0s may p0ssibility pa na may kasama ke0ng ibang c0urse sa ibang subjects [ sila ung nga free sec or ireg students ] ... and w0rst, tinul0i pa din pala ung evaluati0n, sabi kc samin di na if0f0llow un eh, gulat nalang kame yesterday na ganun na pla ang system of enrollment..
mga ar0und 2pm, nakapag enroll na sila angel, sabi k0 kc sa knila na sa 202 na sila pumunta.. s0 pinun0 pa muna nila ung 201.. para kc makahab0l kami ni mercy.. s0 un na nga.. ay o0 nga pala, fr0m 9am t0 4pm, im wid b0nn sa sch0ol.. and take n0te, wla ak0ng narinig na reklam0.. ehehe.. s0 mga 4:10pm, pinauna k0 na si b0nn sa sh0p kasi nga hihintayin k0 pa si m0m leah.. mga 4;30pm yata, nkuha na namin yung clearance.. s0 t0do madali kame ni eduard papunta sa CS bldg.. =p kasi c0usre nia CPE, e s0brang dami ng engineering kaya mabilis mapun0 ang isang bl0ck, den after namin sa cashier, nag separate ways na kme.. ehehe.. sa OZ kasi sia, eh nasa ST ang c0llege k0.. s0 un na.. naku naka ilang pabalik balik ak0.. tap0s i asked m0m bernard0 kung pede pa sa 202.. and teynk gad! pede pa.. as in ang dami pang sl0ts.. ehehe.. after k0ng makapag enr0ll, mag eenr0ll palang si mercy.. bagal kc eh.. di pa kinumplet0 ung requirements nia.. =) per0 nakahab0l din sia sa 202..
ang saya.. ehehe.. kaya lang ung mga dati naming iniwasan na maging kaklase ulit nung 2nd sem, e kaklase na naman namin ulit ngae0n.. haaayy life! but what imp0rtant is, magkakasama pa din kame nila angel except si anna and dris.. di k0 sure, kc sa june 5 pa sila mag eenr0ll.. e baka bl0ck 203 or 204 na ang 0pen nun eh.. =(
ab0ut sa mga subjects k0.. amf! wlang math and science.. kaya lang pur0 LIT.. phiL. lit.. w0rld lit.. tap0s may rizal pa.. amf! bka magkahal0hal0 na ung mga subjects na un sa utak k0.. ehehe.. tap0s may exp0sit0ry writing na k0.. and art appreciati0n.. hala?! e di naman ak0 marun0ng mag appreciate ng art.. ahahaha.. =p ay isa pa pala, may ec0 na k0.. waaa.. buti nalang nandian si kevin.. =) tuturuan daw nia ako.. =)
about sa sched k0, later k0 na ip0p0st, pag nasa bahay na k0.. minamaster k0 kc ung diner dash 2 eh.. ehehe.. =) ciao!

2006-05-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

is it really hard to take it as a consideration na atleast let other people where uve been upto or if you're going somewhere.. kung di ko pa itetext si mark, di ko pa malalaman na kasama sia paglilipat nila mark sa bulacan.. shit! kakabadtrip.. im n0t being t0o bitter about this kaya lang parang offensive on my part especially nanggaling pa sa ibang ta0 na kasama nila ung ungas na yun.. kakaasar tlga..
i dont even know what would be the right words to say para ma express ko ang asar ko sa kanya.. its been what? two weeks na din.. i kn0w na may fault din ako, kasi ive been s0 busy lately kaya lang an0 ba naman ang mahirap sa pag iinform sakin na aalis pala sia and he's not even sure when to come home.. shit tlga!

2006-05-26T16:30:00.000+08:00

just got home from school.. and as always, wasted ako super! ehehe.. medy0 sad nga kc last day na ng duty nmin being a 'fr0ntliner' kc tap0s na ang freshmen orientation =( waaa.. mamimiss ko cla kua jerry.. =( tap0s the week after next week LTS pa nila sa Tagaytay.. =( sad tlga?! per0 sabagay, dami na naman ako pasalub0ng lal0 na fr0m y dearest friend eduard.. wee.. =)

anyway, enrollment na tomorrow.. and the gud thing is the pr0cess of enrollment is back t0 normal na.. weee.. st0p na ung TCG na kaartehan, ahaha.. and an0ther thing is n0 need na gumawa ng letter of explanation pag may 4 or inc0mplete.. kc n0h! di ko naman kasalanan why ako nagkar0n ng INC sa philo ko.. hmmff! ahaha.. and then, nagkar0n na kme ulit ng designated offices na pag dudutihan this sem.. ak0 sa CPE.. hehe.. sa dept ng mga p0ging c0mputer eng. =) at least di gan0ng mabigat ang w0rk c0mpare sa OSA. kasama k0 dun si jh0y.. =) nku! sana di na magkanda letse2 ang duty this year.. =)

2006-05-25T10:22:00.000+08:00

s0ws.. ang fanget ng bag0ng lay out ng frendster ngae0n.. kakab0bo!! ehehe.. =p buti nlng nakuha k0 na ung allowance ko sa duty ko kaya happy ako.. kasi may m0ney na naman ako.. =) then last day na ng duty sa Friday, kasi enrollment na sa 30 and 31..
ay naku isa pa pala yun.. binag0 pr0cess ng enrollment samin.. nid pa ng TCG [true c0py of grades] para makapag enroll or yung c0mpilation ng grades m0 since 1st year 1st sem upto the present.. asar tlga! daming kaartehan.. >:0 per0 buti nlng regular and bl0ck ako since fr0m the start kaya c0mpilation lang ang nid ko.. ang hirap kaya mag apply nung TCG na yun, m0re than 2 weeks bag0 mo makuha.. e next week na ang enrollment..

it's already been 1 week, but it w0nt trigger me t0 make the first m0ve.. =( and an0ther thing PAST IS PAST.. ^^

2006-05-23T09:49:00.000+08:00

my object of obsession.. MATT of PBB teen edition.. waaa.. super crush k0 sia.. as in tlga?! iba ksi yung dating nia.. he's not the typical boy next d0or type per0 may dating.. tska he's not mukang mayabang and suplado and very talented tska may interest sa MUSIC... naku! basta tlga.. *wink*

2006-05-20T07:25:00.000+08:00

i already have a new monitor.. ahahaha.. it only means that, di k0 na nid na pumunta sa JAAZ [our sh0p] para magc0mputer.. ahaha.. i miss my pc.. my c0nnecti0n.. my files... and everything.. ahahaha..

next week, MWF nalang ang duty k0w.. and isa pa pala, naaasar ak0 kc ban sa manila ang "da vinci c0de".. the pr0blem is, madami ang nagpapaban.. ay naku! kc naman, kung against cla sa m0vie, edi wag nila pan0orin.. bwiset! >:0
even the SM, di nila ipalalabas ang da vinci c0de buti pa ang r0b.. weeee.. im starting t0 l0ve r0bins0n's place.. ahahaha.. per0 ang Galle, tagal k0 ng luv yun..
maybe by m0nday, n0od na kame nila kuya jerry.. =)

2006-05-16T15:26:00.000+08:00

while i was cleaning my room last saturday.. nakita k0 ung isang n0teb0ok c0natining all of my past entries in our newspaper in our sch0ol and there are s0me na ginawa k0 lang per0 di k0 sinama sa mga entry k0 sa pillars.. anyway, 0ne entry that really caught my attenti0n, is the entry entitled "I AM AN EX" ..
Well, if my brain serves my right, ive written this one because my first love and my first bf as well br0ke up..i think that was 5 years ago but ive written this one last 3 yrs ago [just trying to reminisce the past...] =( and while reading it again, everything went back again.. =( eeerrr... i really hate this feeling..

I am an ex.

I know that it's stupid and silly to sound as if my whole life revolved around being somebody's "ex girlfriend". But i can't help it... That title packs a pretty strong punch. I am now an official member of the "loved and lost" club. And while it's a title i don't exactly want, I have to admit that it does say some things about me.

I am an ex.

I once loved someone who loved me back. But he didn't want to stay... so i had to let him go. I cried. A lot. I spent countless nights wondering what went wrong, muffling my sobs with my pillows so my parents wouldn't suspect that something was amiss. I'd reminisce about our happy times, then break down when i'd realize that he was no longe mine.
I analyzed every single detail of our break up. I wrote long e-mails to my closest friends. I talked endlessly about my situation. I spent my nights in tearful telephone conversations and my days in daydreams where we'd end up in each other's arms again. Sometimes he was still my angel, still my knight in shinning armor who i'd do anything for just to have back. But sometimes, i saw him as the devil incarnate who broke my heart in the worst possible way and who deserved to be horsewhipped at the very least.
I told myself that it was all for the better. That this was the best for the both of us. That this was God's plan. My friends offered similar advice, none of which I hadn't heard before: "It's a sign that you're not meant for each other," "When God closes door, he opens a window," "Someone better is coming for you," "There are so may fish in the sea," But it didn't work. Because deep down, I still believed that he was the one, the only one.
And i couldn't understand how this was all for the better... When everyday seemed more torturous than the last... Not being able to be with him the way I wanted to be, seeing him so unaffected, and dealing with my broken and smashed heart and my bruised ego.
I tried to immerse myself in other activities to forget about him. I went out a lot. I filled my schedule with movie marathons, shopping sprees, and dance maniax. It worked for a while... but then there were time -- times when my mind was cleared of the busy thoughts i tried to occupy it with -- that i would think of him. His memory would sneak up to me on tiptoes, catching me in my most vulnerable moments.
I tried to show the world that i was OK. That i was over him. That it was fine just being friends. I didn't go around with a big "X" on my forehead, nor did i go around with puffy eyes and a tissue box. I tried to live my life as i knew it before i met him. People thought that i was doing great. They heard me laugh and theys aw me smile; i seemed happ, they said; and i told myself that i was. But in the solace of my room, where i tried to organize my thoughtsand sort out y feelings, i had to admit to myself that I wasn't truly happy. Because i was still yearning for someone and my heart still ached for something that could not be.
It's been over 4 years since we broke up, suprisingly, things have been gotten better. A LOT BETTER... Ive changed. Somewhere along the way, i realized that he wasnt the only one out there for me. I also realized that there were valid, powerful reasons why we split up. And ive become stronger, older, wiser. He's cahnged as well.. when i look at him.. sometimes i think that he's the same person.. he still has the same goofy smileand demeanori fell for and i like to believe the rest of him is unchanged as well. But then i take a closer look and I realize that HE HAS CHANGED.. that i dont know him anymore, not really.. not enough to love and care for him as i once did.

I am an ex.

Ive loved and lost. Ive cried tears for the things that were and that could have been. Ive wrestled with intense feelings of love and hate, of jealousy, of frustration. Ive simultaneously taken down and brought up my pride. Ive tried to rebuild my world without the person whom it used to revolve around. Ive tried to save myself from the depths of depression and self-pity and when i couldnt do that, i turned to family and friends for help. I know exactly what i gained, and i know how much i lost. Maybe a friend, but it was worth it.. Maybe someday it will be all clear to me.. Then again, maybe not.

And now that you've read it already, i can say that that life's been great without him.. esp now that i have my h0ney f0r alm0st 4 yrs na din.. maybe everything happens is really w0rth it.

2006-05-15T10:55:00.000+08:00

teynk gad! finish na mag enroll si b0nn.. and the funny thing is magkasun0d ung student number nmin kaya lang 2005 ak0.. dapat 2004 ak0 kaya lang transferee ak0 dba?
200513280 ak0 tap0s si b0nn 200612280.. ahaha.. parang adik lang n0h?!

2006-05-12T17:57:00.000+08:00

this week has been a very tiring one for me and some of my AUFAP family.. why? because of the Freshmen Orientation.. I chose to be one of the volunteered facilitators, to make my free time very efficient and useful. Wala din naman ak0ng gingawa sa bahay, except tumanga, matulog or mag net, s0 para maiba naman..
The orientation started last tuesday.. and mind you, we really didnt expect na there will 3 thousand of people that will attend the said orientation.. [including the student, one of his/her parent and unidentified number of chaperones..] Actually, there will be 3 sessions a day.. 9-11, 12:30-2:30, 3-5:00... haaayy.. as in after nung first sessi0n, supp0sedly lunch break na.. but bc0z dumadating na yung mga attendees f0r the next sessi0n, deadma na ang pagkain.. We had our lunch at around 5:30pm na.. haaayy.. parusa!
During the same day [tuesday].. releasing na nung mga assessments and IDs.. eeerrr.. parang stampede.. as in kakatak0t tlga.. walang sistema and mga parents.. parang tatakbuhan cla ng assessments ng mga anak nila.. grabe tlga! Then after that incident, we had our meeting.. lahat ng "fr0nt liners" [well, this is the Adams0n's active student leaders.. ahaha.. nakasama pa k0..].. we make our plans para maiwasan ang gan0ng incident ulet..
Then Thursday, aun.. ok na.. very organized and systematic.. walang parents na nag hihysterical.. ahahahaha.. =p
And h0pefully, this c0ming Monday.. may meting ulet kame f0r our new plans.. kasi sa OZ AVR nlang ang orientation and di na sa ADU THEATER.. mas maliit and mas k0nti ang attendees.. ehehehehe.. then starting next week, orienation will be held everyday na.. unlike last week TTh lang dba?!

2006-05-08T06:30:00.000+08:00

though we have been experiencing hard times ryt now, i cant afford not to be happy for my nephew and my niece..
kasi its been 3 yrs na yata the last time they saw their dad.. kasi their parents gt separated.. well, yung m0m nila is my ate.. actually, my she's my eldest c0usin [in my m0ther side] and since the separati0n occured, wla na kming balita sa papa nila.. as in wala tlga na parang bubbles na naglah0..
then there's this one time,na me pa ang nakareceived ng call.. its a ph0ne call fr0m their dad.. last m0nth lang yta yun.. and i was sh0cked t0 hear his v0ice again.. and he said na papuntahin daw si batiu sa [my nephew] kant0 kasi may bibigay daw sia.. s0 yun na.. pumunta si batiu dun t0gether wid my l0la.. di nga lang naksama si geri [my niece] kasi natutulog pa ung bata at dat time..then nung pagbalik nila, may package pala para kayla batiu.. kc citizen yung mga kapatid nung dad nila sa japan kaya aun.. ehehe.. and since then, i was very glad na atleast nakita na nia ulit ung papa nia.
Then nung Friday.. nasa sh0p kme nun.. and si mama naman ang nakausap ni t0lits.. [papa ng mga pamangkin k0] and he wants t0 talk to batiu daw.. but cnabi na nia muna sa mama k0 y nia tinawagan si batiu.. bibili daw nia ng mga gamit sa sch0ol yung mga bata.. o dba? and wen mama called up batiu, masesense mo na excited yung bata.. haaaayyy... =) then yesterday, sinundo na cla.. then mga around 5:30pm, nag l0ng distance si batiu fr0m cavite.. dun daw cla matutulog, kc yung mga l0lo't lola nila is gust0 clang makita.. per0 kinausap din nmn ng nanay si t0lits.. =) saya n0h?

i'm n0t sure if the w0rd "irresp0nsible" is appr0priate t0 describe my ate with regards sa pagiging nanay nia with her 2 kids.. actually, 3 na yun.. the y0ungest is chl0e.. per0 di na si t0lits ang tatay nun.. and di na din d2 nakatira si ate, dun na sa asawa nia.. and take n0te dit0 naman nakatira yung 2 nia pang anak.. if only i can write everything in here t0 pr0ved that she's one of the irresp0nsible m0m ever!!! and we're all h0ping na sana yung ginagawa nia kayla batiu and geri ay di nia gawin kay chl0e..
anyway, it is all in God's hands.. =)

an update

2006-05-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

May 1

- 8th bday of sis sam..
- went to Gardenville Resort in Antipolo
- wid pa,ma,sam,kevs,geri,batiu and ney
- had a great time [as in!]
- went home around 6pm
- ney stayed at h0me till 11pm..
- one of the best days of my life
- btw, pictures during this outing may be viewed in this page PICS

May 3

- around 11am, l0la nd i went t0 farmers in market2.. [we b0ught sugp0 and crabs]
- around 2pm, ma and i went to Designer depot.. had our lunch first in Racks..
- then around 3pm, we went to Tiendesitas..
- went home around 5pm.. and napilitan si ma na mag taxi back and forth bc0z of my sunburn..

May 4

- m0vie marath0n.. watched Stepf0rds wives.. ehehe.. [l0ve dat m0vie..]
- 6pm.. ney called up.. nangangamusta lang daw.. and asking why di k0 pa inupl0ad un mga pics nung outing.. [ataters!]
- yung sunburn k0.. s0brang hapdi.. waaaa.. =(
- watched MMK.. i was very t0uched th0ugh di pa sia tap0s..
- around 10pm, my t0oth was starting to ache.. and the pain was n0t t0lerable.. s0 ma b0ught me s0me medicines.. then i slept..

May 5

- im here in Jaaz.. sira kc m0nitor ng pc k0.. per0 nagamit k0 pa yun.. and the night of thursday, magnenet sana ak0.. aun! di na bumukas.. waaaa.. =(
- nd as always, im playing cake mania.. ehehehe

2006-04-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

SWIMMING NA!!!

AND

HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE SISSY SAMANTHA.. LUV YOU SIS..
*wink*

2006-04-27T13:37:00.000+08:00

naaasar tlga ak0.. kc i called up b0nn kanina after i have cleaned my r0om, then nagkwent0 sia sabi nia may pilay daw sia.. then sabi nia may bandage nga daw ung hands nia.. all i knew is napilayan sia bc0z may lar0 sila ng basketball yesterday then when he t0ld me na kc nakipag away pla cla,nairita na k0?! and u heard it ryt, SILA.. sila ng mga pinsan nia.. asar n0h?! ang ay0ko sa lhat ksi is very mayabang adn feeling kung cn0 and yung nakikipag ramb0l.. kakaasar tlga! the hell i care kung mabasa nia t0h basta all i kn0w is s0brang irritated ak0 sa knya..!!! basta badtrip tlga! naku bahala na nga sia.. kaya im thinking kung isasama k0 pa sia sa Monday kc nga dba 8th bday ng sis k0, e swimming party yun and my m0m insisted t0 invite him with us.. haaaayy.. kakairita tlga!

2006-04-23T09:24:00.000+08:00

s0 as i said, yesterday was the grad celeb of jessy [ken's gf].. di pala bday..ehehe.. sabi nia kc sakin bday nia eh =p anyway, natuloi kame.. pede bang hindi eh kasama k0 si b0neng! ay0ko talgang sumama, di naman t0tally na ayaw, nitatamad lang tlga ak0.. s0 un na nga.. mga 5:00 nndit0 na haus cla mark and b0nn [which is dapat 4:30 palang nandit0 na cla..tsk..tsk] and sabi nila na nung dinaanan nila si ken, sabi ng kuya eh nagpapagupit pa daw.. awts! kaya sa haus nalang kami susunduin ni ken.. di k0 alam kung mga wat tym na ng dumating si ken..
so b4 kaming dumirets0 sa valenzuela, we picked up jessy and edz [her neighb0r and her friend] sa j0llibee sa frisc0.. s0 yun na, as expected para kaming sardines sa l0ob ng wheels ni ken.. ehehe.. but that's fine with me.. =p
mga 7:30pm na yata kami dumating sa haus nila jessy sa valenzuela and ang dami ng pip0l.. and the m0st unusual thing is very quiet si kua ken.. wahahaha.. meet the f0ckers nga dw sabi ni naked.. =p as in silent m0de sia last night.. para ngang naging impressi0n sa knya nung mga relatives ni jessy na suplad0 sia, pan0 di kumikib0 pag kinakausap.. ehehehe..

At first, very b0ring.. kasi di naman nmin kilala yung mga nandun.. but nung tumagal, nagkwentuhan na kame ni edz.. actually he's a gay, and i can he's say na he's very very nice and smart.. ch0ir sia sa isang church s0mewhere in t0ndo.. sia yung kasabay nmin papunta sa haus nila jessy.. and what d0 y0u expect, baklaer ang l0la m0 s0 very kal0g talaga.. very talked about the da vinci c0de,differnt religi0ns and anything ab0ut Christ and s0mething na may sense.. =) Even si kua ken, nadala sa mga pinag uusapan nmin kaya nakisali na din.. s0 by means of that, di naging b0ring ang gabi naming lahat.. until dumating yung iba nilang friends na gays din and ch0ir members din, lal0ng sumaya ang gabi naming lahat.. =) Per0 infairness, i learned s0mething new fr0m edz which is yung mga pinac0nvert ni Mayor Atienza na streets int0 Plazas.. sabi nia like nung Plaza Miranda, ginawa niang plaza yun its bec0z plaza na pala talaga dati yun.. kaya nga ang theme nun dba "buhayin natin ang Maynila" and he added na makikita k0 daw yun sa original map ng Manila na lahat ng pinagawang plaza ni Atienza is plaza na pala talaga fr0m the start.. nice n0h? kaya n0w, di na k0 magrereklam0 sa traffic sa Rect0.. ahaha.. then ar0und 12pm, sibat na kame.. =)

Bc0z s0brang nalibang ak0, di k0 namalayan na nakakailang b0ttles na pala ak0 ng San Mig.. ehehe.. ung m0m ni jessy lapag ng lapag sa table kaya in0m naman ak0 ng in0m.. ehehe.. and the result? ayun, bangenge ak0 nung pag uwi namin.. as in, umiik0t ang paningin k0..per0 nung pinatul0g ak0 ni b0nn ng at least 30 minutes, ok na k0. haha.. ah, BTW.. dit0 sa haus natul0g si b0nn.. kac nga nasa Mla h0tel ang mga pip0l kaya 4 lang kami naiwan d2 sa haus, me, my m0m, my l0lo and my auntie.. =p kaya very peaceful ang haus dhil wla ang mga magugul0ng bata.. =p
Around 6 in the m0rning, umuwi na din si b0nn.. kasi sabi nia "ney,ialarm m0 nga ung f0n m0 ng 6am.." then i asked why, sabi nia "e kasi nga p0 may lar0 later this aftern0on ng basketball nila keneth" then i said ok.. tap0s hala?! then nung nag wawala na ung f0n k0 sa s0brang pag gising nia samin,nagising na k0..ehehe... then ginising k0 na si b0nn.. hala?! naka ilang 5minutes yata yung l0ko na yun.. sabi na eh, expected k0 na din yun..ehehe.. and n0w, ang hapdi ng eyes k0 dhil kulang pa k0 sa tul0g.. per0 kaya pa naman ni b0ssing eh..ehehe..

Per0 y0u kn0w what.. gust0 k0 tlgang maging hist0rian.. its n0t about the m0ney but the things na madidisc0ver k0 dba? very fruitfull hay ewan! bahala na nga.. tapusin k0 muna t0ng MassComm sabi nga ni b0nn.. ay o0 nga pala, ok na yung grades namin sa Philo.. pinan0od na ni Sir Jag last friday yung d0cu namin and this Monday, kukunin na namin yung grades namin sa kanya.. ang pin0pr0blema k0 naman ngae0n is kung an0ng grade ang ibibigy ni Sir Jag samin.. waaaa..

2006-04-20T14:36:00.000+08:00

everyday is starting to irritate me bc0z it's bec0ming m0re boring and b0ring.. =( and i cant even think of anything to do except to sleep, to eat, to chat, to bLog and to use the f0n and call my friends up.. i want new things to do, and the plans we have made this c0ming saturday has already been cancelled bc0z it is ken's gf bday and she invited all of us. Up to now, im still not sure if im g0ing with them or not kasi im really n0t c0mfortable with people i really find strange.. i enj0y socializati0n but it still depends with the people.. And im thinking kung aatend nalang ak0 ng party sa bahay sa QC, as i said, it will be the wedding day of my auntie and uncle, baptism of their uoungest daughter and bday celebrati0n of my l0lo or to j0in with my lil sis, my cuzins, my l0la [m0ther side] and my ninang at Manila h0tel [again?]..wla lang, pampalipas time lang =)
While i was cleaning my r0om, i arranged first my cabinet [bc0z my m0m insisted me t0 fixed my drawer] and i f0und my diary.. and i was even sh0cked bc0z it is still there.. The entries i have in my diary started since December 2002 and that's why i alm0st forgot my diary.. and can y0u imagine h0w thick it is? ehehe.. if i can remember, i b0ught that diary during my bday last december '02. then the last entry i have is dated on August 2004.. and started p0sting my entries in my blogpage kaya nakalimutan k0 na sia. =(

2006-04-15T10:22:00.000+08:00

APRIL 15, 2006

yesterday evening,we we're able to watch "PASSION OF CHRIST" for the second time around in star m0vies [if y0u have a cable c0nnecti0n it is channel 55].. So yun na nga, i was really furious of what i have seen, i kn0w na di k0 first time na mapan0od yun kaya lang this was the first time na talagang inabs0rb yung pinapan0od ko. And i am starting t0 hate religious people or let just say the "priests" because as far as i kn0w during the time of Jesus, th0se priests or the religious people are the one who insists Pilate to persecute Christ, in short they are the cause of Jesus' crucifixion.. see that? and n0w, sila pa yung pinaka main instrument of God to deliver his message to us ordinary people. I really d0nt kn0w h0w does it happened, but it happened. And as i recall, Pilate d0nt want t0 persecute Christ roughly, he just chastise Christ but includes the fact n0t to treat Christ very r0ugh.. But the pe0ple wh0m Christ had helped and the priests insisted t0 crucify him.
People at that time is really w0rst c0mpare n0w.. even my m0m told me na mas masama ang mga ta0 n0on kesa ngae0n. Naaasar talaga ak0 while watching the m0vie, kc all of them is walang utang na l0ob! But we all kn0w that Christ thinks differently fr0m us.

You kn0w, parang gust0 na magbag0 na pr0fessi0n.. i want t0 be a hist0rian that studies anything about Christ.. Like ni Robert Langdon sa Da Vinci Code parang ganun. Kahit dati pa naman gusto ko na maging ganun kaya lang ewan k0 ba.. i dont know where to start.. i even told my m0m about dun and sabi nia ako daw ang bahala.. naku ewan k0 ba! masyad0 talaga ak0ng nag papaapekt0 sa lahat ng bagay..

Anyway, nasa bahay na pala ak0 nage0n.. kakauwi k0 lang.. kaya the m0ment i was at h0me, binuksan k0 agad yung PC k0 and nag bl0g..ehehe.. i miss my PC s0 much! naku parang adik tlga n0h?! and maybe t0m0rrow nandit0 si b0nn, kasi fiesta samin.. c0nsisitent yun every EASTER SUNDAY, fiesta samin.. weeeeee... reuni0n na naman t0h.. ahaha.. ay 0o nga pala, binyag din ng baby chl0e namin.. =p aus?! d0uble celebrati0n..

2006-04-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

ney called me up unexpectedly.. i was even surprise because he called me up. And i knew at once that something is amiss. First he asked me what ami d0ing and i t0ld him "is s0mething wr0ng ney?" then he started telling what happened.. and as usual, its all ab0ut his m0m.. he was even asking me if i have anthrax, if y0u kn0w what's the use of anthrax, y0u're getting what im trying t0 imply. But i understand him, i kn0w he's only upset kaya niya nasabi yun. Kaya lang kasi, nung sinabi niya, "e ney lagi nlang ganun.." narealize k0 na o0 nga naman lagi nalang ganun.. =( i d0nt kn0w kung kelan aay0s ang m0mmy nia and t0gether with his dad, his siblings, and even his 2 lazy c0usins na dahil sa s0brang katamaran nung 2 e kay b0nn din umaasa ang m0mmy nila... I have s0 many things on my mind right n0w t0 st0p these things happening.. esp yung sa dalawa niang cuzins esp the girL.. kaya lang lagi nalang niang sinsabi na hayaan m0 nalang.. and ay0ko din namang makelam with0ut the c0nsent ni b0nn..
I was als0 upset kasi parang lahat inaasa nalang nila kay b0nn.. its really unfair! All im h0ping is t0 st0p this things fr0m happening and everything will be fair sa part ni b0nn.. =( And ang mahirap pa dun, aware ak0 sa sarili k0 na s0brang naaasar na tlga ak0 per0 ang kaya k0 lang sabihin is "hayaan m0 na.. k0nting tiis nalang.. pag nagpasukan na, back t0 n0rmal na ulit ang lahat.." Wla lang naman talga ak0ng ch0ice but t0 th0se things kasi ay0ko namang mapressure lal0 si b0nn because of me.. And i want t0 be very careful with my w0rds kasi parents pa din niya yun. =(
I really d0nt kn0w what is the right thing t0 do. But gad! im really h0ping na everything will be fair and right in b0nn's part. =(

weeeeeeeee...

2006-04-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

friendster is already w0rking..ehehe.. w0rking daw oh?! and i think im n0t the onLy one,even p0tp0t was n0t able open the friendster site with his c0nnecti0n.. s0 later this m0rning, i called up PLDT t0 rep0rt the inc0nvenience of their c0nnecti0n.. di bale kung libre lang yung c0nnecti0n nila, e it c0st me a l0t of hell para lang sa c0nnecti0n na t0h..ehehe.. s0 yun na. Then sabi paki restart p0 yung PC ni0.. v0ila! ok na..hanep n0h?! ehehe..
Im having a hard time t0 decide whether t0 j0in b0nn and his cuzin's outing this c0ming 22.. haller?! when b0nn t0ld me that it will be held on 22, i really freaked out.. why?.. because it is the church wedding of my auntie glenda and uncle j0y [y0unger br0 of my dad] and at the same time, birthday celebrati0n din ng l0lo ko.. tep0k ak0 pag di ak0 pumunta dun.. my l0la even b0ught me cl0thes t0 wear in that very day... waaa.. an0ther occassi0n will be is the baptism of c0usin [in my father side], n0 need t0 menti0n her name.. >:0 haaayy.. pan0 na naman kaya t0h?! amfufu naman tlga oh...
I will be in Manila h0tel t0morr0w till friday.. wahehehe.. why? wla lang din.. ehehe.. i will be staying there overnight.. and isa pa, makakapag swimming ak0 dun.. ahaha.. i asked b0nn t0 c0me with me and he agreed.. And i t0ld him n0t t0 eat t0 f0ods in the pers0nal refrigerat0r kasi it's really expensive, even a small mixed nuts c0st 70 pes0s.. waaaa.. excpet f0r the f0ods with c0mpliments sticker, it means its free.. ehehe.. =) ab0ut our f0od naman, oorder nalang kame ng breakfast, lunch and dinner sa h0tel f0r t0morr0w and f0r the next day.. and para naman sa mga midnight snacks or whatever snacks, mag gr0gr0cery nalang kame..ehehe.. para tipid dba?! it will c0st us a l0t of m0ney kung pati yung f0ods sa ref na nasa r0om is kakainin namin.. en0ugh na cgur0 yung gr0ceries namin and yung breakfast,lunch and dinner f0r thursday and friday.. ehehe.. Im s0 excited.. ehehe.. ubusan na naman ng pera t0h.. i asked b0nn t0 bring his lapt0p with him.. e he's using WiFi naman eh s0 may internet c0nnecti0n.. weeee.. this will be very, very exciting.. ehehe.. and o0 nga pala, because it is lenten seas0n, we're n0t g0ing t0 eat meat.. and we b0th agreed t0 it.. =)
So that's all f0r now.. and f0r sure i w0nt be able t0 p0st pics during our stay in the h0tel kasi masyad0ng camera shy ang asawa k0 and if he sees na may mga pin0st ak0 and even sa friendster k0, tep0k ak0 nun.. ehehe..

shit!

2006-04-11T18:33:00.000+08:00

i d0nt kn0w what's wr0ng with my PC but i cant open friendster.. amf.. of all the sites nman oh. I was even to open it yesterday aftern0on but kagabi di k0 na ma 0pen until n0w.. ang masama pa dun, friendster lang tlga ang di k0 ma open.. waaaa.. teynk gad, ate caye will be here dis c0ming sunday kasi fiesta samin s0 magagawa nia PC k0ng bul0k..ehehe.. i even try t0 my h0ney's lapt0p but with the same c0nnecti0n ok naman.. s0 i think the pr0blem is with my PC's s0ftware.. waaaaaaaaaaa.......... =(

bLogthings..

2006-04-10T14:32:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is high. It's your way or the highway when it comes to love. You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life. No question, you like to be the one calling the shots. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Love Song Is

Thankyou by Dido "And I want to thank you for giving me The best day of my life Oh, just to be with you is having The best day of my life." It's all good, as long as you're in love.

What Love Song Are You?

b0ring!!!

2006-04-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

hay,s0brang b0ring.. habang tumatagal,nauubusan na k0 ng mga ideas ab0ut the things i will d0 just t0 kill s0me of my time. We're still waiting April 17 t0 arrived para maka c0mplete na kame sa pesteng PHILOSOPHY na yan. Waaaa.. i cant even think kung an0 ang itatype k0 para sa blog entry k0..ehehe.. im sick and tired of checking my friendster, my bLogpage,my emails and my YM.. haaayyy.. lagi nalang ganun.. sawa na din ak0 sa s0undtrip, fudtrip, sleepingtrip [ehehe], texting, m0vie marath0n.. i want s0me changes dis summer.. gust0 k0ng mag outof t0wn ulet, kaya lang wla ak0ng budget..ehehe.. naub0s na way back nung nasa pans0l kame..ehehe.. =p

NINE HARDEST TIMES OF OUR LIVES
1.Being questi0ned,when y0u y0urself d0nt understand.
2.Pretending to be innocent of what you know about.
3.Trying to forget something you know you never will.
4.Admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right.
5.Debating with yourself.
6.Accepting the fact that somethings are not menat to be.
7.Trying to understand when you just cant.
8.Realizing that you have been tricked after youve given your whole trust.
9.Parting and letting go of someone youve loved all your life.

wiLdfLower...

2006-04-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

this s0ng is one of mem0rable s0ngs that i really, really l0ved.. It was sung by a band way back when me,my h0ney,kenneth,mark and mean was in the OL,Antipolo. Ken, t0ld the old man that it was my birthday that very day, s0 the old man t0gether with his band sung and played the happy birthday s0ng first then the wildfl0wer s0ng. When i was still 12-13 years old, i already kn0w this s0ng because of my uncLe,my m0m and my dad wh0 really l0ved music [until n0w] and we still have c0mpilati0ns of cds including the wildfl0wer s0ng and the bizaare l0ve triangle s0ng.. ehehe.. But when i heard that s0ng dedicated t0 me.. w00ooowww.. it felt s0 different, i d0nt kn0w why basta i felt s0 different.. ehehe.. =p i was even singing with the old man, cute n0h? ehehe... but i felt s0 t0uched.. =) weird n0h?!

Wildflower

She's faced the hardest times
you could imagine
and many times her eyes fought back the tears
and when her youthful world
was about to fall in
each time her slender shoulders
bore the weight of all her fears
and a sorrow no one hears
still rings in midnight silence,
in her ears

Let her cry, for she's a lady
let her dream, for she's a child
let the rain fall down upon her
She's a free and gentle flower,
growing wild

and if by chance I should hold her
let me hold her for a time
but if allowed just one possessio
n I would pick her from the garden,
to be mine

Be careful how you touch her,
for she'll awaken
and sleep's the only freedom that she knows
and when you walk into her eyes,
you won't believe
the way she's always paying
for a debt she never owes
and a silent wind still blows
that only she can hear and so she goes

Let her cry, for she's a lady
let her dream, for she's a child

let the rain fall down upon her
She's a free and gentle flower,
growing wild

2006-04-07T15:55:00.000+08:00

im n0t sure if this entry will seem s0 petty with other pe0ple per0 kasi f0r me its really a big deal.. per0 sabi nga kanya kanya lang yan..
this has been my pr0blem ever since i c0mmit myself in this relati0nship. Alam m0 yun, things has been g0ing s0 sm0othly tap0s may biglang mangyayari, panira ba?! We're b0th trying s0 hard t0 impr0ve this c0mmitment kaya lang the m0re harder we're trying the m0re it is bec0ming t0o imp0sible.. ewan k0 lang huh.. based on my 0wn percepti0n lang yun. But he always gives me assurance na time will c0me that everything will be ok. But i d0nt want ASSURANCE.. i want th0se things t0 happen. Very impatient lang kasi talaga ak0 cgur0. I want t0 get the things i want instantly. Kung sa relati0nship lang naman, ok kame.. i mean, ok yung relati0nship namin. The main pr0blem is US.. Kasi it's been a l0t of pr0blem na din ang nalagpasan namin per0 kita m0 naman, kami pa din, and pr0ud ak0 dun. Kaya lang, until n0w.. we still havent learn each 0ther's weaknesses and strenghts.. mer0n pa rin kasing ibang bagay na di pa rin namin nasesettle.. ewan k0 ba. I d0nt kn0w h0w will i put th0se pr0blems int0 w0rds.. Di k0 rin alam kung may pr0blem ba tlga or imaginati0n k0 lang yun. Naku ewan tlga. Alam k0 na there are times na nahihirapan sia, and alam k0 na alam nia na may times din na nahihirapan na din ak0.. We just tend t0 be blind t0 th0se things para lang matap0s na, deadma nalang kesa lumaki pa dba?! Yun kasi ang ugali ni b0nn... yung sa s0brang matiisin, quiet nalang sia lagi.. di k0 ba alam kung galit na sia, nasasaktan na sia or ayaw na ba nia.. unlike me, very v0cal kasi talaga ak0.. And because of that, nahihiya ak0 in my part na mag demand, mag reklam0 and mag serm0n.. kaya what will happen is quiet nalang din ak0.. parang paunahan nalang, kung cn0 unang mapun0, sia ang unang mag frefreak out, parang ganun ba?
Ang hirap pa saming dalawa, we rely s0 much sa isa't isa.. parang saming dalawa lang nagrerev0lve yung mund0 namin. At first, kala k0 maganda yun, per0 n0w, ang hirap pala. Kasi parang sa kanya ka nalang laging umaasa.. being happy.. and being everything y0u wanted t0 be. Ak0, i admit na, i have l0st s0 many friends dahil sa relati0nship na t0.. but n0 regrets kasi ginust0 k0 din naman yun, i ch0se and make th0se things t0 happen.. I still remember during 3rd year HS.. bag0 palang kame nun.. kame na ang laging magkasama, we we're n0t able t0 j0in our own c0mpany, esp me. Per0 gladly, naka survive kame..kasi naman, kahit di ak0 nakakasama sa mga friends k0, they are still there f0r me, because i really try t0 explain sa kanila kung an0 ang lagay k0 nung mga times na yun.. and n0w, my HS friends are all g0ne.. we're still c0mmunicating per0 di na tulad ng dati.. and i feel s0 sad dahil dun. But n0w, im trying t0 accept na, n0t all things are meant t0 last.. And naging masaya din naman ak0 sa c0mpany ni b0nn.. kaya lang kasi th0ugh thankful ak0 sa mga new friends k0 ngae0n sa sch0ol,para kasing may kulang.. ibang iba sila sa mga friends k0 way back in HS.. mas click kasi ak0 sa mga HS friends k0.. very 0pen ak0 sa knila, as in every deatil about me and b0nn alam nila and likewise ganun din sila.. pareh0 kami ng mga hilig.. [gumimik, umin0m, manigarily0..etc] alam m0 yun? per0 im n0t saying na mas gust0 k0 yung mabisy0ng barkada, kaya lang kasi ganun ak0 eh an0ng magagawa k0 dba? E yung mga friends k0 ngae0n sa sch0ol parang di pa ganun ka seri0us.. ak0 nga lang ang my bf samin eh.. ak0 lang ang gumigimik,umiin0m.. parang ang panget dba? but on the 0ther hand, masaya din naman ak0 sa c0mpany nila, but still there are times na parang may kulang.. ^^ ta0 nga namang n0h, wlang kuntent0 kung an0 mer0n sila..
And n0w y0u kn0w, why im really having a hard time t0 give up b0nn.. ive sacrificed s0 many things na din para lang maging fruitful and tumagal ang relati0nship namin. And i kn0w na sia din.. kaya lang kasi, mabarkada tlga.. di ak0 mabubuhay ng wlang barkada.. yung wla kang matawagan pag my maj0r pr0blems ka.. wlang kang makausap ab0ut certain things.. alam ni0 yun? tap0s wla yung bf m0.. parang ang hirap dba? buti nlng si ate chelo nand2 na sa bahay at least may nasasabihan ak0 ng mga pr0blems k0.. kaya ang sama tlaga sa l0ob k0, in times na kelangang kelangan k0 si b0nn tap0s wla sia.. it happens s0 many times na din, alam ni0 ba yun? per0 may narinig ba sia sakin? wala.. kaya alam m0, sasabihin m0 na 3 yrs na kame, madami paring bagay na di alam ni b0nn ab0ut sakin, because pinili k0 na wag din niang malaman kasi sasabihin nun ang petty lang.. I cant even cry infr0nt of him.. di k0 alam why per0 ganun yata tlaga..
Im n0t asking t0 have the perfect relati0nship, and the perfect bf.. i just want s0meone wh0 i can burst out all my burdens.. kahit an0 pa man yun. And im thankful because i have my dad.. he's always there t0 listen and help me.. i can even just cry in his sh0ulders tap0s wla na, ok na. Yun lang naman eh. Im n0t even asking f0r t0o much.. haaaayyy.. cgur0 nga time will tell.. cgur0 nga there will be time na everything will w0rk out just fine..

Maybe you'll soon forget about all
Or maybe you'll miss it like I do

One thing's for sure:
I'm all knocked out
Spend too much time thinking of you

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the dangerous kind/BR> And your smile is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams

Don't wanna write, I don't wanna call,
I would not know what to say
It should be you, that's how I want it to be
Tell me you feel the same way

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the dangerous kind
and your smile is tattooed on my mind
and I can't get you out of my dreams

Oh, yesterday I was feeling safe
All I do today is trying to be brave
And no melody can seem to soothe my mind
And now I curse you for being so sweet and so kind

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the dangerous kind
and your face is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams

Yes I know you're tatooed on my mind you're tatooed.....

my new deskt0p... ^^

2006-04-07T10:19:00.000+08:00

this is my current deskt0p.. its my baby chl0ewiwi.. ehehe.. i kn0w that s0me of u thinks na anak k0 t0h.. d p0 n0h?! pamangkin k0 lang yan.. and she's the y0ungest of all my nieces and nephews as of the m0ment.. hihihi.. cutie nia n0h?!

my new lay out..

2006-04-06T16:26:00.000+08:00

at last sinipag din ak0.. ehehe.. i was ableto change the lay out of my bLogpage.. cutie n0h?! anyway, kanina nasa sch0ol na namn kame ni b0nn, kasi kinuha nia yung result ng test nia and gladly he passed.. =) [nice w0rk ney.] And at the same time, yung 2 cuzins naman nia ang nag apply f0r entrance exam [mabuti yun, samasama kame dun..?!] and t0morr0w naman yung test nila and h0pefully kasama na naman ak0 dun.. =p
While we're on our way t0 sch0ol, nakasalub0ng k0 sila angel and aby sa walkway.. i asked them kung may bagsak ba cla.. aba putsa ayaw namang sabihin ng mga baklang yun.. i missed them s0 much na.. ehehe..
ay o0 nga pala, after the burial of our l0la oreng.. napag usapan ng mga tita k0 t0gether with my m0m yung GENES namin.. ahaha.. and ngae0n ko lang natuklasan na yung middle name naming BALAJADIA is SPANISH pala.. in sh0rt, cr0ss breed pala kame.. ahaha.. parang as0 lang n0h?! haLf spanish pala kame.. then sabi sakin ng tita k0 "diba obvious, mata palang matatapang na.." kaya pala.. sabi naman nit0ng kenneth na t0h, "mananak0p pala kay0 ng Pilipinas eh.." wahahahaha... di k0 naisip yun huh?!
s0 that's all f0r now.. but im glad napalitan k0 na yung lay out ng bLogpage k0.. ^^

untitled...

2006-04-05T10:28:00.000+08:00

im here in 0ne of the c0mputer lab here in my sch0oL.. im waiting f0r b0nn t0 finish his entrance exam kasi, eh upt0 12n0on pa yun.. s0 i decided t0 stay here instead.. airc0n pa! ehehe..

anyway, im planning t0 change my layout kaya lang nitatamad ak0 eh. Per0 may naka ready layout na k0 na ipapalit.. ehehe.. maybe next time pag sinipag na k0. And ok pa naman yung layout that im currently using.

Last night was the last evening of my l0la oreng wh0 died.. Actually, di sia nagmukang lamay kasi nagmistulang REUNION ng famiLy BALAJADIA eh.. ehehehe.. And dahil dun, nagkitakita na naman kame ulet ng cuzins k0 5 years k0 ng di nakikita [di sia exagerated.. t0to0 tlga..] Si JR and si Jemart.. Si jemart is a member of the Streerb0ys.. ehehe.. nice genes n0h?! =p And buti nlng dunating na yung package k0 fr0m NY fr0m my uncLe Jhay, ung s0ny handicam na pinabili ko sa kanya.. I really l0ved it.. kasi pede siang vide0cam and at the same time still cam pa.. kaya may mga pics kame nung mga l0ng l0st cuzins k0..
Meron dun sabi ni mama na cuzins din daw namin, huh?! e ngae0n lang nmin nakita yung mga yun, pinsan na namin? tap0s ang aarte pa.. sus tlga! kala m0 cn0ng ganda.. e 5 layers naman ang kilay, extensi0n yata yun ng bangs nia.. tap0s yung isa naman bading.. bakulaw! ehehe.. sama makatingin.. kala nia uubra sia sa mga ate k0.. ehehe.. buti nlng nakabili sila ate ng breeding kaya nanahimik nalng sila.. =) Pero mas magaganda parin kame dun.. beauty and brains yata kame.. [amf! ang hangin!] nakakaasar lang kasi tlga.. mga bag0ng salta na sa lugar namin, ngae0n lang kame mga nagkita.. kala m0 pa kung cn0ng mga makatingin.. parang dinedegrade yata kame, kasi ang iingay namen.. eh s0rry cla n0h, ngae0n lang nmin nakita ulit cla kua jerich0, JR and jemart..
Nage0n nga ang burial ng l0la ko.. and i think, di ak0 makaksama sa libing.. kc 2pm yun, e f0r sure nasa SM pa k0 nun.. tp0s ang init pa, and sa n0rth cemetery pa.. e ay0kong ay0ko na pumupunta dun eh. anyway, nandun nman ak0 nung huling gabi eh.. kaya ok na yun..

haaaayyyy.. its only quarter t0 11, isang oras pa bag0 matapos si b0nn sa test nia.. gut0m na k0.. di pa kasi me nag aalmusal eh.. per0 when i saw raym0nd sa b0tanical graden [inside of our campus..] binili nia k0 ng creams, c2 and pepsi.. waaaaa! ang dami.. e y0ko naman ng pepsi.. kasi bawal na sakin yun.. kaya hanggat kaya, iniiwasan k0 tlga ang s0das and s0ftdrinks.. s0 till here nlng muna..

finals...

2006-04-04T17:53:00.000+08:00

APRIL 4,2006

later this m0rning.. me and b0nn went t0 Adams0n.. purp0se? t0 get my grades and para mag apply na din si b0nn for this c0ming sch0ol year. 10:30 nasa city hall na kme and we went first t0 SM Mla para magpapicture si b0nn. and ang daming ta0 sa tr0nix kaya natagalan kame and inab0t ng lunch break.. s0 we eat first after nming makuha yung pics nia then dr0p by muna sa sh0p.. When it is already 1pm, direts0 na kme sa ADU.. waaa.. daming ta0.. enr0llment pala ng summer.. waaa.. but sabi nga "patience is the virtue.." amfness naman yun.. ehehe.. =)
Nung nsa CS bldg na kame.. i saw friend, richel and mariz.. then i say hi.. intr0duce b0nn then alis na.. ehehe.. naku! ang daming pr0cess nung ke b0nn, kasi di sia newly graduate.. may interview pa sa OSA DISCIPLINE.. teynk gad dun ak0 nagduduty kaya nagamit k0 ang p0wers k0.. ehehe.. =p So after nun, sa admissi0n naman.. waaaa.. haba ng pila sa cashier.. per0 as i said PATIENCE lang ang katapat nian.. So yun na.. after naming makuha ang sched ni b0nn f0r entrance exam [which is TOMORROW-8-12] punta naman kame sa ST bldg f0r me t0 see my grades..
First, sa ST Lobby muna.. nagswipe ak0 ng ID f0r me t0 see my grades in n0rmal grading.. [like 85..86..76] ok naman sia.. then sa COLLEGE of L.A. naman f0r me t0 have the hard c0py of my grades and para makta k0 yung grades k0 in p0int system [like 2.5, 2.6] so ok din naman.. and i w0uld like t0 present my grades..

MORAL THEOLOGY - 2.40
CWTS2 - 1.80
PE 2 - 1.40
BIOLOGICAL SCIENCE - 2.30
PHILOSOPHY - INC.
SOCIETY AND CULTURE - 1.30
PLANE TRIGONOMETRY - 2.70
PANITIKAN - 2.00
ENGLISH COMMUNICATION - 2.60
SPEECH AND ORAL COMMUNICATION - 2.20

haaayy.. as y0u can see, inc0mplete ak0 sa Philo dba? kasi dahil na delay kame mag present nung d0cumentary nga namin.. per0 dis c0ming May iprepresent na namin yun kaya magkakagrade na yan.. ehehe.. =)
but im still glad na wla ak0ng bagsak dba? kuntent0 na k0 sa grade k0.. ehehe.. teynk u Lord.. =)

our year end's outing...

2006-04-03T20:02:00.000+08:00

APRIL 2,2006

APRIL 1 and 2

me and my AUFAP family had our year end activity.. it's is our tribute to all of our graduating c0 AUFAP member.. it was held at Pansol,Laguna.. yep! private p0ol po.. bigtym n0h?! actually, wla nga kaming gast0s dun eh, all expense paid by our luving org. =) We departed fr0m ADU ar0und 8 in the m0rning.. then we arrived in Pansol ar0und 10:30 na yata yun. From 11:00-4:00 in the aftern0on,we had first our rec0llection.. per0 syempre with breaktimes yun ha,including lunch and merienda.. ehehe.. The rec0llection went very well. I was able to burst out all the burdens inside me, kasi bef0re April 1 and 2,i was very,very l0nely because of certain things happening. So, that rec0llecti0n we had really helped me alot.
Then fr0m 4-6:00pm, VIDEOKE time naman! ahahaha.. parang adik nga lang eh?! Syempre, di mawawala si friend dun n0h.. e adik sa kantahan yun.. then mer0n siang naging katapat, si ISMAEL aka BEAH.. wahehehe.. [j0ke lang huh?!] per0 ismael talga name nung baklang yun.. ehehehe..
From 6-11:00pm, the time for our tribute to our graduating sisters.. 4 sila, si ate renee [c0mp.eng.], ate leah [educati0n], ate j0ssa [c0mp sci], and ate aiza [BS BA/cumlaude pa] astig n0h?!
Then after nun, swimming time na...weeee.. fr0m 11:30-2:00 am, nasa tubig yata ak0.. and while in the p0ol, nag iinuman kame.. ehehe.. kumalat pa nga yung lala sa p0ol eh.. si ate grace kasi.. wahehehe.. After nun, mga 2:30am, i g0t tired, i t0ok a bath, tap0s i felt sleepy na nun.. sumilip ak0 sa rum ng girLs.. waaa.. overl0aded.. s0 i j0in marclem and r0na instead para makipagkwentuhan, cgur0 mga 5minutes lang yun. Then sumilip ak0 sa r0om ng b0ys.. ehehe.. ayun may pwest0.. sa paanan nga lang nila friend ang kuya jas0n.. per0 carry na yun, s0brang ant0k na k0 eh. Tapos i w0ke up kuya jas0n para lang iinf0rm sia na nandun ak0,kasi isang sipa lang sakin laglag na k0.. when ate shine and kuya aries saw me,sabi nila na, "sige,kame naman ang mag suswimming.." kaya nagkar0n ako ng c0mfy na pwest0 sa bed.. ehehe.. i was sleeping between friend ang kuya jas0n.. s0 un na.. sleeping beauty na ang drama k0 nun. Mga 3am, naramdaman k0 na may tumabi sakin.. waaaa.. si sir cris pala yun.. inakap pa k0, kaya nagising ak0.. then kinumutan nia k0 [d0nt w0rry, pareh0 kame ng type nun..ehehe] then he turn off the lights and kaya pala mainit naka off ung airc0n.. nung dumating lang si sir cris nabuksan.. =p then yun na.. 20 minure later, si beah naman ang nakisiksik.. sa legs k0 sia nahiga.. [pareh0 din kame ng type nian, kaya n0thing t0 w0rry.. =p] as in hirap na hirap sia sa pwest0 nia.. kasi bawat galaw k0, nagigising sia.. s0 ginawa k0, pinat0ng ko yung mga legs k0 ke friend.. [walang malisya yun huh?!] para makahiga si beah.. then ar0und 5am, nagising ulit ak0 kasi parang maluwag na ung pwest0 ko.. pinahiga k0 si beag beside me.. then i saw sir cris lying sa paanan namin nila eduard.. pan0 kaya sia napunta dun?! ehehe..
Around quarter t0 9 kame nagising.. pag gising k0 sabi nila mercy na hinahanap daw nila ak0, onLy to find out na sa r0om pala ako ng b0ys natulog.. e an0 naman?! e s0brang sikip na sa r0om namin eh. tska si sir cris, beah and friend naman ang katabi k0 eh.. and kahit sin0 pa sa mga b0ys ng aufap ok lang kasi wla namang malisya samin yun eh.. Then ginising kame ni m0m lei.. gisingan na daw.. uwian na pala! waaaa.. wla ng liguan.. t0othbrush and hilam0s nalang ang katapat naming mga late na nagising.. ehehe..
basta very happy yung outing namin na yun, as in tlga! I c0nsider it as one of my mem0rable m0ments wid my AUFAP family.. Im l0oking fr0ward t0 an0ther year end outing with my AUFAP family.. =)

certain things...

2006-03-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

this night, i have decided regarding with s0me certain things ab0ut my life and basta anything that c0ncerns me.. but first i w0uld like t0 share h0w happy i was because i was able t0 c0ok our entree [pr0n0unced as entrey..ehehe] f0r my m0m, my sissy and my br0 for this night.. ehehe.. kaya lang c0rned beef lang yun ha baka isipin ni0 kasi s0mething very c0mplicated na lutuin. but i still c0nsider it as an achievement [babaw ba?!] because di nmn tlga me marun0ng maglut0, nagmaganda lang ak0 kanina and teynk gad aus naman ang lut0 ko.. ehehe..

i have decided t0 st0p c0mmunicating with s0me pe0ple.. kung cn0 sia, secret k0 na yun.. basta that idea just came up t0 me.. per0 syempre with reas0ns.. but im n0t sure if its valid or n0t kasi FYI, until n0w, im n0t sure kung an0 ba talga ang reas0n ko. Anyway, t0 be m0re specific, they are 2 human beings.. =( basta, i h0pe everything will went out fine.

my engineering friend [y0u kn0w hu u are..] texted me.. saying na "MAY TIWALA KA BA SAKIN?" omg! an0 yun? and pinabasa k0 pa yun sa ate k0 ung message nia just t0 make sure na tama nga yung nabasa k0.. then i replied "HUH? SYEMPRE NAMN,Y PO?" tp0s sabi nia na "OK LANG BA SAU NA UNG NANLILIGAW SEO, IS WLA KANG TRUST SA KNYA? PERO NOW I KNOW.." tsk..tsk.. an0 kaya yun.. haaayy lyf! my life has been s0 c0mplicated, sumasabay ka pa..naku hayaan na nga..

its already late.. im g0ing to sleep na.. ciao..

a long distance from a friend.

2006-03-27T11:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday morning, ive never expected that a friend from Hawaii will call. Actually, i was very surprised.. its almost been a year or two the last time we talked. So yun na, if i remember around 10am yata yun, then when i answered the fon, the caller said "may i please speak to cohr?" then i answered back "speaking,may i know hus dis?" then sabi nia "ui, si r0se toh.." waaaaa.... so the rest is history. Kamustahan, chikahan, balitaan, in short kwentuhan..ehehe..i really miss her, though we we're not able to see each other personally. Kasi ganito yun, si r0se is the former gf of Lougene which is cuzin ni b0nn.. then am0ng the girlfriends nung mga cuzin ni b0nn, si r0se ang pinaka close sa kanya.. tap0s b0nn intr0duced us thr0ugh YM and emails.. kasi that time nasa Hawaii na sia nun.. then it all started there.. cute n0h?! ehehehe..

then ar0und 8 in the evening, nag m0vie marath0n ako.. and for the reas0n i still d0nt kn0w until n0w, i watched ELLA ENCHANTED.. ^^ cute kasi nung m0vie na yun eh. And i cant imagine if i w0uld be in the sh0es of ella, f0llowing all the directi0ns she will be given kahit against sa l0ob nia yun.. But syempre like all fairy tales, the cursed had st0pped because of her l0ve to his prince charming.. cute din n0h?! sabi ni b0nn c0rny daw.. haaayy.. lagi naman eh.. ang astig daw yung DA VINCI CODE, th0ugh trailer palang ang napapan0od nmin.. but im really l0oking f0rward t0 watch that m0vie kaya lang medy0 matagal pa eh, MAY 9 pa ang sh0wing.. take n0te WORLDWIDE SHOWING un.. unlike other m0vies na mer0ng specific dates in different c0untries..

isa pa sa fav0rite past time k0 ngae0n is reading [AS ALWAYS].. kasi while arranging my things kasi nga vacati0n na dba, and my m0m is pressuring me s0 much na ayusin na ang mga gamit ko sa cabinet.. whew! tap0s yun nga, nahalungkat k0 yung mga p0cket b0oks k0.. aha! ehehe..then i saw my b0b ong b0oks.. weee.. ehehehe.. i luv b0b ong. kc very inf0rmative yung c0ntents ng b0oks nia and at the same time very entertaining.. w0rth it yung pera m0 as in.. s0 kahit paulit ulit k0 ng binabasa yung 3 b0oks nia namely "bakit baligtad magbasa ang mga Pilipino", "ang pab0rit0ng libr0 ni hudas" and yung pinaka fave k0 is yung "ABNKKBSNPL AKO" .. ehehehe..cute kasi talga eh..di nakakasawa.

ay isa pa pala, di tuloi swimming namin 2morow kc namatayan si maan.. yung uncle nia. so as a sign of respect, p0stponed muna ang swimming..

wait a minute, parang may napansin ako.. wats with the w0rd CUTE?! parang trip na trip k0ng sabihin yata ngae0n yun ha? ay ewan tlga.. ehehe.. si sandara tska si jas0n pala yung mga magnanakaw ng g0lden eggs ng h0usemates, e nakita yata sila nung mga h0usemates kaya ang parusa nila is mag stay dun ng 2days yata.. ahaha.. cute nga nila eh.. naku! parang ewan tlga n0h..

mean girLs..

2006-03-26T14:10:00.000+08:00

after i had my lunch, i saw my cuz watching HBO kanina, den i asked her "is dat lindsay l0han" and she said "yup"... i knew it.. ehehe.. one of my fave m0vies, MEAN GIRLS.. hihihi.. i really l0ved that m0vie kasi i can remember the days way back in my SOPHOMORE days in HIGH SCHOOL.
when i was still in my 2nd year HS, i also had some girlfriends.. well before i have been a part of that group, i was with anna gay [former gf of bonn], crystal, ronna, deo, clark, moses and bonn [which was my bestfriend in those times, and now he's my h0ney.. then one day, i just decided to go on separate ways from them and be with other girLs who's more ZUPISTA [if you're watching wazzup2x, you know what im trying to say] anyway, so yun na, i left them that caused them to hate me a little.. so yun na, i beLong to the ANGELS NEXT DOOR gr0up..ehehe..namely, mara, r0bby, neLLiza, reaH, jhackielyn, ashLey and me.. aLL i can say we have many things in common which is "GOING HOME LATE, GUMIMIK, UMINOM, MAGTRIP AND MAGPUSTAHAN.." ^^ very bad n0h?! but i think its normal for a HS girLs like us.. and syempre ang tendency na lagi kaming magkakasama, agaw eksena lagi.. i mean, pansin agad.. we tend to do things, some are bad and some are go0d.. some are right and some are wrong.. but we never care at all.. per0 what's good with this girLs is we dont care what other people might say about us, and we never say bad things against to each one of us, in short di kame PLASTIK!.. ah isa pala, we're all SINGLES at that time, except for r0bby.. kasi ang ruLes namin nun na pag may bf ka, sagot mo lahat ng gastos kasi nga may financier ka..ehehe..
per0 i really had a go0d time being with th0se girLs. happy go lucky kame nun.. i can still remember, almost everyday, we drink liquors and we go h0me late na.. tap0s papas0k kame para magkwentuhan lang...ehehe.. per0 ang maganda dun is di namin napapabayaan ang studies namin, and 3 of us belongs to the t0p ten of our class.. me, mara and jhack.. ehehe..

wala lang.. i just felt sharing it with other people.. kasi it is not just puro gimik or kalokohan but the thought you have experienced some memorable moments with those magnificent girLs.. and honetly, im missing them s0 much.. kasi eversince we separated our ways during seniors wla na kming naging k0ntak.. well, si mara and nel magkasama pa din until n0w.. me and reah ganun din.. but si r0bby and jhack, wla na k0ng news.. th0ugh mga ka friendster ko cla, per0 iba parin yung nakakasama mo cla. ay,si r0bby nakikita ko sia minsan, kasi she's studying in TUP and malapit lang ang ADU dun dba?!.. haaayyy.. and si jhack naman, di mag meet ang sched nmin, per0 magkalapit lang din kami ng skul, taga EAC naman sia..

maybe sa reuni0n nalng kme magkikita..ehehe.. after 10 years or more.. ^^ but im really glad that they have been a part of my HS days... and they would be one of the most memorable memories i have.. ^^

a brand new start..

2006-03-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

another school year has ended and now we're all waiting for the new one.. haayy.. parang kelan lang nung nagsimula ang classes n0h?! i can still remember during the 1st sem.. bLk 102.. the sem where i met my new friends, namely angel, aby, anna, mayen and mercy.. and syempre together with the baby bears.. ^^ i admit that i have not faced some problems in this sem, kc parang happy go lucky lang kme nung mga panahon na yun.. then enrollment for the 2nd sem had started.. we decided to separate from the baby bears kasi di namin trip yung c0mpany nila but im not saying na mga ewan sila ha, kaya lang there are certain attitudes na ayaw namin sa kanila.. s0 sec0nd sem na.. we belong to the block 104.. lahat kme bag0ng salta lang sa blk na yun.. iilan lang ang orig na 104 dun.. by this sem, s0brang fruitful tlga. we learned so many things, we met new friends, we faced s0me pr0blems but we we're able to solved it together.. in short we really enjoy this sec0nd sem.. and guess what we're planning to be enrolled in the same block this coming sem.. weeee.. ehehehe.. wla lang. im so happy na inspite of the problems and the hardships that we've faced, we we're able to moved on and now together with the help of our new found friends.. ^^

copied from a friend..^^ [bum!]

2006-03-22T19:07:00.000+08:00

_______Last________
1. Person you saw: angel,aby,yen,anna,maan,mercy..
2. Talk on the phone with: bonn
3. Hugged: my baby chloe
4. IM: jeLLow

_______Today________
1. What are you doing now: tryin to recall what am i going to blog
2. What are you doing tonight: study first den sleep.
3. What are you wearing right now: shirt and shorts
4. What did you eat for lunch: mojos and strawberry shake [cross cutting!]

________Tomorrow___________
1. Is: thursday..
2. Got any plans: yep. on Mar.28-29 the scheduled bday celebration of maan,yen,angel and mercy.. den April 1-2 in pansol,laguna naman wid aufap friends..wahehe
3. Goal: huh?!
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: its theo again.. ^^
5. Likes about tomorrow: i will be seing my h0ney.. yahho0oo..
6. Do you have to work: n0ne

________Currently_________
1. in love with someone: yep
2. Missing someone: YES
3. Loving life: sumtyms yes, sumtyms no..
4. Faking it: NO

I AM: a hard headed lady... wahehe
I WANT: to have a brand new f0n
I HAVE: [cant think of anything to complete dis one?!]
I WISH: dat i wuld be less self-centered..
I HATE: delays
I MISS: my h0ney..
I FEAR: having a failing grades..
I HEAR: waterfalls by TLC
I REGRET: being childish kanina..
I LOVE: people who loves me also

[YES OR NO]
You keep a diary: no
You have a secret journal: its a public journal
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: no
You bite your fingernails: no
You believe in love: yes

[DO YOU]
Take a shower everyday: yes
Have a(any) crush(es): no
Have any tattoos/where?: none
Piercings/where?: yup, ears..
Think you're a health freak: no.
Get along with your parents: sumtyms yes, sumtyms no..

[FAVORITEs]
NUMBER: 14
COLOR: red, black and fink
DAY: saturday.. the day for my gimik..
MONTH: september
SONG: sandalan by 6cyclemind and ulan by cueshe.. w00hooo
FOOD: mojos.. yummy!
SPORT: none..
DRINK: ice tea
VEGGIE: lettuce and young corn
FRUIT: watermelon, mango, banana, apple, orange..

wtF..

2006-03-21T10:30:00.000+08:00

supposedly, this morning i will be going to school to complete my requirements in one of my subjects.. and i will be meeting angel and aby around 9am after their exam in society [which i am one of the exempteds..] so yun na. I left at home around 8:15 then when i was already in recto.. shit! heavy jam ang traffic.. the jeepney i was riding was stock for about 30 minutes in recto [imagine that?!] then yung medyo malapit na me sa sta.cruz, angel txted me na m0m racelis was not around and her assistant told them that she will be around tomorrow. Fuck! asar tlaga?! then i texted her back saying "kamusta naman yun gel?! namf0ta tlga yun.." ehehehe.. per0 as in badtrif tlga ako because i spent almost half of an hour dun sa recto, i kept my patience on para lang makacomply ng mga requirements tapos she will not be around? duh?! that pr0fessor is really pathetic indeed. I was really furious that time, and what i did, i went to jollibee and bought coffee jelly.. wahehehe.. c0nsider it as a treat for myself for being so responsible and patient.. hihihi ^^

anyway, what's done is done.. i have a little talk with paola.. [a real and true friend of me and bonn].. she's in new jersey for several years na din.. the last time we have seen each other during our 1st year HIGH SCHOOL years.. so matagal na n0h?! but she keeps on promising to me na she will be present in our wedding day.. wahehehe.. adik tlga yun?! it only means matatagalan pa talaga.. me and bonn misses her so much.. m0st of our friends had already migrated in other countries.. haaayyy.. kaya puro long distance nalang, emails, and YM ang katapat namin.. ehehe.. per0 infairness pag sabay sabay silang umuwi dito, madami akong mabubuksan na balikbayan boxes.. ehehe. ^^

so that's all for now.. waaa.. tomorrow will be the start of my final exams.. tomorrow will be trigo and panitikan.. thursday will be theo.. friday will be bio.. waaaa.. basta i will study very very hard.. ^^ hihi..

bad news from my bessy hazeL.

2006-03-19T08:26:00.000+08:00

dis m0rning around 7am i texted my bessy t0 ask her if she have a class t0morrow. kc i d0nt have a class t0morr0w e sayang naman yung all0wance dba? anyway, she texted me back saying "baket?patay na m0m ko." wh0owww... my wh0le senses have g0ne out mad.. den i t0ld her na if she's trying t0 et my attenti0n she w0n.. per0 di magandang j0ke yun. but i kn0w her, she's n0t type na magj0joke abt death esp her m0m. Den yun nga, she c0nfirmed it t0 me na her m0m was dead. Then sabi k0 why didnt she inf0rm me, den she said that she did.. last thursday, she texted me in my gl0be number which is w0rst because gamit k0 nun is my smart. I was s0 tensed kn0wing na only child lang sia, tap0s separated pa parents nia. I can feel h0w hard f0r it is t0 her. And i kn0w she badly needs a c0mpany. When i texted her again, asking if san ba sia sa cavite di na nagreply. Even our friend jello was very furi0us abt the news. wla man lang ang nakakaalam samin. Yung magagaling nming "s0 called friends" aun, despedida nung isa ang iniintindi. Naaasar tlga ak0 sa knila. Nku hayaan na, why w0rry kung wla ng magagawa dba?! basta i just t0ld hazel na maybe God has other plans for them. Her m0m died of cardiac arrest.. As in biglaan tlga. I really d0nt kn0w whats the right thing to do and say. basta i keep on praying na sana makayanan ni hazel toh and ma accept nia ang reality na der r tyms our loved ones must separate their ways from us.

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2006-03-18T18:00:00.000+08:00

the busy week has ended and n0w the judgement day has arrived.. well, im talking about my finals week.. this will be the week that will decide whether we're going to pass or not. There are times i keep on thinking that studying is really n0t fair.. i mean, y0u're g0ing to spend m0re than y0u can expect amount of m0ney, eff0rt and perspirati0n para lang pumasa then at the end y0ure g0ing to realized that it is still n0t en0ugh or maybe its n0t w0rth it. im n0t being t0o sentimental about this but i felt pity with s0me of my classmates wh0 was n0t able t0 reached or achieved the expectati0ns of my pr0fess0rs.. maybe it is n0t the studying is unfair, maybe the pr0fess0rs.. im n0t talking in general, but there are s0me pr0fessors na parang nagtritrip lang. And malas m0 pag di pa ikaw naging teacher's pet or let just say pag di ka naging pleasant sa mata ng pr0f mo.. That's why, i really admire my tw0 pr0fessor namely, MOM CABANAG [my s0ciety and culture pr0f] and SIR JEREMILLOS [my panitikan pr0f]. They really been the best teacher. They really d0 their duties as a teacher. Walang halong trip as in seri0us tlaga. And y0u can really h0w persevere they are para matut0 ang students nila. Ewan k0, basta the best tlga sila th0ugh there are times masyad0ng strict per0 sabi nga nila para samin din naman yun. Im really l0oking f0rward t0 an0ther sem na maging pr0f ko ulit sila, because h0nestly, i really learned a lot fr0m them. As in sulit yung binabayad m0. But it is n0t about the m0ney sabi nga nila, but the th0ught na may maishare sila sa students nila. haaayy.. sana lahat ng pr0fessors tulad nila, very c0nsiderate, hard wr0king and di nagpapabayad. Kc admit it or not, there are some pr0fess0rs na pera lang ang hanap sa students nila [salbahe n0h?!] and there are als0 s0me na di nila iniisip kung kaya ba ng students nila yung mga pinapagawa nila th0ugh i kn0w na resp0nsibility natin as a student na gawin lahat ng mga pr0jects na nirerequire nila. Kaya lang sana maisip nila na dapat my limitati0ns. Like nung d0cu nmin sa philo. Im n0t being bitter kc na inc0mplete kme sa knya because alam nmn nmin na fault din namin yun kaya lang parang di yata appr0priate na gumast0s kame ng gan0ng kalaki t0 the fact na di pa kme 3rd year or 4th year. Even si m0m cabanag, nash0ck nung malaman nia na may ganun kaming pr0ject.. kc obvious samin ung fatigue and pressure sa subject na yun th0ugh i admit na nag enjoy din kame sa pag gawa nun kaya lang di lang yata tlga pr0per. naku hayaan na nga baka sabihin nag s0sour graping pa ko. What's d0ne is d0ne. And everything happen must c0nsider it as a challenge and at the same time a LESSON to learn.

n0w, that will be all f0r now. ^^ ciao.

phiLo.. phiLo.. phiLo..

2006-03-16T17:24:00.000+08:00

later this m0rning, phiLo na. and dba nga nag overnyt ak0 kela obet para bantayn kung matatap0s ba ung editing ng d0cu nmin, but bef0re that na inf0rm na kme ni obet na may p0ssibility nga na di matap0s yung amin.. s0 medy0 may feeling of acceptance na din samin.. i was wid b0nn.. mga ar0und 10:30pm na yata sia dumating dun. and bef0re that, may mga pesteng nursing ang nagpapaedit.. putsa?! sa s0brang arte nila inab0t sila ng 11:30pm, imagine that?! naku! asar na asar na tlga ak0 kagabi.. but i still tend t0 c0ntrol my anger and irritability.. ^^ basta to sum it all up di natap0s yung d0cu.. kc 3:30am na yata di pa tap0s, ang maganda pa dun, nagl0ko yung PC.. saya n0h?!

s0 philo tym na.. medy0 nagalit si sir, wen we inf0rmed him na di nga natap0s yung amin.. tp0s inc0mplete pa kame sa knya.. and sa summer class nlng daw nia kme magprepresent.. anyway one day lang nmn yun.. di gaan0ng ka big deal.. di din ganun ka big deal, kc wala namang pre requisit yung phiLo tsaka wala ng susun0d pa sa phiLo kaya makakapag enrol kame.. tska sabi nia para daw kaming mga tanga kc ihohold lang nmn daw nia grades nmin.. per0 teynkful p din kme na di 5 ang binigay nia...

per0 now, im planning to sleep.. ehehe.. putsa kninang the0 di k0 na tlga napigilan ang ant0k ko.. biruin m0, i slpet ar0und quarter to 4 den i w0ke up 5:30am, kamusta nman un dba?! s0 pagdating sa skul, namamaga na naman ang eyes k0 and bangenge pa.. ehehe.. s0 nung the0 n nga, panel discussi0n nila angel.. e tlgang inaant0k na k0 kaya di k0 na magawang makinig.. den i t0ld m0m sant0s "m0m, di k0 na tlga kaya.. inaant0k pa ak0.. sakit na s0bra ng head k0.. will u let me t0 sleep even f0r a while?" aba, ang mga bakla, nagtawanan kala nagbibir0 ako.. hmf.. per0 natulog pa din ako.. ehehe.. halata din nmn kc sakin na wla pa k0ng tulog eh. kaya naut0 ko din yung pr0f ko.. weee.. ^^

per0 nung s0ciety namin khit s0brang ant0k na k0, tlgang pinagpipilitan k0ng imulat ang mga mata k0.. naku n0h..patay pa k0 ke m0m cabanag.. per0 may g0od side din naman.. exempted ak0 sa finals ng s0ciety... wahahahahaha... halimaw! ehehe.. 5 of my subjects exempted ak0.. weeeeee....wla lang s0brang happy lang ak0.. ehehe.. o cge na bb muna si c0hr.. finals k0 2morow sa PE.. ehehe.. tska baka tumatawag na ang b0neng k0.. ciao.

the most awaited day...

2006-03-15T17:10:00.000+08:00

the m0st awaited day of me and my c0 members has c0me.. ehehe.. arte ba?! anyway, later this aftern0on, nakapag present na kme ng play nmin sa speech and oral.. katakot tak0t na akyat baba pa ang ginawa nmin bag0 yan matuloi.. pan0 ba naman, may pipol dun sa rum na pinagpleplayan nmin, tp0s ang astigin k0ng pr0f sumug0d dun.. na kesy0 na pa reserve na daw nia yun s0 baket cnasabi ng mga acc0untancy na cla ang nagpareserve nun.. s0 we went to CS bldg t0 inf0rm m0m nuval na we were n0t able t0 prepare our set dhil nga may pipol dun.. s0 that's where the c0mmotion starts.. ehehe.. per0 as expected panal0 pa din ang mga MASSCOMMIANS.. ehehe.. *bhelats* anyway, s0 yun na.. weve prepared our set na and infairness may sala set tlga kame.. say ni0?! den the play had started.. maay0s ung fl0w.. wlang nag buckle samin or gumawa ng di kanais nais na eksena.. kung mer0n man kame2 lang ang nakakaalam.. ahahaha.. s0 to sum it all up, it went very well.. ehehe.. 100 nga ang gr0up grade nmin but di nmin alam ung individual grade. s0 un na..

next.. defense naman.. same pr0f per0 english naman.. haaayy.. kakakaba tlga.. i was n0t even t0 change my sh0es.. kung an0 yung su0t k0 nung play yun na din nung defense.. anyway, pre defense pa lang naman un.. it als0 went g0od but n0 to0 g0od unlike sa speech and oral.. so tp0s na.. ehehe

last.. play naman sa panitikan.. weee.. et0 tlga.. ibang klase.. per0 pr0ducti0n staff lang me d2 eh. per0 kta m0 naman, yung sala set namin naging useful din s aplay nmin sa panitikan... it really went s0 much better that i xpected.. sabi nga ni sir jeremillos na "nage0n alam k0 na, na kahit haluan ng ibang c0urse ang massc0mm.. lalabas at lalabas pa din ang dug0ng massc0mm.." ehehe.. very flattered kami nun huh?! but aside fr0m that, very pr0ud din me sa anna baby nmin and syempre sa dearest friend k0ng engineering na si raym0nd.. ahaha.. at first, when pr0f gave him the r0le, ayaw nia.. per0 sabi k0 chance na nia yun na makabawi sa grades s0 go na din sia. basta, over all ganda tlga..

one last pr0blem is yung d0cu nmin sa phiLo.. an0ng petsa na di pa din kami acc0mplish d2... and later ak0 na ang magbabantay sa editing h0use.. per0 sana matap0s ngae0n kc t0morr0w na ang presentati0n nmin eh. per0 if ever na ndi matap0s ok lang.. why w0uld i w0rry? and why sh0uld i feel upset and angry e kung wla na tlgang magagawa para ma rush ung edting dba? per0 we have already infr0med sir jag na baka nga di kame makapag present t0morrow.. haaayy life..

basta matap0s lang ang thursday.. papain0m na k0.. ehehe... and next week, finals na.. waaa.. =( dat w0uld be the last week na makakasama k0 ang mga engineering friends k0.. h0w sad? =( s0 that w0uld be all f0r now.. hinihintay na kc ak0 nila anna baby eh.. ciao!

update..

2006-03-14T10:32:00.000+08:00

it has been a very, very busy weeks for me.. but im gald to say na s0me of my pr0jects has been c0mpleted already. Per0 yung mga pahirapan na pr0jects, naka pending pa din. Like nung d0cu namin sa phiLo.. we need t0 add s0me scenes para humaba, kc yung mga na sh0ot na namin, it onLy takes 10-15 minutes lang... duh?!asar tlga.. then later this aftern0on, nag taping ulet kame.. and natap0s din naman namin.. bef0re that.. daming gap ang nangyari between me, mayen and mercy.. nakakaasar lang tlga. kc editing part na kme. Ive set the schedules sa pag oovernight kela kua obet.. kc di naman yata fair kung pur0 nalang kaming 2 ni anna dhil kami nga ang maga taga manila. s0 yun na. t0day, it will be angel and anna's turn para mag overnyt.. den t0morrow, mayen and mercy then sa wednesday, me and abby.. s0 the gap starts der.. di agree cla mercy and mayen na cla sa tuesday.. kc the next day, may play cla sa speech. tp0s mayen asked aby kung wen sia naka sched den sabi ni aby na sa wednesday nga.. ang sag0t ni mayen "ang dugas m0 naman.. sakt0ng wednesday ka tlga n0h?!" den aby t0ld me wat mayen had said.. i was s0 furi0us na para ak0ng sasab0g sa galit. Den i appr0ached angel, sabi k0 "kausapin m0 yan. papatulan k0 na tlga yan.." den she asked wat happened s0 i t0ld her,wat kind of attitude mayen had. tp0s kinausap ni angel kc medy0 nabadtrip din si geL. den sabi k0 kay mayen "kung ayaw ni0ng magbantay, FYN! di k0 na pr0blema yun.. tska cn0 ba ang wlang ginagawa saten. May play din kame sa wednesday and take n0te 2 pa.. one sa speech and the other sa panitikan.. tp0s defense pa nmin sa english.. s0 sa tingin m0 cn0 mas bc sating dalawa huh?!" den she answered back "o cge na, magbabantay na kme.. s0rry na." but it d0esnt end there.. i was very offended nung cnabi nia kay aby yun kc nga i was the 0ne wh0 made the sched. Per0 wala nmn ak0ng ibang intenti0ns why i put them on tuesday and kme sa wednesday.. except gus2 ko kc m0nday, nandun cla anna and angel sa first day ng editing because first, cla ang mas nakakaalam sa sequence and sa mga dapat gawin sa d0cu na yun.. sec0nd, c anna kac main cast sa panitikan and sa speech nmin, s0 she really needs m0re tym that us para sa rehearsal.. tp0s defense din nila sa wednesday then may rep0rt pa sia sa bi0 the same day.. Next, kaya ak0 naman sa wednesday kc nga i want t0 be there during the finalizati0n of our d0cu.. e wala naman clang alam eh. pur0 lang cla reklam0 and suggesti0ns.. di naman big deal sana sakin na ak0 nlng ang mag overnyt in th0se 3 days kaya lang bc din ak0 eh.. s0 s0me sacrifices must be d0ne.. wala din naman kaming ch0ice kundi ilagay cla sa sched. But nung by the time na nagtataping na kame, medy0 ok na.

im s0 tired of everything.. minsan gus2 k0 ng sumuko.. kaya lang lagi nlng nming iniicp na this is just the beginning.. pinili nming mag massc0mm s0 we have t0 face the c0nsequences of being one.. pati tuloi c b0neng nadadamay sa init ng ulo k0.. sa stressed.. sa over fatigue and sa lack of sleep k0.. which is di k0 din naman ginust0.. per0 im glad kc nandian sia para makinig sa mga nagiging pr0blems k0 and pag masyad0 na k0ng ginagabi, he's there para sunduin and samahan ak0 kung san mang lupal0p ak0 nandun. but im really trying t0 c0ntrol my anger and stressed.. sabi nga sa b0ok na binabasa k0 "WHY WORRY?" haaayyy.. minsan di k0 nalang iniicp ang pag0d, basta what imp0rtant is ma acc0mplish nmin lahat yun.. But the g0od thing is 5 of my subjects dis c0ming finals is exempted ak0.. kamusta un dba?! 4 nalang ang pag aaralan k0.. ehehe.. sabi nga ni b0nn "pag may tinanim, may aanihin.." ehehe..

per0 baka naman icpin ni0 na pur0 hard times nlng.. sympre may gud times din.. like yesterday, nag practice kami kela maan ng play nmin sa speech.. ehehe.. tama daw bang malaglag si angel sa silya.. ahaha..tp0s naka ilang take kame dhil di ak0 makapag c0ncentrate.. epekt0 yata yun ng pansit and ng tah0ng.. ahahaha.. per0 successful naman yung naging practice nmin, sana umab0t hanggang wednesday yung success na yun.. ehehe.. and t0morrow, patayan na namn sa pag0d.. 12-3 practice ng speech den after nun practice nmn sa panitkan.. teynk gad sa pr0ducti0ns lang ak0.. ehehehe..

s0 till here nlang muna.. ay w8.. i w0uld like t0 take this opp0rtunity t0 say SORRY t0 luving b0neng.. pag pasensyahan m0 na k0 ha.. lam m0 naman na lukaret lang tlga ak0.. sabi m0 nga k0nting tiis nalng.. d0nt w0rry, magtitiis ak0 para se0 hanggat kaya k0.. i l0ve y0u s0 much b0neng k0!

updates...

2006-02-24T13:29:00.000+08:00

its been 3 c0nsecutive saturdays that ive been g0ing with b0nn and his friends.. ehehe.. parang adik nga lang eh.. and last week is 0ne of my busiest week ive ever had.. i d0nt even kn0w, kung pan0 ko ma aac0mplish lahat ng pr0jects k0 in their respective deadlines... shit! if 0nly i can but s0me TIME para lang di ak0 magipit n0h?!

aside fr0m being busy, busy din ang savings acc0unt k0.. haaayyy.. gast0s dito, gast0s d0n.. asar tlga! im trying t0 spend my m0ney wisely, per0 ayaw tlga eh.. ehehe.. ah o0 nga pala, last wednesday, we went t0 mayen's crib f0r our taping para sa d0cu namin sa phiLo.. nd sinamahan ak0 ni b0nn tska ni mark.. ehehe..

- PROJECTS NEEDED TO BE ACCOMPLISHED ON OR BEFORE MARCH 2 -

1. PHILO... weee.. patap0s na kme dito. per0 c0ntinuous pa din ang fl0w ng gastos..
2. THEO... namputsa! it0 tlga kabadtrip! nakikisabay sa mga maj0r ko. 3 units lang to per0 ang hirap ng pinagagawa nia samin.. may defense na, may panel pa tp0s may d0cumentation pa?! the0 lang yan huh?! asar tlga.. hmmffff...
3. SPEECH ND ORAL.. isa pa t0! required kame na mag play.. nd dapat winning piece sa Palanca awards.. waaa.. napunta samin "the c0rruptibles".. namp0ta! ang hahaba ng lines.. as in! asar tlga. basta i jas cant expalin it per0 naaasar na tlga ak0.. and ang maganda dito, until n0w di pa nmin na papaxer0x ung script nmin.. t0 the point na sa mar.2 na ang start..
4. ENGLISH... term paper naman t0h.. medy0 madali per0 s0brang arte ng matandang toh.. sya din pr0f ko sa speech and oral..
5. PANITIKAN... play din ang drama net0ng subject na t0h?! ang masaya pa dun, tagalog.. ahahaha.. tagal0g na, n0bela pa. buti nlng medy0 maikli lang yung amin.
6. PHILO [agen]... march 5 pa toh.. n0od ng d0cu sa ADU theatre.. and syempre may ticket [pde bang wla?!] 75 pes0s daw.. and with matching REACTION PAPER pa t0h!
7. PHILO [agen nd agen]... M0VIE REVIEW naman.. lahat na yata ng review nagawa k0 na dito.. isang FOREIGN nd isang LOCAL m0vie..
8. ENZO... march 5 din toh.. per0 nakabili na kmi ng ticket.. play din yan.. kaya lang sa theater naman t0 ng st.sch0.. and syempre as always, may "PAGSUSURI" daw after man0od.. nd un daw ang pr0ject nia. PANOT!
9. PLAY ULIT... i f0rgot the title, sa speech nd oral din to.. per0 sa sunday na t0h.. and guess what san naman t0h?!... sa GREENBELT.. kmusta naman yun dba?! tp0s syempre like nung iba, may play review din sia..

o dba?! ang saya ng buhay k0 noh?! wlang kapag0d pag0d.. amf.
so, that's it f0r now.. keep safe people.. ^^

eve of valentines day..

2006-02-14T13:04:00.000+08:00

around 8 in the evening of february 13, 2006 a girl named "c0hr' was already sleeping.. ehehehe.. yup! y0u heard it right.. aga k0 matulog n0h?! its bc0z puyat nga ak0 dba?! ehehe.. s0 back t0 the t0pic.. i was awakened by the n0ise of my br0.. mga 10:30 na yata yun.. and i immediately checked my f0n.. then i saw "1 missed call" wat da fuck.. cn0 kaya toh.. yun pala, asawa k0 pala yun.. ehehe.. and he's using he's own number.. gad! ehehe.. after nun, i decided t0 go back t0 sleep.. s0 di k0 na chineck yung time of call nia.. after a minute or so, my f0n is ringing.. then yun nga.. asawa k0 pala ulit un.. then i answered it.. then i heard mark saying "ayaw namang sagutin eh.." then i said "hello.." tp0s nakausap k0 na yung asawa k0.. then i asked him, y sia tumawag.. wala lang daw.. ehehe.. kamusta naman yun?! then he asked me if i was able t0 talked t0 "J" then sabi k0 "OPO".. tp0s yun na, questi0ns started to irritate me.. ehehe.. di pa kc in order ang th0ughts k0 kc ant0k na ant0k pa tlga ak0 nung time na yun.. i cant even understand very well yung mga sinasabi nia sakin except f0r one thing.. nung sabi nia na "ney,tawagan kita sa landline nio ha.. tp0s na ba mag net?! wag ka muna matulog huh?! lig0 lang me.." then yun na.. sabi ng mga cells k0 na "haaayyy.. sus.. y0u have n0 ch0ice but t0 wake and wait f0r his call.. kundi naku! lag0t!.." ehehe.. s0 i st0od up and b0rrowed my br0's mp3 [para di ak0 mainip sa paghihintay..] after 10 minutes or so.. yun na, tumawag na ang l0ko.. then k0nting intr0 sa t0pic namin na si "J" tp0s sabi nia "ney,lig0 lang me..wait m0 ko.. sandali lang t0.." tp0s yun na.. we keep on talking about the situati0n happened earlier.. then im als0 glad that i was able t0 explain s0me facts... ang pinaka climax dun is, when he asked me 'cn0 ba mas mahal m0.. me or him?" awts.. ang haba ng hair k0.. then i changed the t0pic.. nung napansin nia na binabag0 k0 ung t0pic, sabi k0 nalang "later k0 nalang sagutin.. pag iisipan k0 pa.." ehehe.. basta, we ended up in senti m0de.. ^^

alam m0.. ang sayasaya k0 tlga kaninang 12am.. we even greeted each other ng happy valentines and happy m0nthsary at the same time.. kaya lang, mas nauna sia kc advance ung cl0ck nila.. valentines na sa knila samin 10 minutes pa... ahahahaha.. what's g0od about that is when we're g0ing t0 hung up na.. he said i love y0u then i answered back INSTANTLY.. see?! parang bag0 yun huh?! even b0nn was sh0cked when i answered back.. but it really feels g0od in my part when y0u we're able t0 express what y0u really feel..

then after we hung up.. we keep on texting... haaaayyy.. ehehe.. et0 lang masasabi k0.. "mas c0rny, mas sweet!".. ahaha..

--- HAPPY HEARTS DAY TO ALL.. MAY L0VE C0NQUER OUR HEARTS F0REVER. ---

saturday night..

2006-02-13T13:50:00.000+08:00

10 in the evening, 3 human beings was on their way to malate... ahaha.. and kame yun..hihi.. me, my ney b0nn and mark.. supp0sedly kasama si mhean [cuz ni b0nn na gf ngae0n ni mark..haaayyy] kaya lang di yata pinayagan ni tita bitel.. weee.. mga 10pm nasa malate na kame.. and nagtaka ak0 na y naman SOBRANG dami ng pipol, tap0s sabi ni b0nn "ney,l0va pal0oza p0 ngae0n." naknang! di k0 alam yun ah.. abn0rmal nga naman oh?! s0 yun na.. and finally nakanap na kmi ng table.. infairness ganda ng pwest0 namin.. ehehe.. kc ng 12 midnight na, the midnight kiss started with matching firewroks pa.. and kitang kita namin sa place namin.. ehehe.. pinagkikiss pa nga kme ni markng b0neng k0 eh.. ahaha.. parang ungas. tp0s we started drinking.. talked things out between mark and mhean.. im n0t against f0r the them even b0nn kaya lang, ke0 kaya papiliin k0 between a 4 days relati0nship to 5 years? huh?! lets face the fact na may naging pr0blem sila ng ex nia kaya lang diba dapat in making decisi0ns dapat pinag iisipan nga mabuti especially when it c0mes with this one. haaayyy.. life nga naman... an0ther things is 16 lang si mhean and 21 si mark.. i kn0w that age d0esnt matter kaya lang when it c0mes with their perspectives and percepti0ns, opp0site na opp0site sila as in.. like nalang ng pag gimik nmin nung saturday.. di alam ni mhean yun huh?! ang daming bawal.. hay sus.. sabi nga ni b0nn "sa umpisa lang yan.." sabagay.. but me and b0nn wish him gudlak.. =)

maybe after an hour, kenneth arrived t0gether with his gf.. [friend yun nila b0nn].. then followed by imtr0ducti0ns between me, kenneth and his gurl then between his gurl t0 mark and b0nn.. ehehe.. [an0 kaya yun?!] tp0s an0ther set of drinks ulit.. ehehe... then i remember na sabi k0 nga pala kela r0selyn na magkita kami sa malate kc pumunta sila sa l0va pal0oza eh.. s0 i texted her asking where are they.. tp0s she replied sa 7'11 daw cla and they're g0ing t0 wait f0r me.. sakt0 medy0 malapit lang kmi dun.. cnamahan ak0 ni b0nn.. tp0s yun nga, ang mga baklaers nandun.. si r0selyn.. si jh0y.. ate aiz.. mariz.. richelle.. 0mar.. nd debs.. ehehe.. tp0s alis na din ak0 agad.. ehehe.. tp0s yun na.. kwentuhan.. reminiscing.. ehehe.. the 4 of us.. me, b0nn, mark and kenneth.. lahat kmi espians.. ehehe.. ahead lang ng 1 year samin si mark and kenneth.. ehehe..

around 4 in the m0rning, we decided t0 go h0me na.. medy0 l0nely na kc si mark eh.. ehehe..per0 infairness ha.. di k0 sia pinabayaan.. ehehe.. i kept him c0mpany.. hihi.. on our way h0me.. sinabay na kame ni kenneth sa wheels nia.. i saw mar0se.. hala ka?! lakwatsera! ahaha... wala lang.. tawa lang kme ng tawa nung nagkita kme... ahahaha.. then yun na, nagpababa kme sa chades.. t0mguts na yung 2 k0ng partner.. tp0s hinatid na nila ak0 sa bahay..

when i g0t h0me.. di ak0 makatulog.. as in bu0ng araw ak0ng gising except 8 in the evening [SUNDAY].. sabi nga ni ate chelo "oy, try m0 lang matulog.. libre lang un." namfutsa.. gus2ng gus2 k0 ng matulog tlga.. kaya lang ayaw lang tlga.. pan0 ba naman, naka 2 cans ak0 ng nescafe m0cha blend ba yun.. then i drank an0the c0ffee.. medy0 may lasing na kc ak0 eh s0 nagkape ak0.. naku tlga! parang may drugs yata yung kape na yun..

ELECTION DAY..

2006-02-06T13:02:00.000+08:00

last Saturday, February 4,2006, the election for the new set of officers in my AUFAP org was held. Eduard "friend" Jubilag has won as the new reign PRESIDENT of our luving org.. ehehe.. astig n0h?! even the week bef0re the election matun0g na ang name ni friend.. then there was a time that he confided in me na medy0 kinakabahan sia kc nga naman wla pa siang experince mna mag hawak ng isang org and baguhan palang sia.. tp0s sabi k0 if ayaw nia pa muna, just let me kn0w and ill talk to my other org mates.. then he said, "basta friend huh.. tulungan tayo.." how sweet n0h?! ehehehe.. tp0s when he w0n na nga, super serious ang face ni friend.. natatakot nga yung mga ka org namin sa kanya then inexplained ko na kabado lang yang loko na yan.. ehehe.. then i w0n as the new P.R.O. of our org and aut0matic ak0 na din ang bag0ng editor-in-chief... waaaaa... asar tlga! so yun lang muna..

this was taken sa sh0p namin, the same day when my friend eduard won as the president.. sia yung guy sa pic.. ok ba?! ehehe.. ay o0 nga pla, taken by PJ daw pla t0h..

and obviously, ak0 ito.. ehehehe.. ok ba?! parang celebrity.. [sana lang di makapal ang mukha k0 n0h?!] ehehe..

stay the same...

2006-01-31T13:57:00.000+08:00

"STAY THE SAME"
Don't you ever wish you were someone else, You were meant to be the way you are exactly. Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are. When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far. And I hope you always stay the same, cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside. Don't be afraid if you've got something to say, Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.
Believe in yourself. Reach down inside. The love you find will set you free. Believe in yourself, you will come alive. Have faith in what you do. You'll make it through.

this s0ng g0t me really inspired... this s0ng was released f0r about 2-3 years ag0 na din or m0re pa. I really cant recall when was the exact year this s0ng was released per0 one thing i can remember is wla pang asawa si ate kaye nun.. ahaha.. kc pareh0 kmi na fave nmin yang s0ng a yan. Actually, when im hearing this s0ng, i usually remeber her..eehehehe.. peace awt ate?!

back t0 the t0pic... i sung this s0ng esp f0r my h0ney.. its alm0st been a week the last time i saw very sad and pr0blematic. Syempre, what d0 you expect t0 a pers0n na may pr0blem.. tska kesa naman mahawa pa k0 sa stressed and depressi0n nia n0, kinatahan k0 nalang sia.. at first, di tlga ak0 serious when i sung, kaya lang naisip k0 na its been a c0incidence na alm0st of the milli0ns s0ngs bat yung kanta na yun pa.. i mean, its really meant t0 be... ehehehe... haaayyy life...

anyway, yesterday.. nagperf0rm na kme ni mercy pra dun sa speech nmin, and i can say that it went very well.. infairness, wla tlgang mali.. hihihihihi... next, in our s0ciety class.. nagrep0rt na din kmi [as usual with mercy again!] and it als0 went very well.. ehehehehe... actually, napansin nmin ni mercy na yung tag team nmin parang swerte yata ngae0ng sem.. ehehe.. [fingers cr0ss] sana nga?!

obviously i have my new lay out.. astig n0h?! ehehehe

yesterday..

2006-01-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

bef0re our english class starts.... me and angel went up first sa r0om tp0s may nagkaklase pa s0 we waited outside.. e ung fl0or nung bldg na un is w0od.. s0 ibig sabihin very n0isy tlaga wen pipol our walking outside th0ugh airc0nditi0ned yung r0om, rinig parin ung ingay sa labas.. s0 yun na.. nagkukwentuhan kame ni angel, sabi kc samin na cut daw ang classes.. s0 parang na excite na naman ak0.. ehehe.. th0ugh medy0 sad kc i bring my PE unif0rm khit ang dami k0 ng dala dba?! pan0 naman ung eff0rt nmin?! ehehe.. anyway, back t0 the t0pic, s0 yun na.. sa s0brang excite k0, i keep 0n tapping my f0ot.. and nawala sa isip k0 na may pr0f pa pla sa l0ob.. ehehe.. tp0s naka stilleto pa ak0.. s0 it only means na may n0ise tlgang napr0pr0duce ung stillet0 ko.. ahaha.. tp0s bigla lumabas ung baklang pr0f sabi ba naman "will y0u st0p that.. [sabay dem0..]" and what's w0rst with that is kala nung pr0f si angel yun.. salbaheng bakla un.. ahaha.. tp0s pumas0k na ung bakla... after a minute, lumabas ulit den he said "pede ba dun muna ke0 [in the 0ther r0om].. di k0 naman dadalhin un r0om pag alis k0 eh, iiwanan k0 din t0h"... amf naman un?! bakla ka! ahahaha.. per0 after that incident back t0 n0rmal na agad.. ehehe... mike's age s0 un na nga.. nasa l0b na kmi ng nagyeyel0ng r0om.. ahaha.. sa s0brang lamig, nabaliw na naman ak0.. ahaha.. ung libre na tabl0id ni abby, pinag agawan namin dhil dun sa mga predicti0ns about dun sa kung an0ng year ka.. nyay! tama ba?! basta ung year of the tiger..rabbit.. ung mga un.. ehehe.. e sabi ni mike "kaw c0hr, year of the an0 ka?!" then i said "tiger" tp0s cnabi nga nia what was written der about year of the tiger.. den sabi k0 "kaw mike? year of the an0 ka ba?!" ahahahaha.. et0 na t0h.. tp0s sabi k0 bigla "h0y mike, wag kang mag deny.. dhil si byte 1 year tanda sakin tp0s 2 years tanda m0 sakin.." ahahaha.. tp0s sabi nia "1985 nga ak0" awts na lalake na yun! sabi k0 "an0ng 1985.. 1983 ka dba?!" ahahaha.. den nagtal0 kami.. s0 kmusta naman yun.. mas marun0ng pa k0 sa may sariling edad?! PAKELAMERA in sh0rt.. ahahahaha.. tp0s after a minute.. yun na..everything was settled.. turning 21 palang si mike sa may.. ehehehehe... den later this m0rning.. in our saturday class.. when i arrived sa r0om nmin, nndun na si angel.. kc sabi k0 dalhan nia k0 ng fudams.. di pa kc me nag aalmusal eh.. kninang 9am pa k0 sa sch0ol dahil sa aufap meeting.. den un na. She texted me na nasa sch0ol na nga sia.. tp0s i saw her sitting sa c0rner side.. kala k0 naman s0brang seri0us sa pag aaral kc nga may test kme.. yun pla, umiiyak na! as in nagulat tlga ak0.. its my first time t0 see her sad and CRYING.. i asked her what's wr0ng, wla naman daw.. helloww.. umiiyak ka na, n0thing is wr0ng pa ba yun?! ayaw tlgang tumigil sa pag iyak si angel.. di k0 tlga alam ang gagawin k0 as in.. kc pag ak0 naman, wen s0meone said na "cge ok lang yan.. tama na" medy0 titigil na k0.. ehehe.. per0 sya, naku! nakailang tma na ak0 wa epek pa din.. then mayen came.. bumisita sa r0om nmin.. kala k0 naman na mimiss na kme yun pala nagbebenta ng mga candy.. ahahahaha... pinagbebenta dw cla nung pr0f nila.. di na rin nia naasikas0 si angel kc nga in a rush daw clang lahat sa pagbenta nun.. amf! ahahaha.. den its me all al0ne again with angel.. after ilang minutes, si abby naman... classmate din kc nmin sia eh.. s0 alam k0 permanent na t0h..den she asked angel whats wr0ng, ayaw naman sumag0t ng bakla.. tp0s hinayaan na nmin.. nakipag kwentuhan nlng kme ke angelo.. den un na nagulat nlng kme nagsalita na si angel and she said "c0hr, pengeng paper.." ehehehe.. ok na t0h, bura0t na kc ulit eh... ahahaha.. den un na.. yesterday i was with my b0nn.. sa haus lang kme till 9 in the evening.. ehehe.. adik ba?! oks lang samin un, as l0ng na were t0gether.. yiiiheeee.. ahaha..

american idoL..

2006-01-26T13:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday around 6 in the evening, while scanning the different channels on our TV, the audition for the amercan id0l seas0n 5 g0t my attention.. ehehe.. they are sh0wing it live.. para siang reality sh0w.. ahaha.. different reacti0ns, different em0tions fr0m different people.. and what's m0re exciting with that is they didn't kn0w what t0 expect.. out 0f thousands wh0 applied, wla pa yta sa hundred and natanggap.. anyway, i was really impressed t0 th0se wh0 can REALLY, REALLY sing.. imagine one of the applicant is 17 years old but she sings very well.. pagkakamalan m0ng pr0fessional na sia as in.. wla lang, i was just amazed with their talents.. ehehe..

later this m0rning, as usual maaga na naman ak0ng nakapas0k.. ehehe.. early bird.. ahaha.. tp0s wen i arrived in our r0om, aba wla ang mga bakla.. per0 ang mga bag nndun na..s0 i wait f0r them nlng.. tp0s when they return may dalang d0nut.. yummee.. ahaha.. tamang tama.. wasted ak0 sa s0brang lakas ng rain.. tp0s yun na kwentuhan while making lam0n the d0nut... tp0s ang pagka weird k0 umatake na naman.. i t0ld them na "dba teacher's day ngae0n, e bat ak0 nand2?" ahahaha.. baliw tlga.. mixed emoti0ns sakin si angel.. d daw nia ma explain kung magagalit sia or what.. e she have n0 right t0 be mad at me, e wla naman ak0ng ginagawa.. ahaha.. arte tlga.. tp0s sabi ni angel "e bat ka nga ba nnd2?" [amfufu..naging baliw na din yata t0h..] tp0s sabi k0 nlng "kc rep0rting ngae0n sa s0ciety bka masermunan pa k0 ni m0m cabanag.." ahahahaha... ay naku, i d0nt have the slightest idea kung bat k0 ba natan0ng un.. narealize k0 nlng after a minute.. ahaha.. basta sabi nlng ni angel "pagpasensyahan ni0 na yang babae na yan.. matalin0 sana, lukaret lang.. dala lang cgur0 ng maagang pagpas0k at s0brang lakas ng ulan sa labas kya dum0ble ang kabaliwan nia.." what da?! amf tlga si angel.. but maybe she's g0t a p0int there.. hihihihi...

SOCIETY CLASS - dendendenden.. ahaha.. et0 na! wla ng atrasan t0h.. quitters never win.. its n0t my first time t0 conduct rep0rting in fr0nt of the class, kaya lang by this time t0do sa kaba tlga ak0.. e pan0 ba naman pati si anna [w/c is my seatmate] kinakabahan din.. th0ugh sabi k0 sa knya "wag kang kabahan, pati ak0 nadadamay sa kaba m0 eh.." wla pa ding epek.. s0 hinayaan k0 nalang.. then bigla sinabi ni m0m cabanag na "draw l0ts system tau huh?! did y0u get me? [ehehehe...]" kc daw pag chr0nological order ang rep0rting nmin kakabahan daw lal0 ung mga susun0d dhil aware ka na ikaw na ang susun0d.. haller?! e parang mas mahirap pa yta pag draw l0ts.. haaayy.. anyway, by partners kc ang rep0rting, 0ne is f0r the explanati0n/definiti0n then the other is f0r the situati0nal example.. and as always, si mercy ang partner k0.. ehehe.. and sia sa examples and me naman sa explanati0n, o dba?! ahaha.. then bigla siningit ni m0m na "ay o0 nga pala,cut ang classes fr0m 10-12" awts.. bells are starting t0 ring in my ears..ahahaha.. sabi na eh.. galing k0 tlga.. s0 na cut na yung rep0rting naman na dpat till 10:30 pa.. amf naman.. and sa kasamaang palad di pa kmi natawag ni mercy.. haaaayyy..

THEO CLASS - hay nku l0rd! s0 supp0sed t0 be cut nga ang classes.. s0 dinismissed na kme ni m0m cabanag.. per0 yun pala sa bu0ng ADAMSON ng 10:00-12:00, kami lang ang buk0d tangi na nagkaklase.. sus! per0 buti pala tumambay muna kmi sandali kundi deds kami.. ehehe.. as in k0nti lang tlga ang napas0k.. kawawang pr0f.. wla na ngang b0ses.. wala pang pumas0k sa knya, iilan lang.. ehehe.. mga magaganda lang ang pumas0k.. nyay! per0 ok naman kanina.. di sia b0ring infairness.. take n0te, ngae0n lang sia di naging b0ring..[y kaya?!] per0 its really a g0od thing na di kmi nagmadali na umuwi.. haaayyy...

napapadami na yta ang kwent0 ko.. ay o0 nga pala.. ang BONENG ko, ginawan na naman ak0 ng testi.. ok na sana eh.. kaya lang sabi ba naman.. "k0nya daw ak0.. and fave h0bby k0 daw is mag kape sa starbucks" kamusta naman yun?! helloowww... kung k0nya ak0, di me sa adams0n nag enr0ll n0h, sana nasa mirriam or sa assumpti0n ak0 ngaeon.. ahaha.. and wen it c0mes dun sa starbucks, inaaya lang nmn kc ak0 per0 i really find its place very relaxing and very c0njucive f0r talking things out.. dba hazel?! ahaha.. tp0s may PM pa sakina ang b0neng.. kamusta naman un? may testi na, may PM pa.. ahaha.. it g0es like this "ney,j0ke lang un huh? [per0 dba sbai m0 j0kes are half meant]..ahaha.. per0 sana bawasbawasan m0 ang kakagimik m0?parang napapadalas na naman yata eh. tska masama sa health ang s0brang pagkakape khit frapuccin0 pa un,kape pa din un na ginawang shake.. dumadalas na naman ang pag gimik m0 ha?! bawasan m0 oki? or kung pede tigilan m0 na oki? ... il0veyou.." sabay banat ng il0veyou n0h?! per0 ung message nia pur0 serm0n... haaaayyy.. e sia nga gumigimik na din eh. ay o0 nga pla di daw gimik un..nag iinuman lang daw cla.. c0mpare nung amin, na kelangan pa daw k0ng sunduin dhil di na daw makauwi ng mag isa sa s0brang bangenge.. ahahaha.. salbahe tlga un.. ay nku tigilan na nga t0h.. napapag0d ang mga daliri k0 kakatype.. ehehe..
siao-siao

ahahaha...

2006-01-24T13:59:00.000+08:00

thursday.. sched k0 is 7:30am to 12 n0on.. ehehe.. wla lang.. wla kc me masabi eh.. ehehe.. seriously, uhmm.. i arrived in school around 7am.. i d0nt what's g0t into me bket s0brang aga k0 yata.. tp0s yun na nga.. the m0ment i arrived in our r0om nandun na cla angel and mayen.. tp0s sabi k0 agad, "gel, nabibingi na yata ak0." ahaha.. she answered back "e gaga ka ba! pan0ng di ka mabibingi eh parang di m0 na tinatanggal yang headset m0 sa tenga m0 kakapakinig ng radi0.." ahaha... all i was able t0 say is "oo nga n0h.." tp0s sabi ba naman, "baka adik ka na?!" haller.. gel.. an0 naman ang kinalaman ng pagiging adik sa pagiging deaf?! ahaha... kc daw kung an02 daw ang nararamdaman k0 evrytime na maaga ak0 pumapas0k.. epekt0 nga lang cgur0 un ng maagang pag gising... per0 an0ther explanati0ns she said was "s0brang caffeine yan bakla!.." ok fine! gets k0 na.. ehehe.. e pan0 ba naman.. pag nagcucuting yung iba dian..starbucks agad ang bagsak nmin.. amf! ehehe.. tp0s back t0 the real w0rld na k0 when i asked them "when tau mag iinterview ulet?" nice.. signs na daw un na ok na k0.. ehehe.. tp0s i told them na din na it will c0st a th0usand 0f pes0s para sa vide0 editing.. amfufu! 100+ palang ang ip0n namin.. ahahaha.. napambili na kc namin ng mga vide0tapes.. waaaaa.. tp0s nag suggest ak0 ng new type of scene on how are we g0ing t0 start and t0 end our interview.. agree naman ang mga bakla, kaya g0 na!

last Saturday.. six of us went to baywalk para masimulan na ung interview.. mga 5pm nandun na kme.. ahaha.. para kming mga engs as in per0 may challenge khit pinatitinginan na kme ng mga pipol dun per0 sabi nga ni mayen yun daw ang pinaka pr0of na massc0mm students kame.. ahaha.. asteeg.. around 6-7, we distribute all of the surveys we have.. naku tlga.. ung iba ang aarte and ung iba naman plastik sa pag sag0t.. per0 pinaka enj0 dun is nung binigyan nmin ng survey f0rm ung p0ging f0reigner.. ahaaha.. l0ok alike sia ni nick carter as in.. tp0s et0 pa ang malupet dian, nagpapicture pa kme.. ahahaha..

knina medy0 happy ak0 kc wla kaming pr0f sa theo.. weee.. and t0 the fact na ndi ak0 inaant0k sa philo.. kitams may changes.. ahaha..

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2006-01-23T14:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday while i was fixing my b0ok shelf.. there's this certain "n0teb0ok" that caughts my attention though im fixing my shelf im still busy watching TV.. ehehe.. it really caughts my attention..why? bc0z its kinda old and dirty.. when i started reading its entries, parang i felt s0 inlove that very m0ment.. c0rny it may s0und but its really true. It contains all of her feelings towards her partner.. h0w inc0mplete she is with her l0ver.. h0w her l0ve f0r him transf0rmed her.. things like that. You kn0w, while reading that particular n0teb0ok, i was able t0 realize na it really feels g0od that there's s0mebody out there [aside fr0m GOD] wh0 really l0ves and cares f0r us s0 much.. yung in times y0u need s0meb0dy t0 reach y0u, he's there. Being inlove is n0t s0 easy n0r difficult. Its very c0mplicated.. sabi nga ng friendster "ITS COMPLICATED".. I kn0w its bad but im s0 envy with the her l0ver t0 wh0m she offered her life and her l0ve.. ive been awakened t0 the fact that evry relati0nship is DIFFERENT but maybe ours is the m0st different in all of the relati0nships in this w0rLd. Well im still n0t sure, maybe im just feeling s0 bad right n0w. It is really a nice feeling that [in my part] that y0u can tell him h0w much y0u miss and h0w much y0u l0ve him. sigur0 its als0 my fault.. im really n0t s0 c0mfortable in exchanging endearing w0rds except in text or in emails.. per0 in pers0nal or in ph0ne.. duh?! a hell of g0osebumps is present in my wh0le senses.. All i want is t0 bec0me vocal.. with regards with what i really felt.. haaayyy.. and h0nestly, i miss him badly.. Its been a week the last time we went out t0gether.. we we're b0th busy esp me..

Another thing i envy m0st is HAVING QUALITY TIME FOR YOUR PARNER... We really cant avoid t0 be busy in s0metime but still the quality time of being t0gether is still there.. I d0nt kn0w if its right t0 make demands or t0 insist of s0methin which y0u kn0w he's n0t capable of d0ing. I want t0 make demands, but h0w?! When he's always saying t0 "please try t0 understand.." waaaa.. s0 where did my demands w0uld g0 n0w? in n0where as usual..

Its really hard keeping what y0u really felt.. i mean it is much better 0n bec0ming v0cal in w0rds and in acti0ns.. wla namang mawawala dba?!

MANNY "PACMAN" PACQUIAO won VS. eric m0rales.. ahehehe.. im s0 happy kc da at least sikat na naman ang philippines.. ehehe..
CHRIS of search f0r star in a milli0n w0n on the same day.. asar! i like him much i much prefer JIMMY.. kc he's v0ice is very flexible.. kahit an0ng ipakanta m0 sa kanya kaya nia.. unlike CHRIS he's m0re on in R&B type of music th0ugh i like R&B als0 kaya lang parang wala na siang ibang kayang kantahin except R&B.. he lacks s0 much of being unique.. haaayy.. s0metimes c0mpetition is t0o unfair..
anyway, till here nalang.. siao-siao..

haaayyy...

2006-01-14T15:05:00.000+08:00

i have s0 many things t0 do ahead of me.. nd i really d0nt kn0w h0w am i g0ing t0 budget my time t0 acc0mplish all th0se things on or bef0re the deadline.. first, we're w0rking on a d0cumentary [AGAIN!].. in our philo subject.. and my pr0f assigned us "premarital sex" as our t0pic.. haaayy sus.. sana f0rtune telling nlang khit pan0 madali pa yun.. next is im busy w0rking with my term paper in english2.. per0 with this term paper madali lang ung t0pic k0, da vinci c0de lang.. i mean dami sia reliable s0urces..ehehe.. and last is "the pillars" [official newspaper of AUFAP] and im the managing editor.. imagine that?! and the wh0le editorial staff will spend our night in kevin's crib.. see what i mean?! im m0re busier c0mpare last sem.. cgur0 part na tlga t0 ng massc0mm.. s0me sacrifices has t0 be d0ne.. and n0w,im in starbucks.. having c0ffee with sissy hazel [as usual].. breaktym nya kc fr0m 1-5pm, s0 wla na namang magawa ang lukaret kya inaya na nmn ak0 mag c0ffee.. per0 having c0ffee ryt n0w is very helpful para hindi daw ak0 antukin ng t0do-t0do later.. eheehehe.. antukin pa nmn ak0 as in! anyway, im really really h0ping na sana im g0ing t0 c0mply all these pr0jects ahead of the require date of the submissi0n..

mem0irs..

2006-01-10T15:53:00.000+08:00

this are the pictures taken last saturday, january 7,2006 at eLyn's crib..sayang iya and ruchel was n0t able t0 j0in the pict0rial..ahaha..lets just say nalate sila ng dating..ehehehe..

it seems like yesterday....

2006-01-08T15:18:00.000+08:00

JUNE 6, 2006

hazel texted me around 10 in the m0rning, she asked me where was i? and i told her i was at h0me c0z i did n0t attend my class that day bc0z im n0t feeling s0 well.. anyway back t0 the t0pic... s0 un na.. then she asked me if we can see each other bc0z she didnt attend her class als0.. at first im hesitating t0 say yes kc nga im n0t feeling well, then she said na my pr0blem daw sia.. and take n0te its a matter of life and death pa daw.. haaayyy gad! ang babaeng un tlga.. s0 i said yes na din.. kc its been alm0st a year the last time we went out.. and gad! im missing that gurL s0 much.. then yun na.. nagkita kme sa 7'11 in tayuman... medy0 nash0ck pa nga k0 when i saw her kc that's the first i saw her wearing all white.. [its her unif0rm in FEU every friday..hehe] s0 we went in SM SL.. s0 yun, we str0ll around.. hal0s paik0t ik0t na nga kme tlga.. then sabi k0 lets have s0me c0ffee.. f0r a change.. s0 yun na.. we spent much of our time in starbucks.. ehehe.. drinking m0chafrap, eating pies and sharing and reminiscing our pasts.. around 3 in the aftern0on, we went in my crib.. s0 yun na.. tuloi ang chismax.. and she t0ld me "ate, y0u really need t0 listen with this 0ne.." s0 i held her f0n, listening t0 what she asked me t0 listen.. its a rec0rding.. her classmate singing an avril lavigne s0ng.. i th0ught she just wabt me t0 determine if her classmate's v0ice is g0od or n0t.. then in an instant, i heard a girl [i think] saying "help..tulong.." gad! u really had a hell of g0osebumps that very m0ment.. then i asked her "where were y0u when u rec0rded this 0ne?" and she said they were in a h0spital having 0bservati0ns with the medical apparatus.. and what's m0re creepy with that is they were in the fl0or where there is n0 r0om.. i mean there's n0 patients there.. haaayyy.. she really gave me a creeps.. after a minute or s0.. we decided t0 ask the girLs out.. [buking girLs] then yun na.. ar0und 5 in the aftern0on she went h0me na.. then 9 in the evening..planning f0r t0morrow..

JUNE 7, 2006

s0 yun na.. hazel called up syenn that night [june 6].. she knew na there is really a scheduled gimik f0r t0morrow.. kc june 5 is elyn's bday s0 ginawang saturday yung celebrati0n.. kaya lang di nia kami mac0ntact s0 she's s0 thankful na tinawagn sia ni hazel.. s0 the rest is hist0ry.. that very day.. nakipagmeet si hazel sa katext nia.. infairness kabad0 sia.. and what w0rst with that di nia sinip0t yung katext nia.. ahahaha.. salbaheng bata! when we're about t0 g0 d0wn.. kc nasa 2nd fl0or ang Starbucks eh.. sabi nia hazel "sis, j0mack is here..." shit! di k0 alam kung magfreafreak out ak0 or what.. tap0s he appr0ached us.. he's with his c0usin.. pa2pictire daw sia.. ehehe.. s0 yun na.. he intr0duced me t0 his cuz sabi nia.. "cuz,she's my f0rmer gf way back in HS.." awts! our relati0nship that time was n0t t0o serious.. i mean, i never th0ught na basta.. ewan k0! adik tlga n0h?! anyway, s0 yun na.. t0do blush daw tlga ak0.. ehehe.. then super kilig ak0 f0r the reas0n that i d0nt kn0w.. then afterwards, i realized that i miss him.. i miss every piece of him.. that guy is very different... he's very sweet.. its really my fault why we br0ke up.. actually wala kaming f0rmal break up.. we just didnt c0mmunicate f0r a time being until sa nagtuloy tuloy na.. di k0 alam why.. basta all i can remember is that i asked f0r that kind of set up.. then 3rd year HS.. he just heard na kami na ni b0nn.. then the rest is hist0ry.. 4th year HS.. naging sila na nung kabarkada k0.. si enchay.. per0 ench has n0 idea na naging kame.. bc0z when me and j0mack are still on, i tend t0 keep it secret.. friends lang nmin ang nakakaalam.. including b0nn bc0z b0nn is our c0mmon friend.. s0 yun na.. then we talked things out.. which we must have d0ne it 4 years ag0.. then un na.. we became friends na.. per0 bat ganun.. when i saw him parang i sill have this feeling of admiring and missing him... ahaaaayyyy.. en0ugh of this..

ELYN's CRIB around 3:30 punta na kme ni hazel kela elyn th0ugh 6 pa tlga ang usapan.. ck hazel needs t0 be h0me by 8 in the evening kc nga di lang nmn sia pumas0k kaya sia nakasama.. tp0s we called up Leah.. sabi nmin punta na sia.. s0 yun na ar0und 5 nandun na si Leah.. and while waiting f0r the others, as usual.. picture picture na naman.. ehehe... then trisha arrived arounf 7pm.. tap0s hazel went h0me na around 8pm.. then afterwards, Iya arrived.. then yun na.. super kwentuhan muna kame.. kc wla pa si ruchel.. may pr0duction kc sia kaya tlgang na late sia.. we talked about the past.. scary things.. sexually t0pics.. basta... then arounf 11pm, at last ruchel arrived.. then we started drinking.. infairness, nalasing kming lahat ni elyn.. then we went h0me arounf 4 in the m0rning na.. bangenge kc lahat..
i really miss th0se girLs s0 much.. when im with them, i feel s0 secure and brave.. di k0 alam baket.. its really been a l0ng time the last time we had this reuni0n.. it really seems like yesterday when we we're still in HS...im s0 thankful having them in my side..

anyway, next time nlng yung mga pics.. di k0 pa na upl0ad eh.. ehehe.. xiao xiao..

back t0 normal..

2006-01-04T14:25:00.000+08:00

after 2 weeks of rest, everything went back t0 n0rmal again.. per0 mas type k0 ngae0n c0mpare nung vacation.. kc very c0nstant ang mga activities or gigs na pede k0ng gawin.. pan0 ba naman, nasa haus c mama, s0 bantay sarad0 kame.. ehehe.. anyway, during vacati0n, my m0st fav0rite h0bby is sleeping.. ahaha.. j0in f0rce kame ng br0 k0.. ahahaha.. usually, ar0und 3 in the m0rning gising na k0 nun [f0r the reas0n that i d0nt kn0w] then ar0und 9 am, expect that im starting t0 feel sleepy or in that very time im sleeping na.. then ar0und 3 or 4 in the aftern0on na ang gising k0.. ahahaha... ay0s ba?! ewan k0 ba.. as in na adik yata ak0 sa tulog nun.. s0 yun na nga.. an0ther favorite h0bby during vacati0n is malling.. shit! parang wla na k0ng ibang ginawa aside fr0m sleeping is malling.. ehehehe.. per0 in fairness wla ak0ng nabibili or let just say wla talga ak0ng binibili.. nagtitipid kaya ak0.. that's 0ne of new year's res0lution, ang MAGTIPID ahahahaha.. actually, wla lang tlga cgru0 ak0ng magwang matin0 sa buhay k0 nung mga time na yun.. and while malling part na dun ung m0vie marath0n nmin ni b0neng.. ahaha.. m0vie marath0n ng mga MMFF m0vies [na ang papanget..!] then yung kingk0ng we tried t0 watch it sa cine baka kc mas ma appreciate k0 ung m0vie na un pag sa sine but still, wla pa ding changes, di k0 pa din sia na aapreciate.. ehehe.. kc parang nasasagwaan ak0 ke kingk0ng.. naku adik tlga! pati si kingk0ng pinakelaman k0 na.. ahaha.. salbahe!!!

during xmas, napansin k0 na parang ordinary day lang tlga sia c0mpare dati except na there's l0t of my friends wh0 greeted me and the gifts i received.. weee.. but the essence of xmas h0lidays is starting t0 surpassed na.. haaayyy.. even the new year t0 the fact that it is the n0isiest day ever been existed in the wh0le year.. ehehe.. at first i th0ught i was the 0nly wh0's feeling like that.. then when i reached sch0ol, my bl0ckmates and i had s0me talks ab0ut h0w we spend our xmas and new year.. tp0s yun na nga.. kahit pala cla pansin nila na xmas and new year seems like an ordinary day.. haaaayyy...

ab0ut my prelim grades... uhhhmmm... very... very... very satisfied except sa speech and oral per0 i think deserve k0 naman yun kc kakatamad tlga.. ehehe.. but with regards with my other subjects.. g0sh! ok sa alright tlga.. yung isa nga with fyling c0lors pa eh.. ahahaha.. anyway, im g0nna keep on striving f0r the best th0ugh prelim pa lang yun.. at least pag mas tumaas ak0 sa mid and sa finals, t0 the highest level na naman.. ^^

haaayyy... my h0ney has a fever since yesterdat... cgur0 kakapuyat nia yun.. di tul0i kme makaalis.. sabagay, he really needs t0 rest kc during h0lidays bc tlga un.. bc sa inuman... ahahaha.. wla clang ginawa nung mga pinsan nia kundi mag inuman.. per0 pagbigyan na, may occassi0n naman eh.. ehehehe..
that's it f0r now.. xiao xiao ^^

our beLoved d0ggie named "shaggy"...

2005-12-27T13:37:00.000+08:00

around 9 in the morning, my m0m told me that our pet d0g was dying.. at first i d0nt take it to0 seriously but when i decided to g0 down i saw her lying helplessly with s0 much bl0od around her b0dy.. i was really sh0cked.. i really d0nt kn0w what t0 do.. when i asked my niece where our grandma went, she said that she went to the market t0 buy s0mething.. s0 what i did is i c0me nearer t0 our d0g and h0ld her as if that w0uld be the last time.. when i h0ld her, she gradually cry.. that very minute, all i did is t0 hold her and be there t0 her side.. when my l0la arrived, i t0ld her that our d0g was totally in pain.. and maybe "shaggy" heard the v0ice of my l0la, s0 she st0od up t0 the fact that she's really having a hard time.. the bl0od was fl0wing in our fl0or.. and i really cant take it, as if i was g0ing t0 v0mit.. s0 i g0t upstairs instead. Then my l0la was calling me t0 help her c0ntrolling "shaggy" t0 stand up then i t0ld my m0m that i really cant s0 she went d0wn instead.. after a minute, i went d0wn again t0gether with my c0usin ycart.. "shaggy" was dead already, i can see panting and bravely fighting death.. and maybe it came t0 a p0int that she cant n0 l0nger h0ld it up, she passed away ar0unf 10:30 in the m0rning..

it's alm0st been m0re 9 years that she's been living with us.. that's why its really s0 hard that she have t0 bid g0odbye.. that very m0ment, i feel h0w hard t0 l0ss s0me0ne y0u l0ve and very special in our hearts.. haaayyy.. im s0 depressed rigth n0w especially my l0la.. she keep on calling shaggy's name.. haaayyy..

i just h0pe she's with g0d right n0w... and i really thank her because she sacrifice her life t0 save 0ne of my family member's life.. she's trully a man's bestfriend indeed..

hmmm...

2005-12-13T13:09:00.000+08:00

im slightly irritated ryt n0w.. kc biruin m0 naman, kahap0n pala ang alis nung m0kong na un all the way t0 pangasinan.. he called me up yesterday, but i was n0t able t0 talk t0 him.. ar0und 12 n0on daw, ycart t0ld me na he called up and said na if im the in the sh0p na ill make a return call t0 him.. then he called again ar0und 1 pm.. my m0m was the 0ne wh0 answered the ph0ne.. and she said t0 him that i was having my duty na and ill be arriving in the sh0p ar0und 3 or 4pm pa which is true.. what im trying t0 p0int out in here is that sana man lang pinasabi na lang ke ycart or sa mama k0 na aalis na siang l0ko sia.. bwiset tlga.. haaayyy.. im trying t0 calm d0wn and set my th0uhts int0 order kc ill be having my prelims na t0morrow.. s0 i d0nt want any disturbance.. shit! basta c0me what may pagbalik nia..

m0ving on..

2005-12-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

finally, kahit pan0 i haved 0n na since my f0n and my wallet had been snatched.. shit tlga! but still i d0nt have any blaming fact0r basta all im trying t0 remember always is everything happens is g0d's will.. i mean, its really meant t0 happen.. haaaayyy life.. anyway, di me makakasama sa outing ng h0ney k0 kc till decmber 19 is my class pa din kame.. i g0ing t0 have my prelim in trig0.. waaa.. di tlga fair si engineer.. sia lang ang pr0f k0 na naka sched ng 19.. waaa..sayang tlga.. 3 pa naman un.. haaayyy.. anyway, g0t t0 go na.. lar0 pa kme ng h0ney k0 ng RO.. ehehe... [adik!]

earlier this aftern0on..

2005-12-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

i was r0b.. waaa.. my f0n and my wallet with 800 pes0s on it was l0st.. shit tlga.. sayang yung m0ney.. and my reg f0rm was there als0.. teynkk gad my ID was n0t in my wallet kundi naku mas malaking gast0s.. w0rth 300 pa nmn yun and prelims na next week s0 need k0 tlga na may ID.. waaaa.. im s0 los ryt n0w..

email of my cuzzy ycart.

2005-12-07T13:21:00.000+08:00

i was really g0t interested with the title of the email that my cuz had sent me.. it g0es s0mething like "BABALA SA MGA MAHILIG MAGSHOPPING SA SM MANILA SA HARAP NG MANILA CITY HALL..." see what i mean.. sma manila pa, e lahge kaming nndian nila angel [ wc is kc malapit lang sa skul.. ] anyway, at first i th0ught it was s0mething na parang may bad spirit or things like that but when i was reading it, i was sh0cked that there are people r0aming around in that mall.. anyway, here is the entire mail of my cuz..

HINDI KO PO KAYO TINATAKOT. HINDI RIN PO ITO ISANG KWENTO LANG. HINDI PO ITO BIRO... ITO PO AY TOTOONG NANGYARI SA AKIN, SA ANAK KO, AT SA ASAWA KO. NOVEMBER 13, 2005 MORE OR LESS 3:00PM TO 4:00PM AT SM MANILA. NANDON PO AKO, KASAMA ANG PAMILYA KO SA SM DEPARTMENT STORE. DUN PO SA MADAMING LARUAN NA TINITINDA. TOYS LIKE BIKE FOR BABY, STUFFED TOYS, ETC. I INSTRUCTED THE SALES CLERK TO GET THEIR STOCK FOR THE BIKE THAT I HAVE CHOSEN FOR MY BABY(1 YEAR OLD BABY). AFTER THAT, TINESTING NAMIN ANG BIKE AND THEN BINAYARAN KO SA COUNTER. DITO PO NAGSIMULA ANG ISTORYA NG AKTONG NAGBABAYAD NA AKO SA COUNTER. ISANG MEDYO MATANDANG BABAE ANG LUMAPIT SA AKIN, PINAGBINTANGAN NYA PO AKO NA DINUKOT KO DAW ANG PERA NYA NA NAGKAKAHALAGA NG PHP 2,500.00(TWO THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED PESOS). ANG SABI KO PO, "MRS, WAG HO KAYONG MAGBINTANG, DI KO HO MAGAGAWA ANG SINASABI NYO, MAY TRABAHO PO AKO, MAY PERA AKO, MALINIS ANG PAGKATAO KO, AT ISA AKONG INSTRUCTOR". AYAW HONG MAKINIG NUNG BABAE SA PINAPALIWANAG KO... DAHILAN UPANG LAPITAN KAMI NG SECURITY GUARD AT IBA PANG CLERKS NG SM MANILA. DAHIL PO SA AYAW MANIWALA NG ALE SA AKIN, AT DAHIL PO PINAGBIBINTANGAN NYA NGA AKO, NILABAS KO PO ANG PERA KO SA HARAPAN NYA. NUNG ARAW NA UN PO, MAY DALADALA AKONG PERA, 11, 000.00 (ELEVEN THOUSAND PESOS) NA NAKALAGAY PO SA LOOB NG ZIPPER NG SINTURON KO. NILABAS KO PO LAHAT AT SINABI KO SA KANILA NA MAY PERA AKO, AT HINDI KO MAGAGAWA ANG IBINIBINTANG NYONG PANDURUKOT NG PERA NYO NA NAGKAKAHALAGA NG 2, 500.00. LALO PONG DUMAMI ANG TAO. PINAPUNTA PO KAMI SA OFFICE NG MANAGER NG SM NG SECURITY GUARD. ININTERVIEW NILA UNG NAGREREKLAMO, KINUHA NILA ANG SIDE KO. PINAPATUNAYAN PO NG 2 SALES CLERK NG SM NA NAG ENTERTAIN SA AMIN NA WALA KAMING KASALANAN DAHIL SA SIMULAT SIMULA NG PAGPUNTA NAMIN SA LOOB NG DEPARTMENT STORE AY SIYA NA ANG NAG ASIKASO SA AMIN. SA PALIWANAG PO NG ALE NA NAGCOCOMPLAIN, UN DAW PONG PAGKAKATUPI NG PERA NYA AT NG PERA KO AY IISA KAYA LUMAKAS DAW PO ANG KUTOB NYA NA PERA NYA UNG HAWAK KONG PERA. TINANONG PA NGA PO NIYA AKO SA HARAP NG MANAGER KUNG MAGKANO ANG BINAYAD KO. ANG SABI KO PO, 2000 (TWO THOUSAND PESOS PO) KC PO ANG PRESYO NG BISEKLETA NG PAMBABY E MORE OR LESS 1,700 (ONE THOUSAND SEVEN HUNDRED PESOS) INCLUDING THE BATTERY. ANG SABI PO NG ALE, SIGE... ILABAS MO ANG 500.00(FIVE HUNDRED PESOS) KC 2,500 (TWO THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED PESOS)LAHAT ANG PERA KO NA TIGLILIMANGDAANG PISO. NILABAS KO PO ANG ISANG LIBO (2 TIG 500.00) SABAY SABING SIGURO NAMAN PO E MANINIWALA NA KAYO NA HINDI AKO ANG TAONG NANDUKOT SA INYO... TATLONG LIBO PO KASI ANG NASA BULSA KO, WALONG LIBO NAMAN PO ANG NASA LOOB NG SINTURON KO... KUNG GUSTO NYO PO E BILANGIN NYO PA. PUMUNTA LANG PO KAMI DITO SA SM PARA IBILI NG LARUAN ANG BABY NAMIN. ITO PONG PERANG DALA DALA KO E PAMPABINYAG NG BABY KO... AYAW PA RIN PONG MANIWALA NG ALE. PINALIWANAG NA DIN PO NG MANAGER NG SM NA HINDI PORKE AKO ANG HULING NAKITA NUNG ALENG NAGREREKLAMO E AKO NA ANG KUMUHA NG PERA, ANG DAMI DAMI KASING TAO SA MALL. NAGSALITA NA DIN PO ANG SALES CLERK NA TALAGANG SA SIMULAT SIMULA NG PAGPUNTA NAMIN SA SM E SIYA NA ANG KAHARAP NAMIN AT SIYA ANG NAG ASIKASO SA AMIN. SUBALIT KAHIT ANO PONG PALIWANAG ANG GAWIN SPECIALLY NG MGA TUMITISTIGO NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN E SARADO HO ANG TENGA AT AYAW MAKINIG NG ALE SA AMIN. DAHILAN UPANG SABIHIN NG MANAGER NG SM NA KUNG HINDI MAAAYOS ANG PROBLEMA DITO SA LOOB E DADALHIN NATIN SA PULIS. SUMANGAYON PO AKO NA DALHIN NGA SA PULIS UPANG MATAPOS NA, TUTAL E MAYRON NAMANG NAGPAPATUNAY NA WALA NGA AKONG KASALANAN. I REQUESTED THE MANAGER OF SM MANILA TO LET THE 2 SALES CLERK AND SECURITY GUARD BE WITH US AT THE POLICE STATION. HABANG UMAALIS PO KAMI NG MALL, E MAY TINAWAGAN UNG ALE SA CELLPHONE NYA, AT SA TONO NG PANANALITA NYA E PULIS ANG TINAWAGAN NYA NA MANGGAGALING PA SA CAMP CRAME. NAGTIWALA PO AKO SA MGA PULIS SA CITY HALL NG MANILA KASI NGA PO MAY NAGPAPATUNAY NAMAN NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN. PAGPASOK PO NAMIN SA PRESINTO, TINANONG NG PULIS KUNG ANO ANG KASO. PINALIWANAG PO NUNG ALE. TINANONG PO NUNG PULIS KUNG ANO ANG PANGALAN KO, SINABI KO PO. ANO DAW TRABAHO KO, SABI KO PO E INSTRUCTOR NG MARINDUQUE STATE COLLEGE. LUMABAS PO UNG PULIS, SINAMA UNG 2 SALES CLERK AT SECURITY GUARD AT DOON KINAUSAP. PUMASOK PO ULIT UNG PULIS SA PRESINTO, PINUNTAHAN UNG ALE SA INVESTIGATION SECTION AT SINABI PO NA "MRS, MAHINA PO ANG KASO, HINDI PO YAN TATANGGAPIN NG KORTE, WALA PO KAYONG EBIDENSIYA NA DINUKUTAN KYO NG TAONG NIREREKLAMO NYO." E HINDI PO, SABI NG ALE... SIYA LANG PO UNG TAONG NAKITA KO SA LIKOD KO NUNG MAWALA UNG PERA KO.... "KAYA NGA PO, NAKITA NYO PO BA NA DINUKOT NYA NG ACTUAL UNG PERA NYO?" "HINDI PO..." "SO, WALA PO KAYONG KATIBAYAN NA DINUKUTAN NGA KAYO. AT ISA PA, MAY NAGPAPATUNAY PO NA WALANG KASALANAN UNG TAO..." ... "PERO, KUNG GUSTO NYONG MAGSAMPA NG REKLAMO, E SIGE, MAGPA IMBISTIGA KAYO... " "KUNIN MO ANG STATEMENT NG ALE..." SABI NYA DUN SA ISA PANG PULIS... BIGLA HONG DUMATING UNG PULIS NA TINAWAGAN NUNG ALE. TINAWAG PO NYA AKO, UNG SECURITY GUARD AT UNG 2 SALES CLERK UPANG KAUSAPIN SA LABAS. LUMABAS PO AKO, NG AKTONG LUMALABAS PO AKO E SINITA AKO NUNG ISANG PULIS, "HOY! SAAN KA PUPUNTA?" "TINAWAG HO AKO NUNG PULIS NA KASAMA NUNG ALE" SABI KO... AH, OK... SABI NG PULIS... NUNG NASA LABAS NA PO KAMI, HINDI PO AKO NAGSASALITA, HINAYAAN KO PO NA UNG MGA TESTIGO ANG MAGSABI KUNG ANONG NANGYARI... PAGKATPOS PO NON, KINAUSAP AKO NUNG PULIS NA KASAMA NUNG ALE... ANG SABI NYA "ALAM KONG WALA KANG KASALANAN, NAIINTINDIHAN KITA, GANITO NA LANG, IPAPALIWANAG KO SA IYO HA..." "NANGYARI NA DIN KASI SA AKIN NA NAAGAWAN AKO NG KWINTAS NOONG ARAW, AT HINDI KO NA NAKITA UNG NANG AGAW." "ANG GUSTO KASING MANGYARI NG TITA KO E BAYARAN MO UNG PERANG NAWAWALA, KAHIT KALAHATI LANG NG 2,500 PESOS AT HINDI NA NYA ITUTULOY ANG KASO." NAPAIYAK PO AKO, AT SINABI KO SA KANYA NA ... "WALA NAMAN PO AKONG KASALANAN, AT MAY NAGPAPATUNAY NA NGA PO NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN, SIR NAMAN, ANG HIRAP HONG KITAIN NG PERA NGAYON, ANG HIRAP PO NG BUHAY..." "E, MAHIRAP KA PALANG KAUSAPIN E... SIGE, KAUSAPIN MO ANG TITA KO... KUNG MAY PERA LANG AKO E, AKO NA MISMO ANG MAGBABAYAD SA KANYA, PAG KASI SINABI NYA, E SINABI NYA TALAGA AT TALAGANG GAGAWIN NYA..." PUMASOK PO AKO NG PRESINTO AT KINAUSAP KO NAMAN UNG PULIS SA LOOB(BAUTISTA PO ANG NAME PLATE NYA). NAGULAT NGA PO AKO NG SABIHIN NYA NA "ANG MAITUTULONG KO LANG SA IYO E GANITO, ILABAS MO ANG PERA MO SA BULSA AT MAGTIRA KA LANG NG PAMASAHE NYO PAUWI PARA MATAPOS NA ITO" HINDI KO NA PO NAPIGILAN ANG SARILI KO AT TULUYAN NA AKONG UMIYAK. UMIYAK NA DIN PO ANG MRS KO, PATI NA DIN PO ANG ANAK NAMIN NA ISANG TAONG GULANG PA LANG. "SIR, ALAM PO NINYO NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN... MAY NAGPAPATUNAY NA NGA PO DI BA?" "HINDI KO SINASABI NA MAY KASALANAN KA, GANITO HA... ISIPIN MO NA LANG PAG NATULOY ANG KASO, MAGBABAYAD KA SA ABOGADO, MAGBABAYAD KA SA GANITO, GANYAN, ETC. AT MAKUKULONG KA PA" "BAKIT PO AKO MAKUKULONG E MAY TESTIGO NGA AKO NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN?" "MAY REKLAMO KASI UNG ALE SA IYO... KUNG GUSTO MO E MAGMAKAAWA KA SA ALE PARA HINDI NA NYA ISAMPA UNG KASO..." SABI NI BAUTISTA "SIR, WALA PO AKONG KASALANAN, BAKIT AKO MAGMAMAKAAWA?" "MAKUKULONG KA TALAGA..." SABI NI BAUTISTA PAKIRAMDAM KO PO E PINAGKAKAISAHAN AKO NG MGA PULIS SA LOOB NG PRESINTO... BIGLA HONG MAY IPINASOK NA MGA KRIMINAL, NAHULI DAW NILA UN. ANG LALAKI PO NG KATAWAN, APAT NA TAO AT ANG BABAHO PO NILA. SABI PO NI BAUTISTA, "ISA, DALAWA, TATLO, APAT, HABANG MINUMUSTRA SA DALIRI NYA SABAY TURO SA AKIN... IKAW ANG PANGLIMA... MAGSISIKSIKAN KAYO SA LOOB, KAWAWA KA JAN..." "SIR, WALA PO AKONG KASALANAN..." PINANGHINAAN NA PO AKO NG LOOB... AT DAHIL DITO, KINAUSAP KO NA PO ANG ALE... HINIHINGAN NYA PO AKO NG 2500 PESOS, ANG SABI KO, "MRS, ALAM NAMAN PO NINYO NA WALA AKONG KASALANAN. ETO PO ANG 1000PESOS" "HINDI PWEDE, KAILANGAN E KAHIT 2000PESOS , ANG YABANG MO KANINA SA SM DI BA? ANG DAMI DAMI MO NGANG PERA SA LOOB NG SINTURON E AKINA ANG 2LIBO" "MRS, 1500 LANG PO ANG KAYA KO, PAMPABINYAG KO PO UNG PERA KO NA NANDITO, AT UUWI PA PO AKO NG MARINDUQUE NGAYONG GABI..." KINAUSAP NG ALE UNG PULIS NA KASAMA NYA, "ANO, BINIBIGYAN NYA AKO NG 1500PESOS, OK NA BA UN? " SABI NG ALE. "OO, OK NA UN" SABI NG PULIS NA KASAMA NYA. "ANO, OK NA HO BA MRS? " SABI NI BAUTISTA "OPO SIR, OK NA PO..." "O, SIGE IBLOTTER NA NATIN ANG KASO" NAKASULAT PO DOON NA AKO AY NAGING SUSPECT AT ANG NAGREREKLAMO E HINDI NA INTERESADO NA MAGSAMPA NG KASO.. PINAPIRMA PO NYA AKO PATI NA RIN ANG ALE NA NAGPAKILALANG "ZENAIDA GONZALES" 57 YEARS OLD AT EMPLEYADO DAW NG DECS. NAGPAKILALA PA PO SIYANG TAGA MARINDUQUE DIN, SA BARANGAY MAGAPUA MOGPOG, MARINDUQUE" PAGKATPOS KO PONG PUMIRMA, LUMABAS KAMI NG PAMILYA KO MORE OR LESS 7:00PM. ANG SABI PO NUNG ALE, SASABAY KAMI SA INYO... KINABAHAN PO AKO, BAKIT SIYA SASABAY SA AMIN SA PAG-UWI? ANO PA BA ANG GUSTO NYA? HABANG KINAKAUSAP NG ALE UNG PULIS SA LOOB, E NAGLAKAD NA KAMI PALABAS NG PRESINTO. SINABI KO SA SECURITY GUARD AT 2 CLERK NA PAKIHATID NYO NAMAN KAMI SA PARADAHAN NG BUS PAPUNTANG CAVITE... AYAW KONG MAG TAXI, AYAW KONG MAG FX, ANG SABI KASI NG ALE E SASABAY DAW SILA SA AMIN... KINAKABAHAN AKO... SABI KO SA KANILA.... PLEASE NAMAN, IHATID NYO KAMI SA TERMINAL NG BUS... NILAKAD PO NAMIN FROM CITYHALL TO LAWTON TERMINAL NG BUS PERO WALANG BIYAHENG CAVITE (PURO DASMARINAS, BATANGAS, ETC.) LAKAD ULIT KAMI TO QUIAPO, MALAPIT PO SA BASKETBALL COURT, THEN HANGGANG MARATING NAMIN ANG LAWTON SA MAY SSS BUILDING... NG MAY DUMATING NA BUS, NAKAHINGA KAMI NG MALUWAG AT NAGPASALAMT KAMI SA SECURITY GUARD AT CLERKS SABAY SABING "PAKISABI SA MANAGER NYO KUNG ANO MAN ANG NANGYARI... UNG TOTOONG NANGYARI..." MARAMING SALAMAT SA INYO... HABANG TINITINGNAN KO ANG BISIKLETA NG BABY KO... KINAKABAHAN PA RIN PO KAMI HABANG NSA LOOB NG BUS, PERO ANG INISIP KO NA LANG PO E KAHIT ANONG MANGYARI DITO SA LOOB NG BUS E MADAMING TAONG MAKAKAKITA... MADAMING TETESTIGO... KAYA, MGA KABABAYAN, KAIBIGAN, MAG-INGAT PO KAYO SA SM MANILA ... KUNG MAIPARARATING NYO PO SA MANAGEMENT NG SM MANILA ANG EMAIL KO, MARAMING SALAMAT PO. KUNG MAIPARARATING NYO PO KE TULFO, ITONG EMAIL KO, MARAMING SALAMAT PO. GANYAN PALA SA MANILA, MAY TUMITISTIGO NA NGA WALA KANG KASALANAN... PERO... GANON PA RIN ANG GINAWA NG MGA PULIS NA TAGA CITY HALL NG MANILA... "BAUTISTA" YAN LANG ANG NAKAUNIFORM NA PULIS NOONG NOV. 13, 2005 SA CITY HALL NG MANILA... PAANO KUNG WALANG TUMESTIGO? SIGURO, LALO AKONG KAWAWA... IPARATING NYO PO ITO SA MGA KAIBIGAN NYO UPANG MAKAPAG-INGAT... MARAMING SALAMAT PO, LORIMER L. IMPERIO MARINDUQUE STATE COLLEGE INSTRUCTOR I

see what i mean?!... hmmm... people like that have n0 heart and cant even thinks of s0mething m0re pleasant way t0 earn m0ney.. gad! they make l0ts of lies just t0 have m0ney.. and their victims are people wh0 really w0rked hard t0 earn m0ney.. tap0s sila pasarap sa buhay.. wlang ginawa kundi manl0ko ng ibang ta0.. damn! i wish th0se people will face the gravest karma ever.... im s0 irritated with people wh0 are liars and s0meone wh0 use other people f0r the g0ods of them.. haaayyy... why is there th0se kind of people still lives in this w0rld..

getting hold of my feelings..

2005-12-06T12:59:00.000+08:00

its really quite hard in controlling ur emotions ryt?! esp when ur in the middle of the class.. alm0st all of my pr0f had called my attenti0n bc0z they thought i was daydreaming.. but i was really trying to get hold of myself and esp the way im feeling ryt n0w.. haaaayyyyy.. alam m0, der r tyms that 0ne day, im g0ing t0 faint.. ehehe.. bc0z im really really lacking a lot of sleep to the fact that my class starts at 7 in the m0rning with n0 vacant.. it s0 happens that angel usually br0ught up s0mething t0 eat f0r breakfast, but me and the girLs we're able t0 eat usually ar0und 11 am na din.. that's why im having a hard time t0 overc0me all of the pressures and burdens inside of me..
i arrived at sch0ol early, ar0und 7 am i think.. my class during TTh starts at 7:30 in the m0rning.. and angel, maan, yen and anna was there na.. angeL appr0ached me if i was able t0 research the new c0mmandment that my pr0f in the0 was trying t0 asked.. s0 i said i was.. then i seated near her then f0r s0me reas0n, bigla k0ng nasabi na "geL, im n0t happy anym0re.." i rally d0nt kn0w what kind of shity reas0n that p0ps in my mind why i have said such kind of thing.. den she asked "are y0u sure? y0u have t0 be sure.. den if ur sure na, its up t0 you na.. the answers are n0t in ours but in your own self.." fuck.. that's 0ne of the main pr0blem.. i think the pr0blem is ME.. ewan k0 basta..
there are times para talaga ak0ng adik.. i was gradually saying things na di naman related sa t0pic namin.. it is usually about me and him.. I really want t0 kn0w if its really just me or there's really s0mething wr0ng with us.. i cant decide whether t0 c0ntinue this or not.. or what sh0uld be my first m0ve in order t0 solve this pr0blem...
we we're n0t able t0 talk since last friday... kc medy0 bc din ak0.. it will be our prelims na kaya medy0 overl0ad ak0..

maybe the pr0blem is just ME.. haaayyyyy...

DISAPPOINTMENTS

2005-12-05T12:36:00.000+08:00

For some reason, i really hate fortune telling, t0 the point that im really n0t into believing th0se things. . And because of this, all of my plans have been disordered. Its been 19 years and its my first time to have fortune telled by my friend. At first, it was really meant for a joke or i was just playing games with him and i really didnt consider anything that will comes up with my so called "fortune" . I dont want to elaborate all the predictions about my future that comes up but all i can say is s0me are realy.. really.. disapp0inting.. .

Way back when i was still in fourth year high sch0ol.. Mrs. Orden [ my teacher in religi0n/the0logy ] had menti0ned that believing in f0rtune telling is a sin. I forgot its name but i cab still remember that it is considered as a mortal sin.. And yesterday, when we went to church, i really say s0rry t0 God f0r relying everything in f0rtune telling.. i mean, i g0t s0 affected when th0se predicti0ns came up without reliable basis.. .
I really dont want to believe in th0se predicti0ns, even my friend says that it is only our guide and its up to us whether we're g0ing to follow this or not. But i really cant help n0t thinking about it.

Im really into the fact that "everything happens for a reason" and "everything happens is meant by God" ... shit! i've been living with this perception for almost 2 years and still i cant lived with th0se facts and i cant even apply it with myself.

Up to this very moment, im still wandering "when will i ever learn my less0ns?" So many hurtful things had happened and still, here i am, learning n0thing. And when will i learn that "one is en0ugh?!" haaaayyyy.. life is really hard t0 understand..

When he left me for s0me reas0n, i pr0mise t0 myself that what he did t0 me is en0ugh and n0 turning back.. But when he asked for a chance, i accept him open arms. Its really n0t about him or ab0ut our realti0nship.. its about me wh0 never learned during the past..

I miss myself.. or let me say "THE REAL ME" the unstable one.. one who have lots of pride.. who loves herself so much.. wh0's m0re attached t0 her friends.. who can let g0 in an instant [ the hell she cares ] and one who can m0ve on in just one minute..

He had changed me alot that i can no longer identify if its still me or not. He had changed me a lot that i cant even classify if its for the better or for the worst.

To the fact that im missing my old self.. i also miss the "OLD HIM" He really changed a lot out of him. As of n0w, i can fully understand that "NOTHING IS PERMANENT, EXCEPT CHANGES.."

I kn0w my thoughts are not in s0 much order right n0w, but believe me, everything i have said are related to 0ne an0ther. There are still s0me that i cant say and i want it t0 keep it private..

my new lay out..

2005-12-03T16:24:00.000+08:00

i have my new lay out na?! ehehehe.. its very nice and it is s0 cute.. bagay sakin.. telebabad.. ehehehe..

december 1 [ my bday ]

2005-12-02T16:17:00.000+08:00

as usual its my bday.. and as always.. wlang bag0... ehehehe... ay 0ne thing is new.. uhmmm.. my age?! ahaha.. im 19 na [ gad! ] urghhh.. next year, im turning 20 na.. amf.. y0ung ad0lescent na me.. waaa.. still there's n0thing new in my life.. haayyy.. but im still thankful c0z the situati0n between my m0m and my dad is starting t0.. uhhhmmm.. bLo0m again?! [am i using the ryt w0rd?!..ahehehe..] but still, im n0t expecting that there's s0mething g0od will happen, per0 as of t0day and fr0m the past few days, it seems like parang there's still a chance f0r a sec0nd time ar0und.. ehehehe.. anyway, hirap din kc mag expect eh tap0s wala din pala..

and as always, im with kalb0 [guess wh0 is?!] and as usual sa SM na naman ang itinerary namin..

we watched "the ex0rcism of emily r0se" ... its a very nice m0vie.. kung interested sa gan0ng klase ng m0vie.. but s0me say na b0ring daw per0 ndi naman.. ewan k0 ba dun ke cess bat nia nasabi na b0ring.. palibhasa bubu.. ahahahaha.. its really a nice m0vie kn0wing na true to life un dba?! and the girl wh0 acted as emily r0se.. she's really g0od especially when she is in the manner of being p0ssessed.. i l0ve the m0vie..

after nun, we went straight sa sh0p.. [as usual..] den he startd palying naman.. den me naman nagpapakam0del ng K700i ni cuzin ycart.. ahahaha.. .. here are s0me pics na napagtripan nming dalawa ni b0nn.. hehehe..

hehehehe... nice n0h?! para kaming timang ni b0nn..

ay bef0re i f0rgot.. yen, geL, dris, abby, anna, maan, red, and mike.. gave me a c0llage.. di k0 sure kung c0llage yun.. per0 para lang daw may matawag sa gawa nila ehehe.. but i really appreciate the eff0rt.. teynks sa iny0..

s0 un lang.. ciao..

untitled..

2005-11-30T13:32:00.000+08:00

Part 1: Basics

1. NICKNAME('s) ~ c0hr.. c0hrina.. ceejay.. j0ie [wid d french accent].. "ney" [xclusiv 4 my h0ney]
2. GENDER ~ femme
3. BIRTHDATE ~ dec. 1, 1986 [w/c is 2m0row]
4. WHERE DO YOU LIVE ~ manila
5. HEIGHT ~ uhhmmm.. 5'1
6. SHOE SIZE ~ 6 or 7
7. FIRST CRUSH ~ nye.. cn0 ba un?!
8. WHATS YOUR SIGN ~ sagittarius
9. WHATS THE FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU ~ super sungit daw nd unfriendly.. nyaks!
10. HAVE A TATTOO ~ nuhhh...

Part 2: Food

1. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING ~ BK
2. COKE OR PEPSI ~ sprite nd iced tea
3. ROOT BEER OR CALI ~ RB
4. TEA OR COFFEE ~ iced tea
5. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE ~ b0th nlng..
6. CAKE OR PIE ~ neither..

Part 3: Pick one

1. MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER ~ uhmm.. perfect friend and l0ver.. hehe
2. CATS OR DOGS ~ d0ggies..
3. 1 PILLOW OR 2 ~ 5 pillows
4. W/ OR W/O ICE ~ w/ ice
5. TOP OR BOTTOM ~ c0nnecti0n?!
6. WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL ~ la nmng winter, spring and fall sa pinas eh..s0 summer nlng..hehe
7. SKIING OR BOARDING ~ neither..
8. BIKING OR BLADING ~ neither
9.ROCK/RAP/R&B/PUNK/ALT/SKA/TECHNO/SWIN R & B ~ r and B
10. NIGHT OR DAY ~ night
11. VEST OR MITTENS ~ neither
12. DRESSED OR UNDRESSED ~ dressed
13. BUNK OR WATER BED ~ water bed cgur0.. i havent try it pa kc eh..
14. MAKE PLANS OR GO ALONG ~ make plans
15. TRUTH OR DARE ~ dare
16. MTV OR VH1 ~ mtV
17. OCEAN OR POOL ~ both
18. SHOWERS OR BATHS ~ long baths
19. BLIND OR DEAF ~ neither

Part 4: Favorites

1. COLOR ~ red.. wyt.. blu.. lavander nd black..
2. NUMBER ~ 14
3. SUBJECT ~ uhmmm.. phiLo.. ehehe
4. SHOE BRAND/s ~ happy feet nd skechers..
5. SPORTS ~ uhmm.. i play billiards wid my h0ney.. ehehe
6. DRINK ~ sodas.. teas.. juices..
7. ANIMAL ~ dogs..
8. HOLIDAY ~ anniv.. bdays.. xmas.. new year..
9. FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE ~ t0 be specific?!.. n0ne.. ehehe
10 BAND ~ s0brang dami eh.. but esp BOYZ 2 MEN..
11. MOVIE ~ uhmm.. dami din eh..
12. PLACE TO CHILL ~ pier 1.. c0wb0y's grill.. hardr0ck.. baywalk [ehehe].. basement.. embassy..
13. FLOWERS ~ ant0rium and wyt r0ses..
14. PERFUME ~ vict0ria's secret.. 212.. hug0 4 w0men.. kenz0 4 w0men..

Part 5: Would you?

1. MOVE ANYWHERE ~ yup but in NY [t0 be wid my cuzins there] nd eur0pe lang.. [anywhere in eur0pe]
2. DYE YOUR HAIR ~ n0pe..
3. MEET ONE FAMOUS PERSON ~ uhmm.. n0pe.. it rili d0esnt b0ther me dat much..
4. LIVE WITH ONE PERSON FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE ~ yes
5. NAME ONE PERSON YOU LOVE ~ b0nn bryan blacer cabral..
6. NAME ONE THING THAT EMBARRASSES YOU ~ uhhmm.. secret nlng.. ehehe
7. DO YOU LIKE SCHOOL? ~ n0t so..
8. DO YOU LIKE TALKING ON THE PHONE? ~ s0 much..
9. DO YOU HAVE YOUR OWN LINE? ~ nope

MORE Q's!!

YOUR MOST OVERUSED EXPRESSION: ~ epal.. leche.. fuck.. wat da.. amp.. bwiset.. tym na ba?! ehehe
YOUR THOUGHTS WHEN WAKING UP: ~ aga pa..
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: ~ eyes nd lips..
Your usual bedtime: ~ ders n0 definite tym..
DO YOU...
Curse: ~ yes
Sing well: ~ ehem..ehem.. [ms.talent kaw ba yan?!]
Believe in yourself: ~ sumtyms?!

~ pak0pya lang huh?! ~

1. TWO NAMES YOU GO BY: c0hr.. c0hrina..
2. TWO THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: pintasera.. pintasera.. la na k0ng maicp e
4. TWO THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: ipis.. eeeewww.. death of a luv 1
5. TWO THINGS U NEED EVERYDAY: my f0n and m0ney.. ehehe
6. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS: mymp and b0ys 2 men..
7. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS @ THE MOMENT: shake it off.. stay..
8. TWO PERSONS YOU SPEND TIME WITH THE MOST: my bl0ckm8s nd AUFAP family.. ehehe
10.TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: texting and surfing als0..
11.TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO REALLY BUYRIGHT NOW? a new f0n and a c0ndo.. waaa.. l0la san na ba?! 48 yrs na un huh?!.. dpat kasun0d ng car yun.. waaa..
12.TWO CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: br0adcaster or advertiser..
13.TWO PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: ive jas been t0 b0ra last vacati0n eh.. s0 h0pefully in NY ulet para mikta k0 na cuzins k0.. waaa.. mis u all..
14.TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE PERSONS: queL and eduard [mahal k0]
15.TWO THINGS YOU DID YESTERDAY: yesterday? went t0 sch0ol den yen, gel nd merce went t0 SM.. [as usual]
16.TWO PEOPLE THAT YOU MISS?: HS friends..
17.TWO FOODS THAT YOU'RE CRAVING TO EAT?: italian lang..
18.TWO FAVORITE SUBJECTS IN HS/COLLEGE: HS > english.. COLLEGE > philo.. ehehe
19.TWO OF YOUR HAPPIEST MEMORIES IN HIGH SCHOOL: retreat.. fieldtrip.. night trip.. fud trip.. basta.. ehehe..
20.TWO PEOPLE THAT COME TO MIND NOW?: si queL.. waaaa... free sec pa kc eh..
21.TWO COLORS YOU LIKE?: black and red

kanlungan sa erma

2005-11-27T07:41:00.000+08:00

later this m0rning...
AUFAP-friends [ including me ], had our outreach pr0gram in ermita manila.. our aim is to make the children happy even for a day.. We've arrived there for about 9am na din.. and based from my own experience, the first time y0u got there, parang mash0sh0cked ka as in.. kc s0bra silang gulo and padating pa lang kame, namimili na cla kung cn0 ang magiging ate or kuya nila for a day.. When we got there na nga, "gina" apr0ached me instantly.. she's really pretty and very tall.. kasing height k0 nga sia eh, take n0te she's only 13 yrs old.. hehe.. anyway, each od us, had a child t0 t0ok care of.. then we went t0 pandacan f0r the pr0gram which was prepared by the eur0pian sp0nsors f0r them.. th0se eur0pian sp0nsors are kn0wn as "clowns with0ut b0rders" i really d0nt kn0w the meaning of their name but i can say that based fr0m the cl0wn, their objective is t0 give happiness to the children..
so yun na nga.. the pr0gram last upt0 12 n0on.. its very tiring per0 kakaibang experience.. i was able t0 share s0mething that i have t0 "gina" and i was glad that bef0re my bday c0mes i have d0ne a nice j0b with other pe0ple esp with kids.. th0ugh medy0 naub0s ang m0ney k0, kc syempre pabili ng pabili ung alaga k0.. ehehe.. but that's ok.. once in a lifetime lang naman yun eh..
tap0s when its time t0 g0 h0me na.. haaayy.. yung iba umiiyak and sa iba naman, makikita m0 na obvi0us na obvi0us sa knila na they are l0nely bc0z we have t0 g0 h0me na and everything will be back t0 n0rmal.. esp yung si 'jay-jay" .. as in umiiyak tlga sia.. haaaayyyy...
then bumali nga kame sa "kanlungan sa erma".. edi syempre excited na nmn yung mga kids.. kaya lang yung iba kc samin is umuwi na, s0 ang tendency ung mga alaga nila hinahanap sila and yun iba nga pinapatext pa cla.. ehehe.. anyway, yung alaga k0 kinuha pa yung cell # ko.. gus2 pa nga pati teleph0ne # eh.. ehehe.. tp0s we said our g0odbyes na..
alam m0.. s0me of the children are very 0pen why sila napunta sa kanlungan sa erma.. s0me of them sabi abused by their parents.. yung 2 namang magkaptid, b0th of them are rape victim by their stepfather.. [ imagine that?! ] and s0me of them naman, aware yung parents nila na nandun cla.. kaya nga c0mplete yung mga cl0thes nila when they g0t there..
i really cant imagine that there are parents in this w0rld that are s0 mean and evil with their children... and the stepfather wh0 aff0rds in raping his stepchildren.. i really h0pe they r0t in hell.. and they cann0t give me the reas0n "p0verty".. shit! :0"> until n0w, i d0nt have the slightest idea why are there living parents like them in this w0rld.. im n0t bein judgemental.. call me whatever y0u want.. but i really hate the parents of th0se children wh0's been m0rally, physically, mentally and em0tionally abused.. :0">
we're all glad that we're given the chance t0 be with th0se kids even f0r 5 hours or so.. im just h0ping that th0se children will have the best future ahead of them.. and i kn0w that there are l0ts of c0ncern pe0ple wh0 are willing t0 help them esp the eur0pians and the japanese sp0nsors of their charity.. and im glad that there are still s0me wh0 have kind hearts t0 help other people..
and t0 all of th0se eur0pians and japanese sp0ns0rs.. and t0 all the pe0ple wh0's helping willingly helping th0se children wh0le heartedly... i salute y0u all.. and may g0d bless y0u all..

that's all f0r n0w.. ciao ciao

starting t0 be very busy again..

2005-11-24T05:23:00.000+08:00

alm0st all of my pr0fess0rs are staring t0 assigned us t0 do s0 many things which i think is n0t relevant with our subject.. ... s0me pr0f are really unfair with their students
first is with my s0ciety class.. waaa.. 0ne of my pressuring subject.. really, when y0ur seated in her class, y0u're g0in t0 be really really pressured with her, th0ugh she's really a nice pr0f.. last tuesday, we had a quiz [its really a l0ng 0ne..] and the c0verage of it is the wh0le chapter 1.. waaa.. imagine that?! t0 the p0int that n0t all 0f the t0pics in chapter 1 has already been discussed. so in sh0rt, self study and self understanding.. shit! :0"> an0ther thing, after our l0ng.. l0ng.. as in super l0ng quiz tlga, she gave us an assignment t0 be submitted t0morrow.. and guess what?! its all ab0ut chapter 2 naman.. ahaha.. we're g0ing t0 pick up s0me v0cabulary w0rds in the wh0le chapter 2, then we're g0ing t0 give its meaning and each w0rd, we're g0ing t0 give a situati0nal experiences in sh0rt examples.. waaaa.. im really dead with this 0ne.. waaaa..and h0pefully, i w0uld be able t0 finish it later..
next is wid my phil0 class.. he als0 addigned us t0 study the wh0le chapter 1 which is "man and his nature" [ i think i g0t it ryt?! ] anyway, we're g0ing t0 have a graded recitati0n t0morrow.. waaa.. y is it that alm0st all of my pr0fess0rs are assigning us t0 study the WHOLE CHAPTERS in an instant?! damn..
third 0ne is with my bi0 sci.. e2 very unique t0.. ahahaha.. r0le playing or rep0rting.. kaya lang, we have t0 explain it very very well.. waaaa.. she's s0 demanding and our gr0up was assgined t0 rep0rt "sp0ntane0us generati0n" [ never heard?! ] based fr0m our b0ok, i think it tells ab0ut that it is s0me kind 0f a the0ry wherein living things arises fr0m a n0n living things.. parang ganun.. kaya lang, we really d0nt have any slightest idea h0w are we g0in t0 present that 0ne.. i h0pe regine will be able t0 think s0mething para khit pan0 may ma present naman kame..
f0urth is wi my panitikan class.. waaaa... im g0in t0 rep0rt on friday.. sabi kc sa m0nday na kme.. per0 n0 classes nga sa m0nday, kala k0 gagawin kming wednesday, per0 ndi parin, instead ginawa niyang friday.. waaaa..im still waiting f0r kym t0 text me kung an0ng t0pic ang akin..
fifth is wid my trig0 class.. actually, it is m0re on a g0od news.. ahahaha kc "ENGR.DJ" is my pr0f in trig0.. ahahaha.. sam milby ang dating.. and what's g0od abt that, kilala na k0 kc nga dahil friend sia ni m0m leah.. ahaha.. nd lagi kcng nasa OSA un dati eh.. ahahaha.. wala lang, im just glad he's my pr0f in trig0..

haaaaayyyyy.... h0pefully ma acc0mplished k0 lahat t0h.. s0 un lang muna f0r n0w.. ciao ciao

harry p0tter and the g0blet of fire..

2005-11-20T05:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday, me and h0ney went t0 sm..
we ate first in ch0wking..ehehe..den we str0ll ar0und the mall..while str0lling ar0und we saw s0me high sch0ol friends..after that we watched harry p0tter na..ehehehe.. the m0vie t0ok alm0st 3 hrs din.. its really a g0od m0vie esp the visual effects and the fl0w of the scenes.. while we're watching b0nn said "ney, im kinda having a hard time t0 undestand their language.." kc dba english ang language nila s0 slung tlga.. ehehe.. sabi nia "mas ok pa daw na basahin.." ehehehe.. haaayyy.. b0nn tlga pur0 reklam0.. or let just say mahilig magreklam0.. .. ewan k0 ba dun..

being with him yesterday, really went well.. masaya sia.. and very tiring.. and like wat b0nn said "naka stilett0 ka pa kc.." .. eh ive been wearing that since the sch0ol has started.. ewan k0 ba tlga dun..
ar0und 6:30pm natap0s yung m0vie den after nun.. we ate again in ice m0nsters.. weee.. gus2 nga nia sa yeLLow cab kya lang we're b0th fuLL pa eh.. ehehe.. s0 un lang..

ay o0 nga pla my fav0rite part in the m0vie is when hermi0ne hug tightly harry kc nga parang napagbintangan c harry na cheater sia bc0z he's name was in the g0blet t0 the fact that all bel0w 17 yrs old is pr0hibited t0 j0in the game and there are certain measures t0 assure that all of the participants are ab0ve 17 yrs old.. hermi0ne hug harry s0 tight and say g0odluck bc0z it will be the start of the first quest.. ehehe.. la lang.. its really sweet of her tlga, as harry's friend.. and infairness, she's really pretty in the m0vie esp nung may parang pr0m cla..

s0 yun lang muna f0r now..
ciao ciao..

t0morr0w..

2005-11-18T06:58:00.000+08:00

t0mor0w, i will be seeing my h0ney.. and im really excited ab0ut that ..ehehehe.. anyway, we're planning t0 watch harry p0tter.. actually, sia nga ung nag aya eh.. .. uhmm ar0und 12 n0on magkikita na kame sa bahay.. di na k0 nagpasund0 sa ADU kc sayang lang ang fare..
basta.. sana t0morr0w na.. eeeekkkk.. im missing him s0 much as in.. i really cant expalin it basta all i kn0w is i miss him badly..
that's all f0r n0w..

ciao ciao..

weeee....l0ok at this em0tic0ns...

2005-11-17T14:35:00.000+08:00

i have seen this em0tic0ns in g0t-mary.com and i really g0t attracted with these em0tic0ns.. as in.. hehe.. try t0 l0o at them..

i think they are all 24 all in all.. hehe [ i h0pe im ryt?!] anyway, arent they s0 cute?!.. ehehe.. and by n0w, ill be using em0tic0ns na.. ehehe.. f0r a change..

h0w sweet... yeeeheee...

2005-11-16T07:38:00.000+08:00

my h0ney had updated his pr0file in friendster..ehehe.. [very unlikely of him..] anyway, i was really surprised when i view his pr0file.. bc0z of this 0ne.. [take a l0ok...]

see what i mean?!... ehehehe.. what im trying t0 point out is, i kn0w that he l0ves me [based fr0m what he said t0 me] but its really unlikely of him t0 d0 th0se things especially sa friendster niya.. and often times nga lang yun mag 0pen ng acc0unt niya eh.. basta i was really starstruck ab0ut th0se things..ehehe.. its kinda mababaw but then i really appreciate what he did and its really sweet of him.. and kc he's n0t the type na gagawa ng ganun sa friendster niya [take n0te di niya hilig ang mag ay0s ng webby..all he kn0ws is t0 play..play..and play...ehehehe] basta kinilig ak0...ehehe..un lang..

anyway, jas g0t h0me fr0m sch0oL.. and medy0 b0ring ung sched k0 ngae0n..ehehe..

TTH
7:30-9am --> phiLo ... waaaa... asar ung pr0f na un di pa cnabi kung cn0 sia.. per0 he's kinda c0oL kya lang strict tlga.. tanda na kc e.. ehehe
9am-10:30 --> e2 the best t0.. s0ciety and culture astig tlga ung pr0f k0 d2.. wats her name agen?! aaaahhhhh... pr0f cabanag... ehehehe.. she's kind tlga.. 0bvious din naman sa physical nia eh.. and take n0te she assigned me t0 seat infr0nt.. ehehehe.. liit k0 daw kc.. waaaa... [hayup naman un!]...hihi.. its s0 happens lang na lahat ng classmates k0 is matatangkad s0 di ak0 maliit n0h.. ehehe.. basta the best t0ng pr0f ko na t0h..
10:30-12n0on --> fav0rite subject k0... m0ral the0l0gy ... as expected, inaant0k na naman ak0 sa subject na yun... ehehehe.. cn0 nga ba ung pr0f k0 dun?! uhhhmmm.. dra.cruz yata un... ehehehe.. anyway, na enj0y k0 ung the0 knina kc akalain m0 nag intr0duce kame.. ehehehe.. [parang elementary n0h?!] per0 whats g0od with that is yung partner m0 na na assigned sau ang mag iintr0duce sau.. ehehe.. his/her first impressi0ns about u.. basta things like that.. h0pefully, sana n0w, mag enj0y na k0.. ehehe

alam m0, aus ung bl0ck k0.. iba2ng b0ys ang classmate k0 per subject.. akalain m0 un?! si cyd lang yata ang permanent k0ng bl0ckmate na guy eh.. and pur0 engineering pa.. as in tlga.. kal0ka.. ehehe.. lal0 na ung baliw na christ0pher.. ehehe.. ewan k0 ba dun.. adik yta un..feeling cl0se agad saken.. per0 i enj0y his c0mpany naman eh, s0 ok lang.. ehehe..

later ar0und 6pm, my dad will pick us up sa bahay.. we're g0ing t0 have dinner.. and up t0 n0w, i still d0nt kn0w where.. kc nga dba bday nia nung m0nday.. ehehehe..

ciao ciao

reminiscing the past.. ahahaha...

2005-11-15T06:56:00.000+08:00

this are all my m0m's pictures way back in 1984 when she wasstill a seni0r in PWU-JMD..ahehehe..weird ng mga dress nila n0h?! para ngang baliw eh.. my m0m havent st0p laughing until n0w..ahehehe.. per0 its really nice t0 reminisce the past especially the highscg0oL days.... ahahaha... basta un lang..share k0 lang..ciao

shit...

2005-11-15T05:40:00.000+08:00

haaayyyy...
jas g0t h0me fr0m sch0oL.. and u kn0w what?! ive been really messed up, why?! bc0z ive been in sch0oL s0 earLy [ar0und 6:40] bc0z my first class starts at 7am and ive been s0 eager t0 go t0 sch0oL kahit sleepy pa tlaga, and 0f c0urse im expecting na regular na.. but what ive been expecting is the opp0site of what happened earlier.. haaayyyy.. as usual all of my pr0f are still n0t present... shit tlga.. wla ak0ng ginawa kundi makipagdaldalan.. ehehehe.. but 0n the c0ntrary medy0 pab0r din..kaya lang when it t0ok h0urs na nagdadaldalan kame.. haaayyyy nagsawa na k0 [as in!] given the fact that dris is n0t ar0und.. waaaa... mas 0pen kc ak0 sa kanya c0mpare kela angeL.. kc nag free sec pa ang l0karet na un eh! amff.. pasaway tlga..

but g0od thing ar0und 11am [take n0te..its my last subject] my pr0f arrived.. ahahaha... he's mr.jermillos [did i spell it ryt?!] anyway, he's my pr0f in panitikan... ay shit if you onLy knew.. he's s0 hard t0 please but he's c0oL kaya lang im expecting that we're really g0ing to have a very hard time sa kanya.. waaa.. baka di na k0 maka 1 dun.. ehehe.. but wats g0od about that mer0n kaming entablad0ng pagtatanghal [am i ryt?!] and were g0ing t0 make our own MTV.. ahahaha.. exciting n0h?! ive been wanting s0 much na gumawa ng MTV and syempre ak0 singer.. ahahaha [khafffaaaLLLLLL....] mala MYMP na naman daw un sabi ni geL.. ahahaha.. anyway, im really l0oking f0rward sa subjct na yun and syempre wiht my new pr0f..

an0ther thing.. we're pr0hibited t0 speak english in his class [respect daw un?!] khit single w0rd lang[kahit w0rd na "and" lang]..ahahaha.. parang baliw nga eh tp0s bigla ak0ng kinalabit ni mercy sabi ba nman dude,patay ka ngae0n! kayanin m0 kaya yun?!" sabi k0 naman "what d0 y0u think 0f me?!" tp0s bigla sabi "o kitams, tama ak0." ahahaha.. natawa lang ak0.. adik tlga ung mercelita capaz na un.. per0 kahit aadik adik un, mahal k0 ung l0karet na un.. sia kaya ang unang unang nakilala k0 sa ADU.. ehehehe...

haaayyy... i really d0nt kn0w what t0 except dis sem th0ugh ive been expecting s0 much.. ehehe [ang guLo ba?! adik eh..] ehehehe...

ay o0 nga pla last saturday im wid b0nn nga dba?! den ar0und 10pm we went h0me na.. [sa h0use nmin].. aun f0od trip.. m0vie marath0n.. at kung an0-an0 pa.. ehehe.. then he went h0me ar0und 2am na.. [early f0r t0morrow n0h?!] anyway, within th0se hours we're t0gether.. he asked me na magic phrase.. ehehe guess what kung an0 un?! "ney,mahal m0 ba ak0?!" amff tlga.. na starstruck ak0 nun tlga.. ehehe.. sabi na.. expect the unexpected.. edi syempre sabi k0, nde.. ahahaha.. per0 lam na nia un.. usually ganun lang tlga kme.. pareh0ng denial king and queen.. sanay na din kame..but on the 0ther hand, i really appreciate na tinan0ng nia k0.. ehehe.. parang bag0 kac eh.. s0 un lang muna f0r n0w..

ay its my dad's bday and syempre 14 ngae0n s0 it onLy means 3 years and 2 m0nths na kme ni b0nn.. wla lang share k0 lang...ehehehe..

ciao ciao..

pipol really d0 change..

2005-11-13T12:11:00.000+08:00

n0w, i can fully say what my friends and my m0m and dad always trying t0 p0int out.. that pipol really d0 change.. sabagay "n0thing is permanent, except CHANGE!"
im just sad bc0z of all the people, sila pa.. haaaayyyy... anyway, ill just keep it in my mind that pipol really changed.. including THEM!
anyway, whatever it is.. ill just keep it in myself [like i always did..]..hehe..
im with b0nn nga pla.. as usual, he's busy playing na nman.. but by this time he's busy playing DOTA [ammfff...].. haaaayyyy.. basta tama na nga...
ay o0 nga pala.. i have sent a birthday card na t0 my dad.. ehehehe.. h0pe he likes it.. kelan kaya nia un marereceive?!..

ciao ciao..

ive seen this fr0m a friend... ehehe..

2005-11-12T09:42:00.000+08:00

i have seen this fr0m a friend and g0t the idea na makigaya.. ehehe.. [specifically ke mica!]..hihi.. anyway, teynks mics f0r the idea.. n0w i have the best way t0 kill s0me of time d0ing n0thing... ehehe..

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is this blogthings are all true?!...ehehehe... bc0z im having s0me thought if it can really read my mind or can predict my pers0nality bc0z alm0st all of the results are true.. hhhmmmm.. anyway, g0t t0 go.. ciao ciao

haaayyyy life!

2005-11-12T05:29:00.000+08:00

i truly beliv dat life is s0 fair.. but der r tumes dat i cant av0id to think that life has been s0 unfair t0 me.. n0t all times but then there are still times that its really been s0 unfair in my past.. but then i still make it a p0int that i w0uld never ever asked him "WHY" ... dats what my m0m tells me all the time.. tnat whatever i may enc0unter [its either happiness or sadness] never asked him why, c0nsider it as a challenged and face it bravely.. haaaayyyy..

i kn0w, this saying is n0t unique n0wadays.. but is till want t0 imply that im 0nly human.. pr0ne t0 make mistakes.. and syempre der are times na weak ak0 [n0ob!].. but i really tend t0 keep it in my mind all the things my m0m had t0ld me.. haaayyy...

byt i really wished that i was much braver or even m0re braver c0mpare with my m0m... i really admire her x0 much.. i may never have the chance t0 let her kn0w h0w much i admire her, but still.. i cant erase the fact that s0metimes im h0ping that i was like her... she's really s0 brave.. and t0 sum it all up.. she d0esnt care what 0ther people may say.. as l0ng as she kn0ws what she's been d0ing can bring g0od things and happiness ahead of her....
but y0u kn0w what.. c0mpare dati, i can say that im much braver.. hehe! i can face pr0blems kn0w.. and without even n0ticing of other people that im in pain or that i have s0 many burdens.. hehe! basta ive been telling t0o much na.. ehehe!

ciao ciao!..

weeee....

2005-11-11T10:16:00.000+08:00

guess wat?! i didnt attend my class t0day... ahahahaha... and h0pefully until t0morrow..hehe.. bc0z its still n0t regular and my lazy pr0f are still n0t attending their class [dats wat im trying t0 say!] ehehe..

dis c0ming n0vember 14 it will be my dad's bday.. and until n0w, i cant think of s0mething t0 give... i want it t0 be special and s0mething mem0rable.. but by t0morr0w im h0ping that i was able t0 decide what kind of gift i will give t0 my dad..
and we're als0 [me and b0nn] celebrating our 3 years and 2 m0nths [gad!] its really quite l0ng... ehehehe.. anyway, im still glad that we're still ok.. *wink!*
s0 dats all f0r n0w.. ciao-ciao!

sec0nd semester...

2005-11-09T12:18:00.000+08:00

haaayyyy... t0mor0w back t0 sch0oL na nmn..hehe! nd im kinda excited kc new bl0ckmates na nman and an0ther thing is wla k0ng duty ngae0ng sem na t0h!..yah0ooo..

u kn0w, i think ive made the right decision t0 let him kn0w my eal feelings t0wards the past.. ehehehe... medy0 dyahe nga eh kya mega change t0pic ak0 everytime na pinapas0k nya yung t0pic na un..hehe! anyway, im glad that it really w0rked well in my part... haaaaaayyyyyyy...

medy0 tired na nga k0 eh.. bc0z ive been d0wnloading mp3s kanina pa..ehehe..wla lang trip k0 lang..ehehe.. parang adik n0h?! ay di pala parang, adik na pla tlga! ahahaha.. hinihintay k0 lang matap0s ung siege nila b0nn then uwi na kme.. aga pa ng class k0 t0morr0w.. ciao..

bum... bum... bum...

2005-11-04T10:18:00.000+08:00

as always bum na naman ak0 sa haus.. as in b0red na b0red na k0! One time, tlgang hinalungkat k0 na ang b0ok shelves k0 jas t0 find s0mething t0 read [past time ba?!]... and ayun wla ak0ng nahanap.. naka ilang ulit k0 na kcng mabasa din ung mga yun...
it rili ann0ys my wh0le senses pag wlang pas0k.. tag hirap din ak0.. waaaaa... and when i went out, im 0bliged t0 ask my m0m f0r s0me m0ney.. it rili ann0ys me when im asking f0r my m0m s0me m0ney and what she gave is n0t en0ugh.. hehe! Alam ni0 ba.. 500 na lng natira sakin.. waaaa... and sa 9 pa ang resume ng classes nman.. fuck! anyway, dats life!
ive been g0in out with my h0ney, alm0st all the time.. jas want t0 spend all of my available time with him kc pag may pas0k na issue na naman ang "wlang tym!" hmmmppp...
an0ther thing that 0ccupies much of my time is when mr.ugarta texted me aka jhay.. ehehe.. masyd0 bang fr0mal.. ehehe.. we txtd alm0st 24/7 ... sulit na sulit nga samin and unli ng sun.. hehe! he's my friend or let say my special friend.. he's really been special eversince the day we met.. haaaaayyyyy...
i really cant think of anything t0 blog ryt n0w.. wla masyd0ng adventure ang buhay k0 ngae0n.. ehehehehe... ciao

wat da?!

2005-10-30T09:20:00.000+08:00

its really been a tough week for me.. there's lot of pressures and problems that ive encountered in those past few weeks.. shit! i admit i really dont know how will i handle those problems... lots of thinking is badly needed and im sick and tired of thinking.

first is with my friend... a high school friend.. i really loved that girL but because of a simple reasn we had a quarrel.. its really not a big deal.. and im not in the mood to argue with her kaya lang she sound as if im so selfish.. and im so disappointed with her.. and maybe she also got the wrong impression that im also mad with her..

for you my friend.. u know how much i love and care for you.. and im not really mad with you.. i just hate the fact that you used my name giveb the fact that i told you not use mine, right?! But aside from that, wala na.. h0pe we could be able to talk things out.. =)

Next is with Bonn.. i dont know.. i really dont want to say any words regarding about this.. as i said, im so tired with this kind of problem.. Its been our problem eversince.. or let just say its only been my problem eversince we had this relationship.. Hindi ko na talaga alam what's the right thing to do.. ive seek help from my friends but then my decision will be the best thing to do.. Ive always been hoping that things will change for he better.. I think, both of us need is time.. time to think and time to decide whether to continue this relationship or not.. and time to realize how important both of us in our lives.. haaaayyyyy... its really confusing and complicated.. hope somebody out there, help me with this..